I started this blog in February 2009, when my son, AJ (not his real name; Moses isn’t his real name either, but he wanted me to call him AJ on this blog as of Jan 2017), was 2.5 years old. At the time, he was extremely sensitive — emotionally and physically to the environment, to chemicals and to most foods (was 40+ foods at one point). When he was 4.5 years old, he was diagnosed with a very rare genetic primary immunodeficiency, Hyper IgE syndrome or Job’s Syndrome (which explains his extreme sensitivity and allergies to everything). We tried everything under the sun to heal our son because the medical system offered no cure for this diagnosis. Out of all of the many things that we tried (and we tried many, many things), Heilkunst homeopathy (a form of sequential homeopathy) has helped to address the root cause of this disorder and has healed him. My son is now a healthy and vibrant 10 year old. If you or a loved one is suffering from a difficult to treat ailment and you have no hope, I would encourage you to try Heilkunst. My son was once a “non-responder” and we were once desperate for an answer as well. I hope that by reading about the ups and downs in our journey, you will find the hope and encouragement that you are looking for.
This is a summary of AJ’s Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late January to mid-February over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On January 28, 2017, AJ started the following droppers:
1) Atham. 30C – (Physical – Abscesses/Eczema/Thrush on corners of mouth/Rashes/Allergies/Bump on head/Accident prone/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Dol. 200C – (Emotions – Overly emotional/Anxiety/Stress/Fears) – a drop a day
3) Gent. crucial. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Popularity/Peer socialization/Athleticism/Creativity/Academics/Self-confidence) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety – Merc. praecox. alb. 30C – as needed
We started Nature’s Bounty Flax Seed Oil, since we recently stopped Amaranth oil
AJ had been doing well for a couple of days when he started his new droppers. Making lots of friends at school. Doing well academically. Enjoying his weekly hockey games and continuing to score a few goals every game. Also, he was being very creative. Drawing late into the evening when he was supposed to be sleeping. Painting plaster moulds. We hope that this “rest phase” would continue. His last day of 24/7 CoRe treatment was on Jan 30th. I did really feel that the CoRe treatment helped to stabilize him.
As of Feb 1, AJ was still doing well. Yay! Also, the abscess under his armpit resolved on its own (disappeared), but he still had one somewhere else. Because it was in an uncomfortable spot, we booked an appointment for it to be drained under general anaesthesia on Feb 10th.
But then on Feb 2nd, AJ was a dark cloud. Mad. Frustrated. Emotionally regressing at a dental appt. And he COULDN’T TAKE HIS ABSCESS ANYMORE. He wanted them to drain it right away, but the surgery was scheduled for 8 days away. I called his surgeon’s office and there was a cancellation for the following Monday, so it was moved up to Feb 6th. Thank goodness because if they hadn’t been able to reschedule it, I had planned to bring him to the ER on Feb 3rd to get it drained. ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh. I am so sick of this vicious terrible cycle of abscesses and surgical drainage that we are on. I checked with his Heilkunstler to see if his dark cloud was because he was ready for new droppers, but she reported that they were still working quite well. She said that it’s all the invasive poking and prodding AJ was going through (i.e., dental appt at children’s hospital, probably reminding him of his recent dental trauma a short couple of weeks ago) created his dark mood. He had a night terror later that night.
We restarted the 24/7 CoRe treatment on the evening of Feb 5th and continued for 4 days. The focus of the treatment was to help AJ stabilize emotionally and physically while he fasts on Feb 6th and to positively deal with the general anaesthesia and incision and healing of the abscess.
On the evening of Feb 5th, AJ had a bad dream, but not a night terror (so that’s progress).
Abscess drainage and 4th IVIG
On Feb 6th, AJ had two more abscesses drained (right armpit and another area). As he always does, he came out from the anaesthesia with “emergence delirium”. Screaming, kicking, angry and itchy. Because he had an IV already inserted from the surgery, his immunologist decided that it would be a good time for him to receive IVIG (since last time was such an ordeal), but AJ was so mad because he just wanted to go home and he was so sick of being in the hospital. Even though he already had the IV inserted, he was upset about the flushing, so they still had to give him Midazolam in order to calm him down enough for them to get the IVIG infusion started. It took 4 nurses (3 to hold him down and 1 to squirt the 2 syringes of Midazolam into his mouth). He screamed things like, “I hate my life and everything in my life!” [Things that parents wish they never have to hear their children say in their lifetime]. They infused it over 4 hours from 4 pm to 8 pm, so it was a long day, since we got to the hospital at 9:45 am, and didn’t leave the hospital until 9 pm at night.
Later that evening, he had one dose of Septra to see if he would tolerate it okay. Septra is an antibiotic that is effective against MRSA and individuals with AJ’s diagnosis often take Septra prophylactically, but because he also has G6PD-deficiency, the physicians have been reluctant to try him on Septra because it’s contraindicated for individuals with G6PD-deficiency. But we are desperate for these abscesses to stop, so we are open to them trying it (even though a couple of weeks ago, I mourned the fact that he wouldn’t be antibiotic-free for long).
On Feb 8th, he started an acute dropper (Arg. n. 12C) for sorrow. This was his first day back to school. He walked to school and back home on this very cold day on his own because I started work very early that morning (typically I start work after I drop him off at school). Later that evening, he was his normal self, joking around, had a voracious appetite and played hockey at the rink with DH. It felt like we were getting back to our normal groove.
Feb 9th was his last day of his three day 24/7 CoRe treatment. He called me at work at 11:30 am, complaining of a headache and stomach ache, although when I got him home, he seems okay. Still had a good appetite. DH brought him to the children’s hospital so he could have follow up blood work after his one dose of Septra. Thankfully, he was a trooper for the blood work and it wasn’t a traumatic experience for him. He played hockey at the rink with DH again later that night.
We had a great weekend. One of AJ’s friends hung out with us on Saturday and we went for a 4 km hike in the mountains. On Sunday, we went to the Rogers Hometown Hockey event at Cochrane and he even got Ron MacLean’s signature.
It felt like life was getting back to normal, but then on Feb 13th, he developed another abscess on his left armpit, which means that he had 2 abscess in total. ugh. ugh. ugh. And then on Feb 15th, he had an abscess starting under his right eye. He started taking a prophylatic antibiotic (Septra) every 2nd days, starting on Feb 15th. He will have follow up blood work next week to make sure that it’s not causing hemolysis. We are all sad that AJ’s body continues to create these abscesses. We do hope that prophylactic Septra will help. We can’t continue like this.
We have our next Heilkunst appt today on Feb 17th.
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from early January to mid-Feb (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On January 7, 2017, I started the following droppers:
1) Illic. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Skin/Sleep/TMJ/Foot calluses/Hay fever/Allergies/Peri-menopause/Neck and shoulder pain) – a drop a day
2) Hedysar. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress re: AJ and new job) – a drop a day
3) Form. 1M – Mentals – Life purpose/Self-confidence/Self-esteem/Socialization/Adjustment to life in Calgary) – a drop a day
4) Acute – Peri-menopausal symptoms – Chlorum 12C – as needed
5) Acute – anxiety over new job, transitions, and AJ’s condition – Azad. 30C
New Timeline Wafer:
Imper. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – Trauma AJ’s birth
When I started my new droppers, I was still clearing my friend’s death in June 2006 (I had taken my last timeline wafer on the day before I started my new droppers). I was doing okay emotionally, but was still eating a lot of comfort food. We were just getting back into our new back to school and work routine and I was in the middle of “birthing” an educational program for physicians and nurses.
A couple of days later, on Jan 9th, I had cold symptoms (sore throat, achy, chilled, headache, low energy). I very rarely get a cold, so I figured this was likely related to my timeline clearing. Oddly enough, DH also had a cold at the same time, but thankfully (and remarkably), AJ didn’t. Woot woot!!!
It was very hard for me to continue to work with my cold, but I felt like I had to because I was in the middle of birthing an educational program and there were a lot of pieces that were coming together. I was pleased with how things were unfolding, but it wasn’t easy given that I wasn’t feeling my best.
By Jan 14th, I was feeling better and was feeling happy about the success of the birth of our new educational program. I was busy, busy, busy with work, including working late hours, but I was fed to my core because I love, love, love what I’m doing and the educational program that we are creating. It feels like important, soulful and meaningful work. It felt like the worst of my healing reaction to my last wafers was behind me and I was feeling less stressed about things in general. Happy because AJ was doing so well with his transition to his new school and was healthy and well.
And then everything really all fell apart during a period between Jan 17th to 19th when AJ had to get to the ER (again) for more anaesthesia to drain a huge abscess on his face that was causing facial cellulitis, had a baby tooth removed, started IV antibiotics and then needed his monthly IVIG treatment (you can read all about that here). During same week, I was birthing my educational program and it was a very, very busy time at my work. I was burning the candle at both ends, working while at the hospital with AJ, and then working travelling across town during the evening to help deliver educational sessions. I had been scheduled to work three evenings that week, but gave up one of my shifts because it was too much and I needed some time.
DH confided in me that for the first time, he regretted moving across the country, away from his family. He worried (well, we both did) that perhaps both of us can’t hold full time jobs, especially because his job isn’t flexible and he can’t very well do inspections of homes and businesses remotely / from home. Fortunately, I can do some of my work remotely, but really, I’m more productive in my office because all of my papers are in the office, and part of my job also involves travelling out of town (quite a lot of travel, actually) and right now, I’ve started working some early mornings and some evenings. The truth is that many parents of immuno-compromised children often have one parent who doesn’t work because it’s really a full time job in itself to make it to all of the appointments and to provide all of the physical and emotional support that the child needs. It was easier with my last job because I worked exclusively from home, 300 m from AJ’s school and 15 minutes from the hospital and I also worked part-time hours, AND they also knew that my son had health concerns and when AJ was sick, they knew that he was my priority and would allow me the time and space to deal with AJ’s illnesses when they occurred. Fortunately, I am highly productive, effective and valuable as an employee so they allowed me the flexibility when I needed it.
My current work is also flexible and understanding, but with the travel that is required, I am a bit worried. I just hope that AJ’s health will stabilize by the time I am travelling out of town (which will start in April). May it be so because I love my job. It fulfills me at a deep, deep level, so I feel intuitively that it will all work out.
Clearing AJ’s birth
It’s now Sunday, January 29th, and AJ’s emotional and physical health has been stable for four days and we’re all so thankful and happy. We are getting back to “normal”. DH is mountain biking this morning, AJ will go skating with a friend this afternoon, and I will be painting tonight with a friend. Yay, yay, yay!
On January 27th, I started a new timeline clearing (Imper. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M), clearing AJ’s birth (again). A couple of months ago, I cleared the events of the 6 first days of AJ’s life when he spent time in NICU. A few years ago, I cleared his birth with a different Heilkunstler. (And AJ has cleared his own birth – the physical effects and emotional effects). Since we moved back to AJ’s birth city in September, I’ve been sequentially clearing events associated with different hospitals as we have returned to these hospitals and it has been re-triggering traumatic events for me (e.g., Children’s hospital clearing last month).
Starting next week, I’ll be birthing an educational program at the very hospital where AJ was born, so it’s timely that I’m clearing his birth. Given that AJ and I are so interconnected, any clearing that I do helps us both, and it’s particularly important given that AJ’s system is currently too sensitive for him to handle any of his own timeline clearings. (He has done his own timeline clearings in the past with different Heilkunstlers and they were very destabilizing for him, and he’s also done his own timeline clearings with our current Heilkunstler, but only when his system was strong enough to handle it).
I have no doubt that the recent clearings that I’ve done with respect to clearing traumas at these various hospitals has helped. For example, I can feel a difference when I am at the Children’s hospital with AJ. I am currently no longer burdened by the dozens of times that we have spent at the hospital. It feels like when I am with AJ at the hospital, I am only dealing with the emotions of the visit at hand, rather than cumulative emotions of all of the times that we have been there in the past. It has made it easier for me to be at peace and present with AJ, and kinder when I am dealing with physicians and nurses. I have been making peace with the past and with the present. A couple of weeks ago, I spent 4 days at the hospital with AJ and I managed to maintain my peace for the first three days, but lost it by the 4th day. I think this is progress.
A month ago, I was actually on the birthing unit at the hospital where AJ was born, and I noticed that I wasn’t triggered emotionally. It didn’t hurt my heart to be there. I feel that this is deep progress, and I do feel that we will get to the point where AJ is stabilized again and we won’t need to be visiting the hospital as frequently as we have been. This my prayer and hope, but I feel at the core of me that this time is near. Perhaps this time is already being birthed.
I’ve been doing some deep deep clearing of my own in recent months. At the end of November, I cleared what is probably my own biggest childhood trauma and it rocked me to my core. We had recently moved into a new home and AJ then had a difficult December and January, and I’ve been getting used to a new job in a new field of work (birthing an important educational program), so it’s been a huge time of change and transition for us all. I feel that we are just now in the first few days of a new time of our lives. I can feel it. I think all of the difficult times have paved the way for this time of new health and emotional freedom. I can feel it. I honour myself, my courage and my process. And, thank you, dear reader and friend, for being a silent witness to our journey. Thank you.
People have asked me whether I regret moving across the country given how destabilizing it has been for AJ. I don’t have any regrets. Even given how difficult it has been for him and for our whole family, I feel in my heart of hearts that it was the best move for our family. It’s been rough for sure, but I have no doubt that we will get through it. I feel that this city is vibrationally in sync with who I am, in a way that our last city wasn’t. I am in a job that feeds my soul. I’m 43 years old and I have never felt that way about a job. It’s worth it for me. DH wasn’t happy in our last city. He needs to be in a city that is sunny and where it’s easier to be physically active outside. He loves to mountain bike and now we live in the foothills of the mountains. We can see the mountains from our house. DH has the mountains and the sun tattoo’d on his back. We were meant to live here. AJ loves his new school and has been making some good friends. He is starting to show signs that he is thriving here. He is creating in a way that he has never created before (e.g., drawing, painting, creating “magical potions”). I hope and pray that these good days will continue. May it be so.
I took my last timeline wafer related to AJ’s birthday on Jan 31st. Coincidentally, I was at AJ’s birth hospital on that very day. I had planned to scope out the rooms where we were going to be running educational sessions starting on Feb 2nd. And the day turned out to be a complete and utter gong show. I left my laptop on the staff shuttle bus at 9:15 am, which threw my morning off as I tried to track it down. And, then I couldn’t even get into the rooms where we were going to be running our sessions because they were booked by other users (and even if I did get in the rooms, I didn’t have my laptop with me anyway, so it was kind of a moot point). Thankfully, I got my laptop back later that day, but I was on pins and needles for most of the day since it wasn’t turned in until the late afternoon. Thank goodness for honest staff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part of me wondered if the clearing of AJ’s birth had something to do with the fact that my day went completely sideways, especially since I happened to be at the very same hospital where AJ was born. I had trouble sleeping later that night. I suspected my difficult sleep had to do with this clearing. My itchiness and the rashes on my torso were up as well.
I had a better sleep the evening of Feb 1st in that I slept soundly, however, I had dreams of abscess drainages, surgeries and the dream sequence included both AJ’s birth and all of our recent hospital visits meshed altogether. I felt like it was a significant dream that things were being worked on within my psyche. I was also reminded in my dream how I didn’t allow myself to fully emotionally bond with AJ when he was first born because I had an underlying fear that he might die. (And as I write these words, I’m reminded that an astrologer read both of our astrological charts in May 2016 and he told me that I came into this lifetime with a karmic imprint related to fear that I would have a child who would die, and AJ came in with a karmic imprint of fear that he would die early in life).
That very next morning, on Feb 2nd, it was like a flip had switched and everything that had been going right was suddenly going wrong. AJ was a dark cloud emotionally. Mad. Frustrated. Emotionally regressing at a dental appt. And he COULDN’T TAKE HIS ABSCESS ANYMORE. He wanted them to drain it right away, but the surgery was scheduled for 8 days away. I called his surgeon and there was a cancellation for the following Monday, so it was moved up to Feb 6th. Thank goodness because if they hadn’t been able to reschedule it, I had planned to bring him to the ER on Feb 3rd to get it drained. ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh. I am so sick of this vicious terrible cycle of abscesses and surgical drainage that we are on. I felt other emotions rising to the surface too. Feelings of guilt – that overwhelming guilt – why can’t I keep my son healthy and well? The guilt is a huge emotional burden that I carry. Although it was painful for these emotions to come to the surface, I was also relieved that they were showing up because I also felt like I was reaching another layer of my own healing (which in turn will help AJ). During the last few months when we get into these cycles of hospital visits and emotional stress, I’ve been seeing a vision that the unhealed aspects of my psyche do make things worst. I can see how AJ’s emotional stress “plugs right into” my emotional stress and we so easily get derailed emotionally when things start going sideways. I feel that once I heal some of the significant unprocessed traumas, it will help unravel the whole situation for both AJ and I. I can feel that is true. And that’s the beauty and the power of Heilkunst – we are systematically annihilating the energy related to unprocessed traumas, so that we can eventually be free. It’s not a quick or easy journey, but it’s the only modality that I know that effectively processes at this deep level.
It is now Feb 17th and my next Heilkunst appt is today. This last week has been rough. I received some news on Feb 14th that caused me to grieve deeply. I am still processing those emotions and will continue to process them. I will need some remedies to help with this deep grief.
I am also sad because AJ’s body continues to create new abscesses. He has three at the moment and it’s only been 11 days since his last surgical intervention to drain 2 abscesses. It’s always darkest before the dawn. I’m hoping that dawn will come soon.
Note, Moses (which is not his real name anyway), doesn’t want me using that name in my blog anymore. He wants me to use AJ. So going forward, AJ, it is.
This is a summary of AJ’s Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in January over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On January 7, 2017, AJ started the following droppers:
1) Sol. t. 30C – (Physical – Asthma/Skin rashes/Abscesses/Coughing/Ear fissures/Dry skin/Accident prone/Teeth/Right ear wax/brain fog/Spaciness/Penmanship/Bloody snot/Itchiness/Nose blowing) – a drop a day
2) Picro. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety re: new school and re: illness/Fears/Anger over move) – a drop a day
3) Lob. d. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Hallucinations/Frustration with homework/Babyishness/Time management/Peer socialization) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety – Idf. 30C – as needed or daily
Our Heilkunstler suggested that AJ’s body could take a break from the Amaranth oil that he had been taking for over a year, and so we stopped giving it to him.
The evening before he started his new droppers (but after his Heilkunstler had chosen his remedies), he did some weird sleep-walking and he was upset, but it wasn’t as deep or as violent as his normal night terrors. He was officially abscess-free (given the recent abscess drainages under general anesthesia), but had 2 small hard bumps under his left armpit.
AJ had a good week following the start of his new droppers.
His teacher sent home this note: “AJ has been a great addition to our class community. He has been very respectful and uses his class time well. I think he has made a good connection with several students in class.” So heart-warming to hear!!!!! He has been coming home happy. He is settling into his new school just fine. And, they are playing ball hockey in gym (his favourite sport), and he has been shooting several goals every time they play, which is so great for his confidence. I’m so happy and proud of my boy.
He’s been walking 1 km to his dayhome after school on his own. So independent. And in the cold!!!! It’s been way colder than -20° C with the windchill. What a trooper. And, right now, both DH and I have had a cold (sore throat, aches and chills, and DH has had a runny nose), but AJ hasn’t caught it. Woot woot!
AJ had a karmic healing session on the evening of Jan 13th. He’s had a great week at school, has been in good spirits, continuing to play ball hockey at school and shooting several goals every day. He also played hockey in an outdoor hockey league and scored 2 goals, had 2 assists and 3 saves. He was doing so well and was healthy and happy! I felt that all of the time on the 24/7 Core last month helped. It’s so great that he likes his school and has already made friends there. I felt that this new year has birthed a fresh life and start for the whole family.
And then everything fell apart shortly thereafter….
On Jan 15th, a small bump appeared in AJ’s nose. By the next morning, the bump had moved under his nose and was painful. Eep – the start of a dental abscess? We sent him to school with Tylenol and I had a long, long day at work. (I worked from 8 am to 10:30 pm because I was “birthing” an educational program and it was a big week for the program).
That same day (on Jan 16th, 9 days after starting new remedies), his Heilkunstler said that AJ was already proving his remedies, and switched his droppers to:
- Physical: Cen. c. 30C
- Emotional: Mag. m. 200C
- Mentals: Lamium 1M
- Anxiety: Chelone 12C
The next morning (Tuesday, Jan 17th), the bump was so big that it moved his nose up and out of place and he couldn’t drink water without it spilling out of his mouth. It was painful and sore. Since the bump was near his mouth, we figured that it was a dental abscess. I tried making an appointment with his dentist, but they didn’t even return my call. I called another dentist in our community and I was relieved to hear that they would fit him in at noon. That dentist prescribed amoxicillin (which AJ didn’t wind up taking for reasons that are explained below) and referred AJ to a pediatric dentist because they didn’t have nitrous oxide and AJ needs nitrous oxide to deal with the pain of these procedures.
Fortunately, the pediatric dentist was able to fit AJ in for an appointment at 1:30 pm. AJ had a panaromic x-ray and they even took photos of his face (it was that disfigured that they needed photos). His pediatric dentist said that AJ had facial cellulitis, and needed IV antibiotics before he could get in his mouth to remove the offending tooth and advised us to go to the ER.
So we went to the ER at around 4 pm. By this time, AJ was so upset that none of the dentists were taking any action. We told the ER physician that AJ needed to get the abscess drained and that we couldn’t wait a couple of days for them to deal with the swelling. The ER physician called the on-call pediatric dentist and they agreed that they would use conscious sedation (nitrous oxide plus ketamine) so that the dentist could remove the offending tooth. The problem was that the pediatric dentist didn’t have the panoramic x-rays that were done earlier that day and the tooth that was closest to the swelling was an adult tooth and she didn’t want to remove it without knowing for certain that it was the cause of the infection. She made two small incisions in his mouth while he was under conscious sedation to remove some of the pus in the abscess and cultured it. And, they gave him a dose of IV antibiotics (vancomycin) and an oral antibiotic (metronidazole) after consulting with the infectious disease specialist since AJ’s bacterial infections are resistant to a lot of antibiotics, so he can only receive certain antibiotics. AJ came out of the sedation better than normal (not screaming), but he had a terrible headache. We were finally able to leave the hospital at 8 pm, with the IV still in his hand.
Thankfully, AJ had a good sleep.
We returned to the hospital on Wed, Jan 18 at 8 am. First, we saw his pediatric dentist and he had even more x-rays. Then we saw his infectious diseases specialist for his second dose of IV antibiotics. For some reason, the infusion hurt him (I think it was because they rushed the infusion because his pediatric dentist wanted him to return back to her office right away since she was fitting AJ into her full schedule). So, we returned to his pediatric dentist and she pulled a baby molar under nitrous oxide and local anaesthesia. If that wasn’t already enough, we then went to get his IVIG started (of course, Murphy’s law would have his monthly IVIG infusion scheduled on this crazy day). By this time, AJ was an absolute mess emotionally (understandably so). It hurt when they flushed his IV, which meant that they needed to start another IV. AJ was so upset and in tears, so they let us postpone his IVIG for a couple of days and sent him home (still with an IV in his hand, in case it was salvagable). I was with AJ all day, and later that evening, I drove an hour across the city to another hospital so that I could help deliver an educational program related to my work. I was burning a candle at both ends for sure. Later that evening, AJ threw up everything in his stomach, including blood that he had swallowed during the incision and drainage that had occurred the evening before. He also had a good long cry.. He was sad about everything that he had gone through, and was tired of it all. Later that evening, he had a night terror.
That evening, his Heilkunstler checked his remedies and after only 2 days, he already was ready for a whole new set of remedies. Goodness!
- Ictod. 30C (Physical)
- Merc. iod. 200C (Emotions)
- Ichthol. 1M – (Mentals)
- Anxiety – Cervus 30C
- Acute – Gut pain/Nausea – Aurant. 30C – Take a drop 2 X a day
On Thursday, January 19th, AJ returned to the hospital to receive his third dose of IV antibiotics. Again, it hurt when they flushed the IV site, and he was in such an emotional state that his infectious diseases specialist allowed him to stop the IV antibiotics. He would be transitioned to oral antibiotics (metronidazole three times a day and levlofloxacin once a day). We were so happy to get him off of IV antibiotics.
With the exception of vomiting directly after starting his new droppers, AJ’s stomach settled considerably after starting the new homeopathic droppers and he stopped having diarrhea. Homeopathy is a God-send, really. And, I continued to use a digestive essential oil (ZenGest) when he had any nausea / stomach pains (he actually asks me to rub his belly with this blend to soothe his stomach).
On Jan 19th, he started the 24/7 CoRe treatment for a period of 10 days (it was originally planned for 7 days, but given that it took him so long to get stabilized, we extended it to 10 days), to help support him through this incredibly stressful time. He still had an IVIG infusion to get through.
Third IVIG infusion
On Friday, January 20th, AJ was scheduled for his third IVIG infusion. His nurse was able to get the IV inserted on the first try and AJ was a real trooper during it (closing his eyes and breathing through it), with the support of a Child Life Specialist. But then he freaked out when he realized that the nurse was going to flush some saline solution through the IV because the flushing caused him pain when they tried to flush on the Wed and Thursday of this week. He completely lost it (screaming and kicking and thrashing about), and they lost the IV site. They called the expert IV specialists, but he was so anxious and in such a state that they couldn’t even try to insert the IV. One of the nurses remarked that he was so upset, it would take 3 grown men to hold AJ down for the IV insertion and they couldn’t do it. His immunologist was called in for a consultation and he explained to AJ why he thought the IVIG would help him (since he’s seen that it’s helped others with his diagnosis), but it might take 6 months for his body to get used to the infusions and for us to see a difference.
AJ agreed to the IV if they sedated him for it, so they planned to give him Madazalam (conscious sedation), but it took a long time for pharmacy to prepare the Madazalam, and we waited, waited and waited. We arrived at the hospital at 10 am to allow more time for the infusion (since last time, AJ’s infusion was scheduled at 1 pm and he had a bad reaction to the IVIG [vomiting and intense headache] because of the fast 2 hour infusion). Unfortunately this time, because of AJ’s anxiety, they didn’t get the IV inserted until 2:30 pm, and then they did a 4 hour infusion (at my request, they allowed more time for the infusion than last time to minimize the chance of a negative reaction to the infusion). We were at the hospital until 7:30 pm (a total of 9.5 hours to do a 4 hour infusion).
We were all cracking up. AJ had had it. DH was cracking up since he has a stressful job and was getting stressful updates from me throughout his work day. And, I was sad since AJ had such a stressful week with so many medical interventions and I was powerless to protect him from it. And, now they were making plans to restart him on a different prophylactic antibiotic, after he finishes his 10 day course of oral antibiotics to treat his facial cellulitis. WTF?! I’m sad sad sad that he will continue to receive such medicalized treatment (monthly IVIG infusions, prophylactic antibiotics). And I’m sad because this week was a big week for me workwise (at a dream job that feeds my soul) and instead of being able to give that project my attention and energy, I was with AJ for four days that week, working during stolen hours in a hospital room (with no internet connection) and into the evening. And DH was saying things like he wished we hadn’t moved across the country and that he thought one of us should quit our jobs because it is so very hard / almost impossible for us to maintain our sanity with both of us working fulltime jobs. I felt intuitively like things would eventually work out, but I felt beat up too. We all friggin’ needed a break. We really, really did.
His Heilkunstler checked and two days after starting his last set of remedies, AJ was already ready for new ones:
- Aescp. hip. 12C (Physical)
- Amor. sat. 200C (Emotions)
- Aviaire 1M (Mentals)
- Anxiety: Caulo. 30C
Later that evening, we discovered two new abscesses: one under his right armpit and one in another location. (Yes, that’s exactly what we needed. Just shoot me now).
On Sat, Jan 21st (on DH and my 11th anniversary), the swelling on AJ’s face was finally down, and he had a good day. He scored 5 goals (!!!) while playing hockey in the morning, went to a friend’s house in the afternoon, and went to another friend’s house in the evening. DH and I were so happy for life to get back to normal. He had a night terror later that night. (I think discharging all of the anaesthesia he has had this week).
On Sun, Jan 22nd, he went skating with DH at our community rink in the morning and then went skating at another community rink with one of his friends in the afternoon. We were so happy to have life back to normal and were gearing up for a normal week.
Not feeling well
Well, the rest phase didn’t last very long. On Monday, Jan 23rd, AJ wasn’t feeling well when we woke him up to get ready for school. No appetite, nauseous, felt like throwing up and tired. DH stayed home with him because I had stayed home with him for four days the previous week. DH was super stressed out because he is still in the probation period of his new job and his employer isn’t as flexible as mine is. He wasn’t able to provide any notice to his employer that he was going to be missing work, and he works at a type of job where he has over 20 appointments booked throughout the day, so it’s a big deal when he misses work. OMG – we really can’t keep on going like this. Something has got to give. I hope and pray that AJ will be healthy and well again for an extended period of time soon because we really can’t continue like this and balance two full-time jobs. We will crack up for sure.
When I got home from work, AJ was still lying on the couch, where he had spent the whole day. Achy, headachy, nauseous, upset stomach and cough. Oh boy. Was this a healing reaction to the recent homeopathic droppers and a discharge of all of the medical interventions from last week? Or side effects from the oral antibiotics (3 doses of metronidazole a day and one dose of levofloxacin a day) that he is on related to the facial cellulitis that he had last week. Or both?
I checked in with his Heikunstler and she reported that AJ was already in need of new remedies (only 3 days after his last set of remedies, and his 5th set of remedies within a 3 week period):
- Physical: Aran. scin. 30C
- Emotional: Calc. sil. 200C
- Mental: Conium 1M
- Anxiety: Rat 30C
He vomited everything in his stomach within 30 minutes of having his first remedies, and then vomited two more times after that. He vomited every time he tried to get something in his stomach (even liquids). I think it was his body’s way of getting rid of toxins (i.e., antibiotics). We were worried about him getting dehydrated because he doesn’t drink enough even when he is feeling well and he was drinking less than normal and was vomiting everything that he was taking in.
He stayed home on Jan 24th, but gained back his appetite and was more himself by the evening. He had a night terror later that night.
Thankfully, he was back to school on Jan 25th (after missing 6 days of school). But, he had a great day at school. When I got home from work, he told me that he was friends with everyone in his class (which is amazing considering that he just started at this school earlier this month) and that everyone missed him. He also received the results of a math test that he completed a couple of weeks ago, and he did phenomenal on the test. We’re so very proud of him and so relieved that life is back to normal.
His next Heilkunst appointment is tomorrow and the 24/7 CoRe treatment is still continuing for ~3 more days.
May our next three weeks be gentler on our family. I certainly hope it will be.
Love this poem that Moses wrote for school. The teacher provided the first part of each line for inspiration and he filled in the rest.
“I am” by Moses
I am nice and kind.
I wonder about my school.
I hear the wind whistle.
I see Vancouver.
I want to play in the NHL.
I am nice and kind.
I pretend I am superman.
I feel the sand on a beach.
I touch my pet, Slim Jim. (His skinny pig)
I worry about Newfoundland.
I cry for my Grandpa Joe.
I am nice and kind.
I understand about moving.
I say, “You are awesome”.
I dream of Newfoundland.
I try to be in the NHL.
I hope that I could hug my gram. (Both of them.)
I am nice and kind.
My Heilkunstler mentioned something that might help Moses’ MRSA infections: ozonated sunflower oil. Ozone damages bacterial nucleic acids, and a scientific study has found it to be effective against MRSA as well. Woot woot!
Ozone has these effects on the body:
1. Ozone stimulates the production of white blood cells. These cells protect the body from viruses, bacteria, fungi, and cancer.
2. Interferon levels are significantly increased. They inhibit viral replication and control of phagocytic cells that engulf and kill pathogens and abnormal cells.
3. Ozone stimulates the production of Tumor Necrosis Factor. TNF is produced by the body when a tumor is growing.
4. Ozone stimulates the secretion of IL-2. Interluekin-2 is one of the cornerstones of the immune system.
5. Ozone kills most bacteria at low concentrations..
6. Ozone is effective against all types of fungi..
7. Ozone fights viruses in a variety of ways.
8. Ozone is antineoplastic.
9. Ozone oxidizes arterial plaque.
10. Ozone increases the flexibility and elasticity of red blood cells, increasing oxygen levels.
11. Ozone accelerates the Citric Acid Cycle.
12. Ozone makes the anti-oxidant enzyme system more efficient.
13. Ozone degrades petrochemicals.
Ozonated oils can be used to treat:
Septicemia (staph, strep, pneumococcus)
Recurrent skin infections (furunculosis)
Inactivation of Toxins
Optic Nervy Dysfunction
Recurrent skin infections (furunculosis)
Peripheral vascular disease
Deep Vein Thrombosis
- Diseases treated by ozone (includes staph infections)
- “Ozone enters its age of enlightenment” – article mentions MRSA quite a bit.
- “Surprising health benefits of oxidative medicine” by Dr. Mercola
Some scientific articles about ozonated oils
Ozone and ozonated oils in skin disease – here
Microbicidal effects of ozone solution on MRSA here
Antibacterial activity of ozonated sunflower seed oil here.
Comparative study of ozonated olive oil vs ozonated sunflower seed oil here.
Comparison of the antibacterial activity of an ozonated oil with chlorohexidine and iodine (Montevecchi et al) – here (the ozonated oil was more effective than the chlorohexidine and iodine at each concentration).
Purchasing ozonated oils
I decided to order it from PurO3. There’s quite a lot of information on their website if you want to check it out. The prices and the shipping costs were reasonable ($35US). There were a number of oils to choose from, and decided on the ozonated sunflower oil and also ordered a small sample of the ozonated olive oil, which is less ozonated than the sunflower oil, but has a more mild scent.
- Choosing the right ozonated oil for you (e.g., avocado, jojoba, olive, sunflower seed and hemp oils) here.
- Measuring the strength of ozonated oils here.
- How to use ozonated oil here.
January 21, 2017: Well, unfortunately, Moses hates the smell (and I don’t really like it either), so I don’t think we’ll be able to use this. ugh. The unscented oxidized sunflower oil is very strong. The oxidized olive oil is not as strong, but still gross. ugh.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in December over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
This was a rough month for Moses.
On December 17, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Citrus 12C – (Physical – Abscesses/Eczema/Ear fissures/Digestion/Thrush/Allergies/Dry skin/Asthma/Coughing/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Aurant. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Fear/Anxiety/Stress) – a drop a day
3) Anhal. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Behaving babyish around mother/Frustration with homework/Brain fog/Spaciness/Time management skills) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety – Pichi 30C – as needed or once a day
Even before Moses started these new droppers, he had a persistent cough, which he had had for weeks. He also had an abscess under his right armpit. Sigh… He had been receiving 24/7 CoRe treatments for approximately 2 weeks to help his system to stabilize. He was not quite himself emotionally. He was stressed out about starting at a new day home in our new community. He was also in a dark mood because his secret Santa at school gave him a gift of chocolates, which he couldn’t eat because of his allergies to milk. ugh!
Moses stopped his prophylactic antibiotic about a week and a half ago, and his back is broken out. I’m remembering now that in the past, when we stopped his prophylactic antibiotic, he experienced a break out in his rashes. Moses recently saw a new dermatologist and he suggested 14 days of a strong steroid cream, 14 days of mild bleach baths (yep, that’s exactly what it sounds like) and 14 days of slathering Moses with Glaxalbase. As much as I hate steroid creams, we are actually going to do it. I was scared that the steroid creams would move the “disease” to this internal organs (i.e., make his chest infection worse). It sounds wacky, but according to homeopathic theory, if you suppress the “disease” at the level of the skin, it has to express somewhere. Despite my fear, I didn’t have it in me to convince DH not to follow it, so I went with the flow of it and we followed the dermatologist’s protocol. Well, I would find out the hard way a few days later, that Moses’ body responded in exactly the way homeopathic theory would predict…
He had a night terror on Dec 19th. As of Dec 20th, Moses was still not happy about being at a new day home, and his skin was still broken out, despite having started the 14 day skin regime. In particular, he had a painful new bump on his back, which is a new place for him to develop bumps. He was still bumpy under his right armpit.
Second IVIG Infusion = bad experience
On Dec 21st, Moses had his second IVIG infusion. He had a difficult IV start, but they were able to get the IV started at a second site. Because they started the IV later, they sped up his infusion (~3 hours; the first infusion was 6 hours), which was probably too fast because later that evening, he vomited twice and had a nasty headache. Poor boy. He slept in the next morning and I stayed home from work to be with him. He wasn’t feeling himself at all. He still hadn’t eaten by 11 am and he was sad because “I thought that IVIG would help me and now I’m feeling sicker than I ever have been”. And he was sad because Christmas was approaching and he was missing his friends and family in NL, esp. his cousins. “Why did we move here, when we don’t have family here and everyone will be celebrating Christmas with their families except for us.” Goodness. And, the abscess under his right armpit was huge and he had another bump on his back. He had another night terror that evening.
On Dec 23rd, we brought Moses to his family physician and discovered that he had a double ear infection (something he hasn’t had since he was 2 years old) and a viral chest infection. (I think these were the result of following the dermatologist’s advice and the use of the strong steroidal creams). His physician prescribed a 10 day dose of Amoxicillin. Oh boy – more assault to his gut. DH thought it was important to follow the physician’s advice. I also applied melaleuca (tea tree essential oil) to the outside of his ear. Moses was so miserable, not sleeping well, coughing a lot and having difficulty breathing. He was so sad to be sick over Christmas. But by the end of the day on the 23rd, he was perking up and being more himself. Not as sad and sick and emotional.
New remedies and more abscesses
On Dec 24th, his Heilkunstler said that he was ready for new droppers (only 7 days later – he was processing through his remedies so quickly; for context for new readers, he used to be able to be on the same remedy for 3 weeks):
- Physical: Tus. far. 12c
- Emotional: Semp. 200c
- Mental: Nit. ox. 1m
- Anxiety: Merc. bin. 200c
Later that afternoon, the abscess under his right armpit started to drain on its own (yay!), and we learned of another abscess in another location, but that looked like it might drain on its own soon. We had a good Christmas spent with friends, but then on Boxing Day, we discovered that Moses had yet another abscess developing. So that made four abscesses, three of which were probably ready to be drained. WTF? His last drainage under general anaesthesia was only 24 days ago. We can’t continue this. Moses can’t get general anaesthesia once a month! We started the IVIG because we hoped that it would help decrease the frequency of abscesses, but truthfully, it doesn’t seem like it’s been helping at all. I booked a session with his karmic healer. (I try not to book with her very often because her services are astronomically expensive. She typically books a month in advance, so we scheduled an appt for Jan 13th).
My theory about the abscesses was that his body was trying to push out what some of the western medicines have tried to suppress. Since homeopathy generally draws things out of the body, the recent droppers likely gave Moses’ body the energy to push out, which is needed. (Say whereas strong steroidal creams suppress and drive the disease deeper into the body, into the lungs). Out is better than in, but it’s still hard because some of Moses’ abscesses inevitably need to be drained by a surgeon, which means more anaesthesia, which means more night terrors and we keep going around and around and around in this vicious cycle. Plus, DH and I are both working fulltime and my schedule will get busier in the new year. We can’t continue like this. We can’t.
By Dec 27th, he had 6 abscesses: both armpits (the one under his right armpit was huge), his back, and then three in other places). He was also having difficulty hearing – probably because of the ear infection. We hoped that his hearing would return to normal after the infection cleared up, but at least his ears were no longer hurting. His last day of the 24/7 Core treatment was on December 29th, and his Heilkunstler suggested that he take a few days break to see how he does without it. She said that sometimes gains are made in the breaks after the 24/7 treatment.
General anaesthesia and abscess drainage
On Dec 29th, we spent a very long day at the hospital – between 11 am and 3 am. His immunology nurse said that she would put in a request with surgery, which we thought might expedite the process, but it really didn’t because since Moses is MRSA-positive, they will always schedule his surgery to be the last one. Moses had three abscesses drained under general anesthesia. He was put on the emergency list and was the last surgery that day – his surgery was a midnight and we didn’t get home until 3 am. Oh boy. On the good side of things, at least these were drained before we all started back to school and work in the new year. Also, we really like our surgeon and the immunology team. The anesthetist was very friendly too. His surgeon listened to our request and didn’t put wicks into Moses abscesses and they also didn’t give him any morphine post-surgery (like they did last time). Moses was still yelling and upset when coming out of the anaesthetic, but it wasn’t as terrible as it was last time.
Moses was such a trooper. He slept for 6 hours and then was ready to go sledding with some friends the very next day after his surgery. I was exhausted, but Moses is fed by fun, so we went sledding.
Moses’ hematologist prescribed another 7 day course of antibiotics for the MRSA infection (Levofloxacin – this is a new one for Moses. I did some reading on Levofloxacin – it doesn’t look like it’s effective against MRSA, so I have no idea why they prescribed it. Also, it’s generally not approved for children because it is associated with an elevated risk of musculoskeletal injury in this population. We decided not to give it to him).
On Dec 30th (the day after the surgery), I checked with his Heilkunstler and she said that he was already ready for new droppers:
- Pancr. 12C (Physical)
- Sium 200C – (Emotions)
- Sfo. 1M – (Mentals)
- Anxiety – Iber. 30C
This was only 6 days after getting new droppers. For some reason, he’s needing new droppers so frequently (every 6-7 days). Not sure why.
In the evening of Dec 30th, before Moses received his first dose of the new homeopathic droppers, he was having trouble breathing. It’s scary when he takes his puffer a number of times and he still has trouble breathing. Goodness. Our family needs a break from stress. We really do. During this bout of difficult breathing, I gave Moses his first drops of his new remedies and within 30 minutes, his breathing settled down and he went to his friend’s house to hang out. Thank goodness!
Since we are desperate to stop all of these abscesses from occurring and because they are MRSA infections, we are going to try to decolonize the whole family from MRSA using this protocol. We tried following this protocol a few times. The first time was 5 years ago when DH and I both had MRSA infections. The protocol involves all three of us using a body wash for 5 days (triclosan 1% or chlorhexidine gluconate 4%; we are using the latter); and twice daily nasal ointment (mupirocin 2%).
A couple of days ago, I also started giving Moses MMS baths again (10 drop dosage – will gradually work up to 20 drops).
German New Medicine perspective on abscesses
From a German New Medicine perspective, this is what abscesses mean:
“Abscesses are a problem of the corium or under-skin and when we get them it is usually a sign of a strong feeling of being attacked. That part of our skin protects the inner body, it is the tough skin underneath the surface skin. When a person feels attacked literally by a substance or injury or figuratively, by events or threats from the environment or people, the skin will react with boils and abscesses.
I can imagine that once they started and he has had to be treated for them at the hospital – the treatments themselves are a form of attack, so inevitably after that more abscesses appear as a result of the intervention to treat them! It is a tricky situation that ideally resolves once the abscessed diminish and treatments of that invasive nature can stop.”
Read full text here re: GNM perspective.
In other words, Moses is caught in a vicious cycle. We need this to stop.
Fresh start, new school
Moses started at a new school on January 3rd because we moved to a new community in November. He was terribly stressed about starting at a new school for the last two months, and when we left him at the school, he was pale, anxiety-stricken and looked shell-shocked. I was really worried about him, but much to my delight and surprise, Moses reported when he got home from school that he had the best day and he had met a lot of people, including kids who love the Vancouver Canucks (Moses’ favourite hockey team). He connected with a kindred spirit on his first day of school, and on their second day of school, they coordinated outfits and both wore their Vancouver Canucks jerseys to school. He had a night terror later that evening (a release from the anaesthesia from the week before?).
On Jan 4th, Moses was looking healthier and was back to his confident self. This was the last day of the “MRSA decolonization protocol” that I described above, and Jan 3rd was his last day of Amoxicillin antibiotics from the ear infection that he developed after Christmas. Our lives were simplifying again and Moses was down to only two medications at night (Alvesco puffer and Reactin for allergies). His cough was even improving and only present in the morning. His skin was looking good too (which might be because of the Amocillin and the decolonization protocol – Moses’ skin generally does better when he’s on an antibiotic). We’ll see what happens in a few weeks. I’d love to be pleasantly surprised to have his skin remain clear.
On the evening of his second day back to school, Moses was doing math homework at night and doing really well, showing us dance moves that he learned at school during gym class, and excitedly described a Vancouver Canucks sign that he was going to make in wood-working class. It was so wonderful, absolutely wonderful how well his adjustment to his new school was going. So, so relieved. Big sigh out!
Perhaps some of these gains were because we recently stopped the 30 days of 24/7 Core treatment (on Dec 27th). His practitioner mentioned that sometimes the gains are observed once the treatment stops. hmmmmm…… In any case, I’m just so relieved, and I hope that this period of rest continues for Moses and for the family. We so desperately need a period of rest. May it be so.
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from late November to mid January (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
I started the following droppers on November 30, 2016:
1) Guaco 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Itchiness/Neck and shoulder pain/TMJ/Sleep/Peri-menopausal) – a drop a day
2) Cupr. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety) – a drop a day
3) Aur. mur. kal. 1M – (Mentals – Self-confidence/Adjustment to new home and job) – a drop a day
4) Peri-menopausal symptoms – Mich. 30C – as needed
5) Sleep – Galega 12C – a drop at bedtime each night plus a drop in a glass of water on my nightstand to sip if I wake up.
6) Acute – Anxiety re: move to a new house and new job – Vespa 200C – as needed
New Timeline Wafers:
A – Phas. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – Start two weeks after finishing last set of wafers, taking over five consecutive nights, 1-5. (Children’s Hospital when Moses was an infant / toddler)
Then wait two weeks before starting “B”.
B – Sol. mam. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – Friend’s death – July 2006
The same day that I started my new droppers was the day that I took my last wafer for my most recent timeline clearing, which was related to a childhood trauma that occurred when I was less than 5 years old. It was a major event in my life and was difficult for me to clear. I experienced intense head and neck pain, so much internal pressure in my head and neck. Life felt that much more difficult. And it didn’t help that I had a very busy work day (fun, but busy), and Moses had two abscesses drained under general anaesthesia the very next day. I described the whole ordeal in this blog post. The experience was awful for Moses and was awful for me. I think it was all the more difficult for me because I was clearing a terrible childhood trauma, and I wasn’t feeling my strongest emotionally. And, it was hard for me to deal with Moses screaming at me for an hour while he was in a morphine-induced hallucination, terrified that he wasn’t going to be able to come out of it. And the next morning, he cried and screamed for three hours, terrified at the thoughts of removing a wick from one of his abscesses. Goodness. I was at my wits’ end. I completely lost it. Really. Swearing and kicking walls. I completely lost it.
I was going to give myself more than the 2 weeks between clearings because this last clearing was such a big one for me, but because of all of the hospital visits and medical consultations we were having, it felt like it was time for me to clear the next timeline event.
Clearing time at Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant
On Dec 14, I started my next timeline wafers (Phas), to clear all of the time spent at the Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant. Now that we are living in the city where Moses was born after 8 years of being away, I’ve been finding that I’m being re-triggered when we visit the children’s hospital. I have so many awful memories of time spent visiting various medical professionals. Moses was 2.5 years old when we first moved away from his birth city. Moses wasn’t diagnosed with hyper IgE syndrome until he was 4.5 years old, so no one had any answers for why Moses was so sick during his first few years of life. He was covered with rashes from his head to his ankles. (I remember one cranialsacral specialist who would kindly say, “Look at his beautiful feet,” because I think she was looking for something positive to say and it was the only part of his body not covered in rashes). As I mentioned in a recent post, Moses had a traumatic birth and spent his first 6 days in the hospital. And when we got him home, he was colicky (allergic to my breast milk because I didn’t know that I was eating so many foods that he was allergic to) and covered in rashes by the time he was 14 days old. He was less than a year when he started developing abscesses and he was already getting them drained under general anaesthesia and also local anaesthesia. He also had 3 anaphylactic reactions before the time he was 2.5 years old. There were so many trips to the ER that we were known by triage nurses as “the family with the child with so many allergies”. In addition, he was admitted to the hospital on at least 3 different occasions (drainage of an abscess along his jaw, pneumonia and gastro-intestinal bleeding).
We’ve now returned to Moses’ birth city after living in NL for 8 years and it’s a bit sobering that although Moses has made amazing progress in his health, we are still firmly entrenched in the medical system and are still making weekly visits to the Children’s hospital. We’ve been back for 3 months and he’s already had 2 ER visits, drainage of 5 abscesses under local and general anaesthesia, two 5-day courses of higher potency antibiotics and consultations with an immunologist; infectious disease specialist; dermatologist; ear, nose and throat specialist; and multiple surgeons. And he started monthly IVIG treatment. Goodness! WTF.
I knew that I needed to clear all of the time spent spent at the Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant because every time that I drive into the hospital parkade, I get flashbacks of carrying Moses in his infant car seat and pushing him in his stroller into his appointments, and it hurts my heart as 1) I remember all of those awful times of stress and not understanding why Moses was so sick and feeling a tremendous amount of guilt for not being a good enough mom to keep my son well, and 2) I experience more heartache that despite the fact that we have done so much to facilitate Moses’ healing and even though he is doing phenomenal given his diagnosis, he is still considered sick by the medical system and is still enduring medical traumas. When we left our home in NL, Moses had been doing so well. I had naively thought that maybe hospital visits were a time of the past. Little did I know that moving would be so traumatic for Moses and that his body would have such a hard time with the move, mentally, emotionally and physically.
Since Moses’ system isn’t strong enough to clear any timeline events at the moment, any clearing that I do will help both me and him since we are so interconnected. I am still optimistic that now that we are done all of our moving (we had 2 moves within 2.5 months) and once Moses adjusts to his new school in January, his system will once again come back to equilibrium. As I write these words, Moses is home sick with me with a cough. I pray that his system comes back to equilibrium. Of course, I know that it will, but there’s still a part of me that worries when he has a cough that it will spiral into pneumonia. That’s always the fear lurking in the background. Thankfully, he’s been pneumonia-free for a year and a half now, but still that fear is always there.
Thankfully, Moses didn’t develop pneumonia and he was well enough for us to attend a Christmas party in the mountains, which was so much fun for all of us. We had an overnight trip to the mountains. Just what we needed. Some fun, good company, reconnections with old friends/colleagues and joy.
We drove home from the mountains today, on Dec 17th. I took my fourth timeline wafer (Phas 1M) today. I have one more to take tomorrow. Not surprisingly, it feels like another doozy of a clearing. I’m feeling overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. Headachey. Empty. Hungry, but don’t feel like eating anything. I forgot to eat lunch today, which explains why I was so ravenous by supper time. I’m feeling sad. Normally, I feel optimistic about things and energized by life, but right now, I’m just feeling sad. I’m thankful that DH and Moses are out and I have some quiet time to process my emotions. We have been through a lot over the last year. It has been a helluva year. So great in so many ways. I’m thankful that we are rooting in his home that we love. I’m thankful that we’ve returned to a city that we love. I’m thankful for a job that feeds my soul. So very thankful. I’m thankful that overall, Moses is well, especially given his diagnosis.
And yet and yet and yet… Today, I feel beat up. Tired. I’m sad that Moses has yet another huge abscess under his right armpit, after having 5 drained by surgeons in the last 2 months. His last general anaesthesia was only 15 days ago. Goodness. Really?! We are tired of this. WTF. Seriously?! We need to get off of this rollercoaster ride. We need for life to be stable for us. What to do, what to do, what to do?
Moses has his second IVIG appt in a few days. We’re hoping that the IVIG will help. We’ve recently stopped Moses’ prophylactic antibiotic because it’s not effective against Moses’ infection. Did you know that between March 2014 to Dec 2016, Moses has had 142 abscesses? It’s ridiculous! I’m feeling powerless and hopeless today. I know that my current state of mind will pass, and I’m feeling like I am because of the timeline event that I’m clearing. Goodness, it feels like a doozy.
Praying that Moses’ body can somehow get off of this abscess train. May it be so. Hopefully the combination of karmic healing, homeopathy, CoRe treatments and IVIG can help. May it be so.
It’s now 3 days later (Dec 20th) and I’m not feeling as sad. Now, I’m just feeling headachey and stiff, even though I’ve actually started practicing yoga again. Nonetheless, things are feeling extra hard and I’m not feeling at the top of my game. I’m still productive at work, but at home, I’m feeling sluggish. My energy levels probably make sense as we are approaching the solstice, which is a time of darkness, stillness and quiet. I am feeling quite internal.
It’s now January 5th and my next Heilkunst appt is tomorrow. In the last 16 days, Moses had had his second IVIG infusion (a bad experience), vomited twice, had an intense headache, developed a double ear infection, a viral chest infection, developed 6 abscesses and had 3 abscesses drained under general anaesthesia at midnight and we were kept at the hospital until 3 am (incredibly, he fasted for 18 hours from 8:30 am until 2 am), and he also started at a new school. You can read all about those adventures here. So it was a hard couple of weeks. To be fair, we also had some good times, like Christmas dinner and New Year’s eve with some friends, but mostly it was difficult and I worried a lot. I also needed to help keep Moses’ spirits up because he, understandably, was going through a difficult time emotionally.
Thankfully, Moses’ first couple of days at school have gone really well and it feels like Moses’s physical and emotional health is on the up and up.
I took a week and a half off of work over the Christmas holidays and have been back at work for three days now. It feels like we are getting back into our regular school / work rhythm. Moses and DH are playing hockey at our neighbourhood hockey rink as I type these words. I’m still loving, loving, loving my new job. So happy to have a job that feeds my soul and makes use of my skills on a project that my heart is passionate about. I hope and pray that Moses’ health comes back to equilibrium because my new job will require more of my time and energy in the new year, including travelling to different sites within the city and outside of the city (but within the province), some early mornings and also some evenings. I’m praying that it will all work out. May it be so.
Clearing a friend’s death
Oh, I almost forgot that on Jan 2nd, I started my next timeline clearing to clear the trauma and shock of a friend’s sudden death in July 2006, which occurred a couple of blocks away from my house, and the evening of a D&C surgery that I had 6 weeks after Moses was born. I remember coming home the next morning after my surgery and police had barricaded the street behind my house. I found out later that the barricade was related to my friend’s death. I went into a deep shock when I found out. I called her house to ask for our spare set of keys because she had recently house sat for us, and her sister told me that she was sorry but my friend had died. I remember that I was holding Moses at the time and I had to put him down in his crib so that I could scream and cry my eyes out.
I’m still in the middle of clearing this event and am still taking the wafers. I’m taking the last of my last of five wafers related to this clearing tomorrow morning, which is when I have my next Heilkunst session. I had a bad headache on the days that I took my first two wafers, and have been eating for comfort a lot lately.
2016 was a big year for our family. I was laid off in May, which turned out to be a huge blessing. We moved across the country from St. John’s to Calgary in September, and I started a new job in October. We love that we are back in Calgary and living close to the mountains!
Moses was very healthy during the first part of this year, especially between March and September, when he was abscess-free after starting a prophylactic dose of Doxycycline. We got a taste of what “normal life” could be like. It was glorious and gave us the energy that we needed to move across the country.
Moses is no longer allergic to sunflower seeds, and he isn’t allergic to pecans. Woot woot! Moses didn’t need to be admitted to the hospital, didn’t develop pneumonia, and didn’t have any severe allergic reactions this year. Moses stopped taking a prophylactic antibiotic earlier this month.
Moses had 27 abscesses develop in 2016, which is actually a huge improvement because in 2015, Moses developed 53 abscesses.It is undeniable that prophylactic Doxycycline was effective in reducing the occurrence of abscesses, but after we moved, this was no longer the case and Moses stopped taking Doxycycline in early December.
In 2016, Moses had a total of 10 abscesses drained under general anaesthesia on 5 separate occasions (in comparison, in 2015 he only needed general anaesthesia twice to drain 6 abscesses). Therefore, even though Moses developed fewer abscesses this year, the amount of surgical interventions was actually worse this year. Approximately 50% of Moses’ abscesses needed to be drained by a surgeon under general or local anaesthesia in 2016; whereas in 2015, only 13% of his abscesses needed surgical attention. I have no idea why this has changed.
The move across the country away from family and friends was hard on Moses emotionally and physically. We’re hoping that once Moses settles into his new school and after school care program and makes new friends in our new community that things will settle down for him.
We are continuing with Heilkunst, essential oils, karmic healing and have started 24/7 Inergetix CoRe treatments when needed. He has started IVIG treatments and we hope that it will help reduced the frequency of abscesses.
Moses looks forward to playing in a grassroots hockey league in January, and also skating at our community rink with DH. We also look forward to a lot of family walks and hikes in the mountains and in our neighbourhood coulee.
I hope and pray that things will start to settle down for Moses once he gets settled in our new neighbourhood. May 2017 be Moses’ (and our family’s) best year yet.
- You can read about our 2015 year in review here.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in December over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On November 23, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Chry. ac. 12C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/AsthmaAccident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Guarea 200C– (Emotions – Anger/Grief over so many changes) – a drop a day
3) Kali bi. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and impeding change to new school in January, making new friends – Piper nig. 30C
5) Cold: Bals. 9c
He started these droppers the evening of his first day that he received his first IVIG infusion (read more about this experience here), and earlier that day, had developed a new abscess and had another large abscess under his left armpit. He had a night terror that evening, his second one in a row. And he had another night terror four nights later on Nov 27th.
24/7 CoRe Treatment
His session with his Heilkunstler was on Nov 29th, and based on all of the difficulties that Moses has been having since our move (abscesses, night terrors, hallucinations, emotional stress, anger and grief), we decided to start a 24/7 Inergetix CoRe treatment.
I had planned to do it for at least 10 days, but because it appeared that Moses was responding well to the treatment, I decided to continue the treatment for an entire month to try to help stabilize Moses’s system.
The CoRe treatment practitioner explained:
“For now, I am focusing on the part that remedies are not able to hold stable or change fast enough. I know he is being treated every 10 days or so. The 24 hr treatment is meant to reduce tension and symptoms, stabilize him and then he can probably resume his regular treatments once more.
During the 10 days of my treatment the symptoms or main problem can change to something else, so if you let me know about it, I can pick the next set of rates accordingly. This is the main benefit from this approach – the daily monitoring and opportunity to quickly adjust the treatment as things start changing. Let’s hope it works quickly for Moses.”
On the day after he started the CoRE treatment (on Nov 30), Moses started new homeopathic droppers. He wasn’t yet proving the previous set of remedies, but his Heilkunstler decided to give him new droppers to give him a fresh start since we had just had a consultation:
1) Fel. t. 30C – (Physical – Abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Food allergies/Digestion/Brain fog/Itchiness/Asthma/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Lin. cath. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief/Anxiety over upcoming change of school) – a drop a day
3) Merls. 1M – (Mentals – Academic work/Attention span/Frustration with homework/Night terrors & Involuntary shaking) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety re upcoming change of school – Asimina 30C – as needed
General anesthesia / more abscess drainage
The day after he started his new droppers (on December 1st), he had 2 abscesses drained under local anaesthesia (left armpit, and another location). Goodness – so much going on for my boy! I think the CoRe treatment really helped with keeping Moses’ system calm prior to the surgery. He was so calm. He didn’t complain of hunger, which was huge deal since he fasted between midnight until his procedure at 2 pm, and he typically eats when he’s stressed. He did so well. But, he came out of the anaesthesia as he typically does, screaming, in a night terror-like state. By the time they called me to his side, they had already given him morphine because they thought he was in pain. It was terrible; I never would have given them permission to give him morphine if they had asked. As a result of the morphine, it took him much longer than normal to come to. He screamed and kicked for an hour after I got to his side. He was terrified. He screamed at me that he couldn’t stop kicking and screaming and he was terrified that he was never going to come to, that he was going to be stuck in that other hallucinogenic world forever. It was awful.
But thankfully, it did pass, and after he came out of it, he did really well, and he was his normal self by the evening. But, the ordeal wasn’t over because his surgeon had inserted a wick in both abscesses, and Moses has had several bad experiences with wicks getting stuck in the abscesses / pain associated with the wick coming out. We removed one of the wicks within a few hours of his surgery because we find that his surgical incisions heal quickly and sometimes start to close around the wick, making it hard for the wick to come out, esp. if they pack it too tightly, so the quicker we get them out the better. He was freaked out and upset, but we finally convinced him to let us take it out.
The next morning (Dec 2), we had a terrible time getting the second wick out. He cried for 3 hours straight. He was so upset and scared and angry. And then later that evening, his immunologist prescribed a 5 day course of Linezolid (a strong antibiotic) because the abscesses are related to MRSA.
No more prophylactic antibiotic
On Dec 7, he had an appt with a new infectious diseases specialist (new since we recently moved to this city). She said that Moses’ cultured MRSA is resistant to the prophylactic antibiotic that Moses is on, so we can stop Doxycycline. Woot woot!!!!!!!!
I really felt that the 24/7 treatment was helping. Moses was emotionally stabilized. He hadn’t had any night terrors since we started the CoRe treatment. I was also relieved that he didn’t have any gastrointestinal issues to the 5 day course of Linezolid. He was emotionally stable. No new abscesses had developed. His only symptom was a persistent cough that was present for weeks.
December 8 was Moses’ first day of being antibiotic-free. And, oddly enough, he woke up in a black cloud. He was so angry. He felt like he was hard done by. He felt like life was unfair. I asked his Heilkunstler if he was ready for new remedies since it was day 9 of his droppers, and he’d recently been on a 10 day cycle. She checked and said that he could have still continued on the same droppers for another 2 days, but given the recent symptoms, she gave him 3 new remedies.
- Physical – Carbo h. 30C
- Emotional – Crot. c. 200C
- Mental – Fluor. ac. 1M
That same day, he called me from school (this was before he received his new remedies) and he asked to be picked up from school because he had hurt his toe and thought it was broken or sprained. When I got to school, I could tell that it wasn’t that serious by the way he was moving, although it was swollen. When we got home, I put some frankincense, massage blend essential oil and peppermint essential oil and within an hour, there was no more pain. Thank goodness for the essential oils. I think the new homeopathic droppers helped as well. He had a night terror that evening and the following evening.
On Saturday, Dec 10th, Moses found out that his budgie bird in NL died. He was very sad and mad. He was mad all day long.
On Sunday, Dec 11th, his cough continued and seemed to be getting worst. It hurt for him to cough. The cough was so bad that I was worried that might develop into pneumonia. He had play dates on the Sat and Sunday, so he still had energy to play and have fun, but on Sunday evening, he was feeling he sick and mad and down in the dumps. His Heilkunstler gave him a new cold dropper (Pop. c. 9C), and Moses’ CoRe practitioner noted that :
“It is interesting to note that from a German New Medicine perspective coughing is a sign of territorial fear conflicts and a result of a previous irritation of the air passages, when the person was in stress mode. Coughing is a release, but can become chronic when the stress repeats itself. In essence it is a healing process in the body that can be quite uncomfortable, but is meant to clean up and restore the respiratory system.
All healing symptoms worsen at night when our mind is more relaxed and when our body is at rest – with the coming of night we switch to the autonomic nervous system and the body begins a process of self-cleansing etc – and all fevers, coughs and such can feel worse then.”
It’s true – Moses’ symptoms always worsen at night. By the evening of the following day (Dec 12), Moses was feeling much better. He still had a cough, but it was better than it was. I think the homeopathic dropper helped. I also massaged his back with melissa essential oil (which has anti-viral properties). And, he had a pocket full of essential oil cough drops, which he was popping in his mouth as needed during the day.
On the evening of Dec 13, Moses’ cough was worse again, and he was also very emotional because he didn’t do so well on a social studies test and DH was harder on him than he needed to be.
On the evening of Dec 14, his coughing worsened again, and he was up half of the night coughing. He also had the beginnings of a night terror, but came out of it easily. We kept him home from school on Dec 15th to rest. There’s a also huge bump starting under his right armpit.
Tomorrow is Moses’ next Heilkunst appt, and his last day of school before the holidays. Next week, Moses will be starting at a new day home in our new community, then I’ll spend a week home with him during the week between Christmas and New Year’s, and then he starts a new school in January. There are still a lot of new transitions that Moses is navigating. I am hoping that now that we are rooting in one home (which all three of us love) that things will start to settle down for Moses. I also hope that the continued homeopathic and CoRE treatments continue to help his system to stabilize.
More info re: Inergetix CoRe treatments
Moses had a consultation with his new infectious diseases specialist. They cultured Moses’ MRSA infection and it is resistant to Doxycycline, so we can stop Doxycycline. It’s as simple as that! I’m so happy!!!! Moses has been on a prophylactic antibiotic since he was 4 years old. That’s six full years / more than half of his life of taking a prophylatic antibiotic. Every single day. It’s an answered prayer to get him off if it. Thank goodness!!!!
Given that Moses has been getting recurrent abscesses in the last month (aka MRSA infections), I could have told you that Doxycycline wasn’t helping (and his prophylactic antibiotic before that [Keflex] didn’t help either). I am so happy, happy, happy to get him of this medication. It also caused staining of his teeth, so not only did it create havoc on his gut flora, it also caused aesthetic issues.
I’m a bit worried that his immunologist will want to re-start him on a different prophylactic antibiotic (since just about all individuals with Moses’ diagnosis are on a prophylactic antibiotic), but for now, starting tomorrow, we have the blessing of at least one physician to stop the antibiotics. Woot woot! May he continue to have the blessings of his physicians to remain off of the antibiotics and give his system time to heal. (Or may DH be on board with keeping him off of antibiotics regardless of what the doctors say).
By the way, we have been using a daily probiotic – perhaps now the probiotic will be able to do its job.