I recently stopped offering energy healing sessions given that the karmic healer saw that it was Moses who was essentially healing all of my clients. I sat in emptiness for one whole day, and then decided to start teaching yoga. The healer advised me not to touch anyone in my class (since my energy field is open and to avoid taking on energy that is not mine), which truthfully is very difficult for me as one of my favourite things about teaching yoga is healing via touch….
The night after I taught my first yoga class, I had a dream that warned me that I had “picked up” energy that was not mine in the class.
The night after I taught my second yoga class, I had another dream that warned me that I had picked up energy that was not mine. The next morning, Moses woke up screaming in pain with a terribly painful, heart-wrenching gastro-intestinal infection.
The night after I taught my third class, I had another dream that involved Moses being in the hospital and me teaching a yoga class. The next morning, Moses woke up screaming in pain with a stomach ache (the pain thankfully passed quickly after I rubbed DigestZen essential oil on his belly), but he was running a fever and essentially had the flu. So far, he’s missed two days of school and we had one trip to the hospital because his fever was so high that he was delirious and panicked, and he was having difficulty breathing and we are always concerned about him developing pneumonia. Four days later, he is no longer running a fever, but he has a bad cough and has no voice. He’s also sad because he had no play dates this weekend and is also missing so much school, which is making school that much more difficult for him.
And sadly, DH decided to restart Moses prophylactic antibiotic. The one that I was thrilled that he was given permission to stop last week.
Oh. My. Goodness.
What a vicious cycle this seems to be. I’m not quite sure what is happening, but given the warning dreams and the pattern of Moses getting sick after I teach yoga and also the warnings from the karmic healer, I have decided to stop teaching yoga. As I’m sure that you can appreciate, this is not an easy decision for me as I love to teach / heal, but I also can’t bear to continue this cycle. I have been getting a huge message to stop all forms of healing. Just stop.
So…. a friend of mine will be subbing my remaining three classes and then I will release the class. And I will give myself a long break and see what happens and how Moses responds. I’ll continue to practice yoga at home and take yoga classes. I’ll continue to attend my monthly meditation group. I’ll continue to practice working on the tools in Racquel’s “miracle seminars” cd, practice grounding extraneous energies down my grounding cord and other techniques. And then I’ll just focus on activities that feed me and my soul and my family. Like spending time with friends and family and nature.
After spending time grieving the loss of the class and the loss of my identity as a practicing “healer / yoga teacher”, I currently feel at peace with the decision.
A sweet message and reminder from a dear friend after I shared my news:
“I love you Janice – no matter what you do or don’t do. You are still a healer – your writings, your integrity – they are all leaving ripple effects in the world. May you find other beneficial outlets for the expression of who you are. You’re a gift no matter what you do. Please remember that.”
So be it and it is so and so it is!