I started this blog in February 2009, when my son, Moses (not his real name), was 2.5 years old. At the time, he was extremely sensitive — emotionally and physically to the environment, to chemicals and to most foods (was 40+ foods at one point). When he was 4.5 years old, he was diagnosed with a very rare genetic primary immunodeficiency, Hyper IgE syndrome or Job’s Syndrome (which explains his extreme sensitivity and allergies to everything). We tried everything under the sun to heal our son because the medical system offered no cure for this diagnosis. Out of all of the many things that we tried (and we tried many, many things), Heilkunst homeopathy (a form of sequential homeopathy) has helped to address the root cause of this disorder and has healed him. My son is now a healthy and vibrant 10 year old. If you or a loved one is suffering from a difficult to treat ailment and you have no hope, I would encourage you to try Heilkunst. My son was once a “non-responder” and we were once desperate for an answer as well. I hope that by reading about the ups and downs in our journey, you will find the hope and encouragement that you are looking for.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in August 2016 over 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On July 26, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Euon. europ. 30C – (Physical – Rashes/Ear fissures/Cracked lips/Thrush/Asthma/Dry scalp/Food allergies/Bloody snot/Digestion) – a drop a day
2) Cycl. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety/Balanced emotions) – a drop a day
3) Azad. 1M – (Mentals – Brain fog/spaciness/Socialization/Sleep/Babyish behaviour) – a drop a day
4) Acute re stress of the impending move – Sip on #3 above.
New Timeline Wafers:
Gels. 30C/200C/1M/10M – Taking one every fifth night, 1-4. (Winter 2016 – Almost hit by a taxi and relives incident whenever he sees that brand of taxi.)
On the morning that Moses started on his new droppers, he woke up with a hoarse voice. Later that morning, he complained of pain in his right ear. He didn’t experience any other healing reactions.
On August 4th, Moses took his first timeline wafer related to almost getting hit by a taxi while crossing a cross-walk in front of his school in Winter 2016. He seemed like he needed extra reassurance / cuddles during the days that followed after he took his first timeline wafer.
He took his second timeline wafer on August 9th. Four days later, he had an increase in rashes on his inner elbows.
We flew across the country to visit Grammie Rosie and Grandpa George and arrived on the 13th. On August 14th, he started his third timeline wafer. Later that evening, his rashes seemed particularly bad: inner elbows, back of neck, front of neck and a smattering on his chest and his belly. I’m not sure if the increase in rashes is because we didn’t bring his probiotic (since it requires refrigeration and was difficult to travel with), the third timeline wafer, a change of diet (more sugar than normal), and/or the lack of sleep with the long travel day (he woke up at 4 am and didn’t sleep until 9:30 pm in the new time zone [which was midnight in the original time zone]). That’s a looooooooong day, especially for someone who is susceptible to being immuno-compromised. Not surprisingly, he also hasn’t been himself emotionally. He’s been a lot more short-tempered, for example. Despite the increase in rashes and change in emotional balance, these are pretty minor compared to what we have dealt with in the past. Overall, we’ve have been having a great time visiting with family and friends. Children’s Museum, Zoo, parks, and have plans for waterslides, go-karting, another museum and a trampoline park. Lots of fun!
Overall, Moses has been very adventurous during this three week period. For the first time, he jumped off a high diving board a few times at the pool. During one of the jumps, he wore his glasses, which flew off his face when he hit the water. Another diver helped to retrieve his glasses, but what was amazing about this experience is that he didn’t get me or get concerned when he lost his glasses. I was really proud of how brave he was to jump off the high dive and also how he managed the whole incident on his own.
And prior to our trip, Moses was very emotionally balanced, especially since things have been so topsy turvy in terms of whether or not we are moving across the country and relatives pulling on his heart strings about us potentially leaving them. He has been so grounded through this process – so amazing to witness.
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from June to July (6.5 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
I started the following droppers on June 11th:
- Prim. ob. 12C – (Physical – Digestion/Neck and shoulder pain/TMJ/Hay fever & Allergies) – a drop a day
- Sal. mollis. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety/Self-confidence and Self-esteem) – a drop a day
- Trimethyl. 1M – (Mentals – Finding own voice/Socialization/Life purpose/Preparation for move-new career-job interviews) – a drop a day
- Peri-menopausal symptoms – Merc. sul. 9C – once a day
New Timeline Wafers:
Corn. f. 30C/200C/1M/10M/50M (Job lay off – May 2016)
Physo 30C / 200C / 1M / 10M / 50M (grief regarding a death in the family – April 2016)
Immediately after starting my new droppers, I felt hit by a wave of tiredness and the tiredness lasted for days. I was wondering whether I was also starting to clear my layoff even though I hadn’t started my timeline wafer yet (again, the remedies often start to have an effect as soon as they are chosen by my Heilkunstler). I had a session with my energetically sensitive chiropractor two days after starting my new droppers, and he said that my body was processing “stuff”, likely based on the new droppers.
I started my timeline wafers to clear my recent job lay-off on the solstice (June 20th), and later that evening, I received a karmic healing, so I was releasing a lot at this time. I felt not my best in the days afterwards. I was comfort eating during this time.
These last 6.5 weeks were a busy time for me. I have been creating / holding space for a major transition for our family (moving across the country), which has been very emotional as we have very deep roots in St. John’s and close friends and family who are having a hard time with our impending move because everyone loves Moses so much.
On July 4th, I requested an acute dropper from my Heilkunstler to help me process guilt, grief and feelings of being selfish about leaving family and friends. The dropper helped almost immediately. I started my timeline wafers to clear my grief regarding a death in the family that occurred this past April on July 11th. About a week after starting these wafers, I was met with a wall of tiredness and inertia.
Overall, I have been feeling very good, strong and purposeful. I have been nourishing myself with meditations, walks in nature, spending time with good friends, and reading Tosha Silver’s Change Me Prayers and Outrageous Openness. I feel like Tosha’s books have changed my life, as I have listened to the divine’s whisper in my heart about the next chapter in my life’s unfolding. It promises to be beautiful.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in July 2016 over 3.5 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On July 1, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Carbo h. 12C – (Physical – Abscesses/Rashes/Dry scalp/Ear fissures/ Cracks in lips/Digestion) – a drop a day
2) Dulc. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress/Fears) – a drop a day
3) Fer. bro. 1M – (Mentals – Self-confidence/Friendships with peers/Brain fog or spaciness/Motivation/Behaving babyishly) – a drop a day
He started his new droppers on Canada Day, which was a fabulous and fun day. By the end of the day, he lost his voice, which may have been because of the new droppers or maybe it was the result of all of the fun that he had on Canada Day.
And on July 2nd, he took his 3rd timeline wafer related to clear all of the many general and local anesthesia that he endured in 2015 (post about the first 2 timeline wafers here). Moses didn’t have any obvious healing reactions, but the next day, DH had a healing reaction (stomach upsets, digestion issues, migraine). Good grief.
He took his 4th timeline wafer on July 11 with no obvious healing reactions. DH didn’t have a noticeable worsening of symptoms, but he was already in a bad state anyway emotionally.
DH remarked that Moses is the most emotionally balanced child or even person that we know. We are going through a huge transition (preparation for a move across the country) and leaving family and friends here, and he is taking everything in stride. We even found a new home for his budgie birds and he was able to let them go with ease and grace. It’s been amazing to witness.
As mentioned previously, Moses does best when he has a Heilkunst session every 3 weeks, but this session was pushed to 3.5 weeks. By day 23, Moses was starting to “lose it”. He woke up crying in the middle of the night, he complained of stomach pains, he was having sensitivities to foods that he typically isn’t sensitive to, he was sleeping in until 9:30 am, and was otherwise emotionally unbalanced. It helps me to see how the right remedies at the right time keep him so balanced, and how much it shows when his body is ready for new remedies.
If all goes as planned, these next 3 weeks will be a big one. Keep us in your thoughts during our big transition.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in June over 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On June 11th, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Gent. quin. 12C – (Physical – Rashes/Stomach aches/Dry scalp/Cracked lips/Asthma/Food Allergies/Brain fog) – a drop a day
2) Hyos. 200C – (Emotions – Stress level) – a drop a day
3) Myrica 1M – (Mentals – Friendships/Peer socialization/Forgetfulness re: homework/Self-confidence/Motivation at school) – a drop a day
New Timeline Wafers:
Phos. mur. 30C/200C/1M/10M – Taking on every fifth night. (General anesthetic on 6 occasions for abscess draining/Madazolam in addition to regular anesthesia/Local sedative – 2015)
The night before Moses started his new droppers, he was emotional and was feeling sick (runny nose, cough, sore throat, general achiness and malaise). I discussed last month that I felt that Moses’ malaise was because I delayed his Heilkunst appt by four days and that delay made all of the difference. He continued to feel under the weather the next day, but perked up after he received his first dropper. The power of homeopathy – it can work very quickly!!! Approximately a week after starting his new droppers, he had an increase in rashes on the back of his neck and the cracks on the corners of his lips were still pronounced.
On June 21st, he received his first timeline wafer to clear all of the many general and local anesthetic that he endured in 2015. Moses didn’t have any obvious healing reactions, but a couple of days after taking the first wafer, DH started complaining of stomach upsets, headaches, emotional stress, etc. (Since Moses has started taking timeline wafers, I’ve noticed that Moses is starting to clear through DH). hmm……..
It’s now June 30th and Moses has had a great 3 weeks. The only symptoms were an increase in rashes around his belly and near his armpits and the cracks on the corners of his lips are still pronounced.
Moses had a three day baseball tournament with his school. He did great – he was involved in the play, was well coordinated and so confident on the field. He caught a fly ball and made a couple other great catches. He hit every single ball that was thrown his way. And he hit one of the balls to the other side of the field. We are so proud of him!!!!
It’s now the summer and Moses has made it through Grade 4. He had a great report card and got top marks in most subjects. He improved in four subjects over the last term. We are so super proud of him. Over the year, Moses missed 3 weeks of school, but only missed a half day of school since March and he missed no school at all between April to June. Wowie!!!!!! (For context, last year Moses missed 4 weeks of school, so this was an improvement).
He still has 2 timeline wafers to take, but he has an appt with his Heilkunstler today, so will be starting new droppers soon. As discussed above, we have found that Moses needs new droppers every 3 weeks to maintain a good homeostatis.
We are going through some major transitions in our household and we are contemplating a cross-country move back to the city where Moses was born. Moses has been very open to a potential adventure / change. If Moses was still dealing with health issues, we wouldn’t even consider such a huge upheaval and leaving our family, friends and medical team here. Thankfully, Moses is doing well and we feel strong enough as a family to make a big move. Wish us luck!!!
More reading – other end of school year posts
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from the end of April to early June (6.5 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On April 26, 2016, I started the following droppers:
1) Stan. 30C – (Physical – Rashes/itchiness/peri-menopausal symptoms/TMJ/Neck and shoulder pain/Plantar warts/Allergies)
2) Phallus 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety re: work situation and potential move) – a drop a day
3) Merls. 1M – (Menials – Time for self/Job search/Potential relocation plans) – a drop a day
Hippoz. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – 1982 – Family upheaval when I was 9 years old
On May 3, 2016, I started the Hippoz. timeline wafers. Even before I received the wafers in the mail, I started having dreams that symbolized deep healing within my family of origin. I felt like it was a good sign of the healing to come.
After starting the timeline wafers, I felt a shift in my emotional body. DH asked me a couple of times if I was depressed. I responded that I wasn’t, but the fact that DH asked me that question is probably telling. The fact that I ate an entire container of ice cream in two days around this time is also telling. haha!
On May 18th, I had a session with my “energy healing” chiropractor and he said that my energetic body was completely different from how it typically is, so he could tell that something was “up” (likely related to the timeline clearing). In particular, he said my lower chakras were affected (especially my second chakra) and he felt that my inner child’s emotions from when I was 9 years old had been activated. He felt like it was very good work that I was doing. So fascinating.
I was itchy during this time and had rashes in much the same areas as last month (back, sides, thighs). Oh, so lovely.
On May 25th, I was laid off from my job, where I had worked for 15 years. My Heilkunstler prescribed me a homeopathic dropper to support me during this time (Stel. 12C). I have been doing a lot of self-care during the last 2.5 weeks and have been transitioning well. I’ve been receiving daily body work treatments (chiropractic, massage, acupuncture, cranialsacral work, physiotherapy), in addition to an astrological reading and I have a karmic healing booked next week. I’ve been meditating, going for nature walks and spending time with friends. Taught an essential oil class last week and have been sharing the oils with others. Allowed myself space to grieve and release my old identity within my former position. Did a releasing ceremony at a stream near our home to help with letting go. I have been nourishing my mind with Lissa Rankin’s Anatomy of a Calling and Tosha Silver’s Change Me Prayers. Overall, I’ve been feeling really good during this time. Envisioning the work and my place in the world that I’d like to create. I’ve been feeling very supported by the universe.
I am currently in the “sacred space between stories”.
“If you are in the sacred space between stories, allow yourself to be there. It is frightening to lose the old structures of security, but you will find that even as you might lose things that were unthinkable to lose, you will be okay. There is a kind of grace that protects us in the space between stories. It is not that you won’t lose your marriage, you money, your job or your health. In fact, it is very likely that you will lose one of these things. It is that you will discover that even having lost that, you are still okay. You will find yourself in closer contact to something much more precious, something that fires cannot burn and thieves cannot steal, something that no one can take and cannot be lost. We might lose sight of it sometimes, but it is always there waiting for us. This is the resting place we return to when the old story falls apart. Clear of its fog, we can now receive a true vision of the next world, the next story, the next place of life. From the marriage of this vision and this emptiness, a great power is born”. – Eisenstein in The More Beautiful World our Hearts Know is Possible
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late May to early June 2016 over a 3.5 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On May 17th, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Lycopers. 30C – (Physical – Rashes/Preventive for abscesses/Cracks in lip corners/Food Allergies/Asthma/Immunity re Tetanus/Eczema/Anxiety/stress) – a drop a day
2) Ferrum 200C – (Emotions – Night fears/Friendship Issues) – a drop a day
3) Digital. 1M – (Mentals – Brain fog/Focus re schoolwork/Socialization Skills/Babyishness/Sense of well-being) – a drop a day
On the morning before he started his droppers, he had a stomach ache, which I suspected was related to the droppers. (Moses often responds as soon as his Heilkunstler prescribes the droppers, even before he receives the first drop). Before he went to bed, he complained of another stomach ache (which was soothed by a digestive essential oil blend) and was very emotional at bedtime. Similar to last month’s healing reaction, his emotional state reminded me of what he was like many moons ago. Later that evening, he cried out in the night while he was sleeping and I thought he was going into a night terror, but I was there to “catch it”, and I told him he was sleeping and he fell back to sleep.
The next day, he was focused with his math homework, but at bedtime, his energy was manic / emotional again, but not as intense as the first night.
Two days after starting his droppers, he had an increase in rashes on his chest, his armpits and his back. (He had no rashes on these areas prior to starting the new droppers). Also, his face was really dry and the cracks on the corners of his lips were very pronounced.
On May 20th, he took his 3rd timeline wafer (Thuja 200C) to clear developing pneumonia in April 2015. The next day, he went to sleep crying for the third time during this week because he was in trouble for something. This has been a very emotional week for Moses at bedtime, although during the day, Moses was active and on the go with his friends, playing basketball, ball hockey and riding his scooter.
On May 25th, he took his 4th timeline wafer (Thuja 1M). He didn’t have any noticeable healing reaction, but I noticed that DH developed a painful stye on his eye later that same day (and Moses used to develop a lot of styes). DH also had a painful bump on the top of his head, which probably started around the same time that Moses took his 3rd timeline wafer.
Overall, Moses’ healing reaction this month was mostly emotional.
DH and I are currently at a place where we no longer think of Moses as a “poor sick child”. We now see him as the vibrant and healthy boy. When people used to ask me how Moses was, I would always automatically think of all of the physical ailments that he was dealing with, but I would respond with a not very convincing, “He’s doing good”. Now when people ask me how Moses is doing, I no longer think about his ailments (since he doesn’t really have any) and I respond with a resounding, “He’s doing phenomenal!”.
This same month, Moses participated in his school’s Public Speaking night since he was one of the 2 finalists in his class and one of 6 finalists within Grade 4. I was so proud of my boy! He teacher was also proud of him and told me that typically the same children always get chosen for these events and she’s always so happy when a quieter student gets chosen. It felt like Moses was really coming out of his shell.
The fact that Moses was also involved in a Public Speaking event also has deeper significance for me because on the evening that Moses was diagnosed with a primary immunodeficiency 6 years ago, I received a vision of Moses as an adult. In that vision, Moses was on a stage speaking to a large audience. I can still see that vision to clearly in my mind’s eye. He was strong, healthy, charismatic, grounded, fully present. Inspiring others. Fully engaged with life and living his life purpose. I first wrote about that vision 6 years ago, and that vision has kept me inspired through all of the ups and the downs that we have experienced since that day. Dear friends, if you or your loved one is dealing with a difficult health challenge, hold strongly to your vision of health. Because that vision (especially combined with Heilkunst) will one day bring you true healing.
Our family was on a hike last week and as Moses bounded effortlessly up the hill that I climbed with effort, DH asked me if I ever thought our son would ever be doing the things that he’s doing today. He told me that he honestly didn’t think it would ever happen, whereas, I told him that I never doubted that one day Moses would be healed and be a healthy boy. In fact, in some ways, I had a harder time with all of his many hospitalizations and bouts of illness because his hospitalizations weren’t congruent with my inner vision of the truth.
Last night, Moses’ teacher emailed us to let us know how far Moses has come in his reading this year. He has moved up 5 reading levels, which is a huge progress in one year. His teacher is so proud of him. She remarked that he hasn’t missed any time from school lately and the day-to-day consistency is really paying off. She’s also so proud of the extra effort he has been putting into school. Seriously, it doesn’t get much better than this.
Also, Moses hasn’t needed frequent physician appointments like he used to. We used to see his surgeon at least once a week and now we are seeing his surgeon every 2 months. Moses had a follow-up appointment yesterday and his surgeon was so happy to see how well Moses is doing. He hasn’t had any new abscesses develop since we started Doxycycline in February. We are thrilled about this. I feel that Heilkunst has healed Moses’ in all aspects of his health, but there’s no denying that the Doxycyline has also helped to keep his abscesses at bay.
By the way, this round of healing was 25 days in length (vs. our typical 21 days) and this proved to be too long. Moses was VERY emotional today. And tonight, he was feeling sick (cough, runny nose, sore throat, feeling run down, tired). He was more than ready for his next round of droppers.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late April 2016 to May 2016 over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On April 26, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Myrt. com. 12C – (Physical – Rashes/Asthma/Digestion/Sleep/Dry scalp/Food allergies/Thrush) – a drop a day
2) Plat. m. n. 200C – (Emotions – Stress re: bully) – a drop a day
3) Rh. a. 1M – (Mentals – Brain fog/Spaciness/babyish behaviour/Socialization) – a drop a day
Timeline Wafers – Thuja 12C/30C/200C/1M – clearing pneumonia on vacation in Vancouver – April 2015 – emotions regarding getting sick during his Make-a-Wish trip last year, as well as for the illness itself and the drugs and multiple hospital visits. (To minimize the potential for healing reactions, he is taking one wafer every 5 day vs. taking one wafer every day).
Two days after starting his droppers, Moses wasn’t himself emotionally (which is unfortunate because he had a radio interview that day because it was Make-a-Wish day – in retrospect, I probably should have delayed the new droppers). He also got in trouble at school that day, so he was “grounded” and he was feeling very emotional about everything. Oh boy.
Five days after starting his droppers, we were at his three year old cousin’s birthday party (and there were tons of little kids running around). Moses couldn’t take the noise and the heat, so we hung out in a quieter part of the house. He was also emotional about not being able to play in the bouncing castle because he was too big. Moses’ sensitivity and emotional state reminded me of what he was like so many moons ago when he was so emotionally and socially sensitive.
On May 4th, Moses took his first of four timeline wafers to clear the pneumonia that he developed during his Make-a-Wish trip in April 2015. Four nights later, he didn’t have a night terror, but awoke the following morning to tell me he had a really bad dream. (This is progress!) He took his second wafer five days later on May 9th, and later that evening, we received a glowing report from his teacher about how hard he worked and how focused he was, especially during math! Yay! This same day, we were concerned about Moses being clueless on how to be a good friend (i.e., he is often inconsiderate of others’ feelings and often, unintentionally, hurts others as a result of being so clueless/not great at being empathetic or inclusive). It’s been an ongoing theme as we reflect back on some of his relationships / hurt feelings / lost friendships in the past.
On May 12th, our often shy, but sometimes surprisingly outgoing and engaging boy was chosen as one of the Grade 4 finalists for his recitation of the poem, ‘I Ate a Tooth this Morning’. I was completely and utterly surprised when I found out. I completely felt like this was a definite gain that has occurred as a result of all of the Heilkunst treatments, and perhaps in particular to this month’s deeper clearing. As my Heilkunstler said, “He’s really blossoming”. And he is. He really and truly is. It is amazing and such a joy to witness. On May 13th, he came home with a note acknowledging how well he has been listening at school. Wow – really? Our boy, focused and listening well?! The same day, he developed a new rash on his face and the corners of his lips, which had healed for about a month, were cracked again.
On May 14th, he celebrated his 10th birthday with 5 of his closest friends and had a blast.
Dear friends, I don’t think it gets much better than this.
He’s only 2 wafers into his timeline clearing, but he has next appointment with his Heilkunstler tomorrow, so he will be starting new droppers soon and will be receiving his 3rd and 4th wafers soon. I am thrilled that Moses is now strong enough to tolerate timeline clearings. (Our Heilkunstler gave Moses a full year of being treated with droppers alone because Moses’ body was once too sensitive to tolerate timeline clearings due to potential destabilizing healing reactions). I’m thankful that’s no longer the case, and he is now experiencing some great gains by being about to clear these timeline traumas.
We received the results of his blood work from 6 months ago (November 2015) and all is well, although, not surprisingly, his IgE levels are still high (greater than 20,000) and his eosinophils are high (0.96 10^9/L). Also his antibodies to tetanus are low (0.04), and they would like to give him a tetanus vaccine to boost these levels. I am not interested in Moses getting this booster given the risks associated with it (i.e., according to the VAERS database, there have been 1906 cases of severe vaccine reactions to the tetanus vaccine or combination diptheria-tetanus vaccines, including Guillain-Barre syndrome and neuropathy, lupus, arthritis, convulsions, anaphylactic reactions, including 78 deaths).
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from mid-March to April (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On March 12, 2016, I started the following droppers.
1) Polyg. 30C – (Physical – Rashes/Neck and shoulder pain/Digestion/TMJ/Plantar warts/Hay fever/Allergies to dogs and cats) – a drop a day
2) Nat. sulphurous. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety) – a drop a day
3) Kali pm. 1M – (Mentals – Life purpose/Self-confidence/Transitioning career) – a drop a day
A – Nat. ars. 30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – for Moses’ Job’s Syndrome diagnosis – 2010
B – Datur. a. 30C/200C/1M/10M50M – Giving up energy healing – December 2013
On March 18th, I started the Nat. ars. wafers to clear the trauma of Moses’ Job’s syndrome diagnosis when he was 4 years old in 2010. I didn’t experience a noticeable change to this clearing (no healing reaction), but Moses had a great March and his Heilkunstler attributed the fact that Moses has been doing exceptionally well lately to the fact that I cleared this event on my timeline.
On my 43rd birthday on April 3, one of DH’s cousins, a bright light, died unexpectedly in her sleep and I grieved her death. She was kind-hearted, generous of spirit, a joy to be around, outrageously funny, inspiring, wise, resilient, courageous and strong. I asked my Heilkunstler for some support and she prescribed an acute dropper for me (China 200C). I felt that it immediately eased my heartache.
On April 5th, I started the Datur. a. wafers to clear the heartache and grief associated with letting go of being an energy healer based on advice that I received from my karmic healer in December 2013. I grieved for at least 6 months – maybe more. It was a huge loss of identity for me at the time. More than two years later, I don’t feel the same loss or grief anymore, but I felt that this was an important event in my timeline to be cleared. About a week after starting these wafers, I developed an intensely itchy rash that spread over a lot of my body (my entire torso, especially my sides, my back) and I was itchy elsewhere (my calves, my thighs, the backs of my knees). The rash and itchiness wasn’t as bad as when I cleared Lepr, but it was pretty bad. It’s been 2.5 weeks since I started the wafers and I still have the rash. I suspected the rash symbolized a metamorphosis / shedding of an old identity / skin.
I was in a modern dance recital a couple of weeks ago. Although I have always loved to move and dance, I wasn’t very enthusiastic about being in the recital. I lamented that I wasn’t a very good dancer – I couldn’t really remember the steps, I have a difficult time with turns, and I can’t count out the music. I can’t remember which move is done at which count. I also didn’t feel comfortable wearing a form-fitted dress. I admitted this to a friend, and she reminded me that I have a gorgeous figure. Isn’t it so interesting how we are always our own harshest critic?
I’ve been reading a lot of books lately about being okay with being vulnerable and being brave and how just showing up is courageous. I reminded the hyper-critical perfectionist in me that I didn’t need to be the best dancer. I just needed to show up. It wasn’t about being perfect (something that I have always struggled with).
My recital has now come and gone and I absolutely loved the whole experience. I re-discovered the part of me that not only loves to dance, but also to perform. And, lo and behold, I looked beautiful in my dress. And, I danced alongside my fellow dancers and friends beautifully. Not perfectly, but beautifully, nonetheless.
It was a lovely experience. Really.
It reminded me of how I loved to perform in high school plays. I never had the largest parts, but I loved performing nonetheless. I’m an introvert who loves to be seen from time to time.
It was also a huge boost in my confidence. I made some new friends / connections. I reconnected to my own beauty and grace.
Interestingly, this ties back into my grief of letting go of being an energy healer. It is because I stopped offering healing sessions and stopped teaching yoga classes that I had time to sign up for a modern dance class. And look at the beauty that it has brought into my life.
My soul and my body are so happy that I am dancing again. Just for fun. Just for me.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in April 2016 over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On April 2, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Bry. 12C – (Physical – Fissures on ears/Rashes/Abscesses/Thrush on lips/Food allergies/Asthma/Immune boost/Vision) – a drop a day
2) Dros. 30C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress at school) – a drop a day
3) Ledum 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Sleep/Self-confidence/Brain fog/Attention span and focus/Friendships/Babyishness) – a drop a day
Even before we received his new droppers, Moses slept in past 9 am, so I felt like the droppers were already working on him immediately. (It sounds crazy, but they start to work as soon as they are prescribed, even before he takes the first drop). Two days after starting his new droppers, he was very itchy at school and Benadryl didn’t work like it normally does. Three days after starting the new droppers, he had a mild night terror. Four days after starting the new droppers, he was extra itchy at night. Five days after starting the droppers, he walked in his sleep, for the first time. Weird. During this same time, he read for 30 minutes (something he has never wanted to do before – we typically need to force him to read for 15 minutes every day) because he was very enthusiastic about his new Big Nate book that his Grammie gifted to him.
This was another great three week period with only very mild healing reactions. He needed his puffer a lot a couple of weeks ago and the backs of his ears are torn up at the moment, but this is all very minor. He continues to be healthy and well. He remains abscess-free.
I wonder how long I will continue these updates. Moses is healthy and well, and I’m aware that these updates probably make for boring reading. (This is a good thing, since this means that life is going along tickety boo). Still, there’s a part of me that is motivated to continue to keep going with these updates for my own records (I’m a scientist at heart and I’m interested in patterns), and so I will continue until I’m no longer motivated to share.
Plus, these updates remind me how lucky we are to have discovered Heilkunst and reminds me about how far we have come. And hopefully, it offers some of you who may be contemplating starting Heilkunst some encouragement.