I have been doing a lot of sacred ceremony lately on healing the masculine, the feminine and then an equinox fire ceremony. Praying for our family’s healing and that I may remember my divinity and step into the highest destiny for my life. Releasing perfectionism, people pleasing and fear.
While we were sitting together later in my friend’s living room, after placing our prayer sticks in the sand painting, I looked down at my mesa, my medicine bundle, and was surprised to see that a tiny green caterpillar was sitting on the flower on my mesa. I felt that it was a huge sign from Spirit that my prayers were taking form and being birthed, ready to be transformed into something beautiful.*
It’s stirring things up and Moses is so sensitive that his body often responds by creating abscesses. Our Heilkunstler always reminds me that abscesses symbolize resolution, stuff coming to the surface to be released and healed.
Still, it’s not easy. He developed 5 abscesses in the last week, and one has progressed enough that it will be drained under general anaesthetic on Monday. It’s extra stressful because DH and I are / were planning on going on holidays for a week at the end of this month. I blew all of my concerns into a mini prayer bundle and it was burned in a fire ceremony last night.
After last night’s fire, two of his abscesses disappeared, and now there are three…
Louise Hay in You can Heal your Life, says that the new thought pattern for healing abscesses is:
“I allow my thoughts to be free. The past is over. I am at peace.”
One of my friends had two dreams about our family last night. She dreamt that Moses was building a tower, and putting treasures in each block. Feels like such a rich dream and yet another reminder for me to see the bigger picture and not get caught up in the drama of it all.
I was visiting you at the hospital and Moses was very peaceful making a structure with blocks. In my second dream I told you that a priest had come by and a doctor and that they both shared a past life with Moses – they were aware of it but not Moses. I also told you, although I don’t remember seeing it in the first, that Moses was putting little treasures in every block of this structure he was building.
Then I heard bullying outside and left your room to investigate and just being there stopped one kid from beating up another. The bully left and the “victim” was crying saying he regretted teasing the bully. I told him people only loved you if you really loved them first. They needed to be shown how to do it.
I went back to your room (from the outdoor balconies) and a big group of very drama-filled / grief- stricken folks were trying to get in. I tried physically barring them and [DH] let me in and tried pushing them away and you were calm in the armchair and just whispered “see, he’s sleeping peacefully” this is not who you are looking for and they left…
Not sure if any of this is worth sharing, but the concept that Moses was building his own castle and hiding treasures and gifts in each block – something he had brought with him from before this life and had both physical(doctor) and spiritual (priest) support from those who knew of his plans – that felt good.
Please join us in our prayers that everything will be resolved with ease and grace. I am going with the flow of it all, and trusting that everything is unfolding for the highest good of all concerned.
*A dear friend also reminded me:
“What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.” ~Richard Bach
Sept 24, 2012 – We woke up to a miracle today. All of Moses’ abscesses are considerably smaller and the surgeon agreed that they didn’t need to drain it under general anesthesia. We were able to go home. Yay! And, I see a vacation for DH and I in our near future.
Thank you all for your prayers!
When we came home, I saw a brown caterpillar on our driveway, bigger than the green caterpillar that appeared on my mesa. Another sign that my prayers have taken form and are growing.