I started this blog in February 2009, when my son, Moses (not his real name), was 2.5 years old. At the time, he was extremely sensitive — emotionally and physically to the environment, to chemicals and to most foods (was 40+ foods at one point). When he was 4.5 years old, he was diagnosed with a very rare genetic primary immunodeficiency, Hyper IgE syndrome or Job’s Syndrome (which explains his extreme sensitivity and allergies to everything). We tried everything under the sun to heal our son because the medical system offered no cure for this diagnosis. Out of all of the many things that we tried (and we tried many, many things), Heilkunst homeopathy (a form of sequential homeopathy) has helped to address the root cause of this disorder and has healed him. My son is now a healthy and vibrant 10 year old. If you or a loved one is suffering from a difficult to treat ailment and you have no hope, I would encourage you to try Heilkunst. My son was once a “non-responder” and we were once desperate for an answer as well. I hope that by reading about the ups and downs in our journey, you will find the hope and encouragement that you are looking for.
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from mid-October to late November (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
I started the following droppers on October 18, 2016:
1) Vern. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Neck and shoulder pain/Itchiness/TMJ/Plantar’s warts/Hay fever/Allergies) – a drop a day
2) Puls. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress concerning Moses, new job and transition to new life in Calgary) – a drop a day
3) Pilo 1M – (Mentals – Socialization/Self-confidence/Self-esteem) – a drop a day
4) Peri-menopausal – Eryng. m. 30C – a drop a day or as needed
5) Anxiety re transition to new job and new home – Stan. 30C – a drop a day
New Timeline Wafers:
A – Gall. ac. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – memory of Moses being in NICU at birth and working at the same hospital now.
B – Physo. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – Abuse pre-age 5
After starting my droppers, I noticed that I was itchy and was scratching at night. Especially my stomach area. A week later, I was feeling annoyed, ungrounded and itchy. Likely a healing reaction to my timeline wafer clearing that I finished right before I started these new powders (i.e., clearing ending a significant relationship with a spiritual teacher).
Moses and I spent the day at the Children’s hospital, meeting his new immunologist and getting blood work on Oct 27th. It took me days to get over this day. I dropped into a dark funk, and I grieved another layer of emotions related to having a son with a combined primary immunodeficiency. Moses had been abscess-free for so long (since Feb), and now he had tons of abscesses (~7 in three places). My poor boy. What was going on? I felt grief and guilt-stricken too because Moses has an undeniable pattern of developing abscesses after I spend time with spiritual people. This will sound woo-woo to most, but I’ve been the pattern too many times over too many years not to see the pattern. And, I was heart-broken because I think it means that I will need to take space from some friends who I love. I was also grief-stricken because his immunologist strongly recommended that Moses receive monthly IVIG infusions, which means spending a day at the hospital once a month to receive a blood product made up of immunoglobins donated from thousands of people. His immunologist in our last city had recommended it too, but didn’t strongly push it and our family wasn’t ready to go this route. To me, the feels like admitting defeat – that my son needs such an extraordinary intervention to be well. Also, it’s signing up for a monthly appointment at the hospital, when my son needs to be hooked up to an IV. And, it’s managing yet another appointment, while DH and I are both trying to manage fulltime jobs and responsibilities. It feels like a whole lot. And yet and yet and yet…. my gut has been telling me “say yes to the IVIG. It will help”. And so, we are saying yes. But that doesn’t mean that I can’t grieve.
We are also three weeks to moving again. We purchased a sweet home in a nearby community. I hate that we need to pack, un-root and transition again after so many transitions in the last couple of months. And also trying to keep life as stable as possible for Moses. I’m going through a hard time right now. I’m not sure if it’s worst because of what I’m clearing homeopathically. It’s hard for me to tease out what’s what.
Clearing trauma of Moses being in NICU at birth
On November 1st, I started my timeline wafers (Gall) to clear the trauma of Moses’s birth. Again. I’ve cleared the trauma associated with Moses’ birth in the past (and Moses has cleared his own birth – the physical effects and emotional effects), but I knew that it needed to be recleared for me because I’m now actually working at the very same hospital where Moses spent the first 6 days of his life at NICU. He was born at one hospital, had difficulty breathing when he was born and he was whisked away from my belly moments after his birth so that he could be intubated. Because the hospital that he was born in didn’t have a Level 3 NICU, he was transported in an ambulance to another hospital within hours of his birth. He was such a trooper that he ripped out the tubes that were inserted into his lungs during his ambulance ride. I was later transported in an ambulance to the same hospital that Moses was. I remember waking up with a night terror, the night of Moses’ birth. I woke up screaming and trying to get out of my hospital room, the nurse trying to calm me down. My first hours as a mother wasn’t supposed to be that way. I still hadn’t met or held my son. I didn’t see him or get to hold him until the next morning, 12 hours after he was born.
I knew that I needed to reclear this timeline event because on the day before my interview for my new job, when I looked at the map of the hospital where I was going to be interviewed, I burst into tears because it retriggered the memories of Moses’ difficult first days. And now, every morning when I drive to work, I am reminded about Moses’ birth. Every single morning.
It’s kind of ironic that my life’s journey has lead me to working at a hospital. I’m actually working for the university as a research coordinator, but my office is at the hospital. The project that I’m working on is about less medical interventions at birth, so it’s a project that I am passionate about. I feel that it’s quite amazing that I have this current role (divine intervention?) given that it’s a completely different line of work than what I have done in the past, since I’m a wildlife biologist by training. I’m actually loving my new job – I’m using my skills (i.e., project coordination, writing, research) on a project that I’m passionate about. I also love my colleagues. So, I feel that this clearing will be important and so very helpful in me being able to more present with my current job and will allow me to make peace with the past, which will help with my healing journey as well as Moses’.
My healing reaction was an increase in rashes on my belly. My belly was a mess of bloody scabs during this time. Symbolic? hmmmm…
It’s now a few weeks later and I am no longer reminded about Moses’ birth every time I drive to my work. Thank goodness!
Clearing childhood trauma
We moved to a new home on Nov 19th, Moses had his first IVIG infusion on Nov 23rd and I started my new timeline wafers (Physo. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M) on Nov 24th. I had delayed started the new wafers by four days, but perhaps I should have delayed even more because they hit me like a ton of bricks. These wafers were related to clearing a childhood trauma that occurred when I was less than 5 years old. I felt like I was travelling through dark energetic muck during this time and everything felt that much harder. I also had an intense headache and my neck and shoulder pains were much more intense than they normally are. I’m still in the middle of it right now as I just took the 10M wafer today. I’ll be taking my last wafer (50M) tomorrow, on the day of my next appt with my Heilkunstler. It’ll take at least a couple more weeks before this works through my system. Suffice it to say that it feels intense, and it’s been an intense time for the family with all of the changes that we’ve gone through in the last three months (moved across the country, started a new job in a new field, moved homes again, and of course, holding space for everything that Moses is going through physically and emotionally).
Overall, I’m actually coping extremely well and doing so well. I think everything that I’ve been doing to support myself has been helping (e.g., homeopathy, karmic healing, essential oils, daily walks in nature, listening to meditations, trying to stay grounded, listening to my intuition, saying no to some things that don’t feel right, saying yes to things that feel right, not over-scheduling). I also really feel that the Thrive supplements that I’ve been taking have been helping to give me more energy and mental clarity. I feel that they’ve been a complete game-changer actually.
It also helps that I absolutely love, love, love my new job and the people that I’m working with. And, I love, love, love the city that we are living in and the nearby mountains and our new home. I love everything about our new lives. I’m so happy and relieved that we had the courage to take the leap of faith and everything has worked out. Big sigh out of relief. And, DH is also so happy living here. It just feels like sunshine in our lives and in our home.
My biggest concern at the moment is to get Moses off of the “abscess train” that we are on. I’m hoping that the IVIG infusions will help. May it be so. Nonetheless, I’m thankful that Moses is doing as well as he is doing. He is otherwise healthy and well. And for that, I am thankful.
Moses had his first IVIG infusion on November 23, 2016. My plan is to keep track of all of his IVIG experiences in this post for easy tracking.
This last week was a crazy one for us. We moved homes for the second time in three months on Nov 19th, and then four days later, Moses had his first IVIG infusion. I was grief-stricken leading up to his first infusion for reasons that I detailed in a previous blog post. I’ve also spent a lot of time reading up on IVIG infusions, including potential side effects, etc. so I was worried about the procedure. I was also concerned about making the procedure as easy (and painfree) as possible for Moses.
His nurse and others with experience with receiving IVIG infusions recommended keeping Moses hydrated so that his veins would be full, and also keeping him warm. Some individuals take pre-meds to help them tolerate the infusions better (like Benadryl, Tylenol, gravol or other anti-nausea medications). We didn’t bother with any pre-meds since we wanted to see how he if he needed it. We had Emla cream handy, but his nurse told us that they preferred not to use it because the Emla cream sometimes makes it harder to insert the IV because it causes veins to hide.
For the two weeks before his infusion, we kept reminding him to drink more water than he typically drinks. We also made sure that he was warm, and wore mitts to his appointment, and when he got to the hospital, they wrapped his arms with a warm blanket. Before he left for his appointment, I put Balance essential oil blend on his hands because it helps oxygenate blood and I know of some RNs that use Balance to help veins to pop out before IV insertion or before patients give blood. Some people use clove essential oil as a natural analgesic (I use it before I get any blood work), but clove is quite stinky and technically the hospital is a scent-free zone, so I didn’t use it. Thankfully, the nurse had no problem at all finding a good IV insertion location and they got the IV in on the first try. Moses was a trooper and didn’t even use any Emla cream. Whew! So thankful and relieved that it wasn’t a traumatic experience for him (as it has been in the past).
They used IGIVnex. The immunoglobulins came in a clear bottle and was clear in colour. They infused it over 6 hours because the longer the infusion takes, the lower the probability of side effects like nausea or headaches. Moses tolerated it really well. He didn’t really have any side effects, except for some slight nausea later that evening, and I rubbed a digestion essential oil blend on his belly, which always helps him when he has any belly upsets. I’m so happy and relieved that it went well. Next time, they will try infusing it over 4 hours. Hopefully, it will go just as well. The plan now is for Moses to receive IVIG infusions every 4 weeks, indefinitely. (DH and I will assess how Moses does and see, but the immunologist’s plan is that this is part of his course of treatment now).
Even though the infusion was 6 hours, Moses was at the hospital for an additional couple of hours because he saw the surgery team and they were planning on draining one or two abscesses that he had that were ready for drainage. They even had him fast for 6 hours, in case they were going to do a procedure, but then after all of that waiting a surgical emergency came up and they couldn’t fit him in. It’s now four days later, and those abscesses haven’t resolved themselves, so I will need to call the surgeon tomorrow to see if she can fit him in sometime this week. Goodness – we so want to get off of this abscess train. It’s hard on the family, and of course, especially hard for Moses. The hope is that the IVIG will decrease the frequencies of abscesses. May it be so.
Moses says that he hasn’t felt any different since the IVIG infusion, but he felt well enough to play hockey the day after his infusion, so that was a good sign. He said that he felt more tired while skating, but he still scored a couple of goals during the practice game. And, today, we did a 4 km hike at Lake Louise and he did just fine. So proud of my boy and thankful that his first IVIG experience was a positive one overall. May they all be so.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late November over a 10 day period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On November 13, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Turn. a. 30C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep/Effects of anesthesia) – a drop a day
2) Euon. atro. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day
3) Lep. bon. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and school and impeding second move, as well as anxiety about medical interventions – Gadus 30C
5) Cold: Pod. 12C
On the day that Moses started his new remedies (even before he started these droppers), he had cold symptoms (difficulty breathing, coughing, needing puffer) and had 4 abscesses under his left armpit and 2 abscesses under his right armpit.
He received a karmic healing on Nov 15th, and we moved to a new community on Nov 19th, so this week was a time of intense change for Moses. On November 22nd, he had a night terror during which one of his abscesses drained because he thrashed around so much. He woke up with a new painful abscess in a new place the next morning, and the abscess in his armpit was huge. He was scheduled to start his first IVIG infusion on this very day (read more about that experience here). I emailed his Heilkunstler because of the increase in symptoms and she told me that he was already proving these remedies and was ready for new droppers. Since moving to Calgary, Moses has been needing new droppers more frequently (when we were in NL, Moses was on the same dropper for 3 weeks – now he is needing new droppers every 10 days or so). Goodness!
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late October and early November over a 10 day period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On November 3, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Carya 12C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep/Effects of anesthesia) – a drop a day
2) Cypr 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day
3) Hecla 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and school and impeding second move, as well as anxiety about medical interventions – Cupr acet 12C
The day that he started his new droppers was the day after he had spent 8 hours in the ER, getting 3 abscesses drained under local anesthesia, as well as nitrous oxide and madazolam, so he slept in and stayed home from school. The next evening, he had a night terror (not surprising given the nitrous oxide and madazolam that his body had recently endured). Around this time, he was still hallucinating and seeing things that were scaring him. This especially happened at night before he went to bed, but it was happening at other times during the day. He was still hearing and seeing things as of Nov. 13th.
On Nov 3, the day he started his new droppers, I accidentally fed Moses something that contained pecans in it (one of his former allergens) and he didn’t have an allergic reaction. Woot woot – this is amazing and great news. I’m going to slowly start feeding him other tree nuts and see how he does. A couple of weeks ago, we discovered that he’s no longer allergic to sunflower seeds, so this is amazing that Moses is “outgrowing” some of his allergies!!!!
On Nov 9th, Moses had an abscess that was on the back of his head spontaneously drain.
He saw a new chiropractor on Nov. 12 and the one small abscess under both armpits turned into two larger abscesses under both armpits, so I think that will be the last time we see this chiropractor. Perhaps the increase in abscesses was because of the lymphatic drainage that she did, but in any case, I don’t want to chance that happening again. We want to get off this abscess train. By the next day, he had 4 abscesses under his left armpit, 2 under his right and another one starting in a different location. He was also having difficulty breathing and coughing a lot. Sheeesh. I checked with his Heilkunstler and she said that he was ready for new remedies already, so this round lasted only for 10 days (whereas, Moses used to tolerate the same remedies for 3 weeks). So thankful that our Heilkunstler is so responsive between sessions.
- Moses is not allergic to pecans! Woot woot!
- He is still physically active (hockey camp, swimming, hiking and physical play).
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late October and early November over a 2 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On Oct 18, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Carb. 30C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Coff. t. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day
3) Hell. n. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day
4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and new school – Cast. 200C – a drop a day
The day after Moses started his new droppers, he developed three new abscesses (2 under his right armpit and 1 under his left armpit). One of the abscesses under his right armpit was already coming to a head. He also had a small bump on the top of his head, which developed 2 days before he started his new dropper. I was very upset/worried because these were his abscesses to develop under his armpit since starting Doxycycline in February. I was particularly upset because I had spent time with some spiritual friends 4 days before these appeared. It’s a long story, but Moses has a history of developing abscesses after I spend time with spiritual people.
On October 21, Moses fell down at school and hurt his pinkie. He was so upset that he threw up and had a panic attack. The next day, he had another panic attack in the shower. DH had to talk him down. Moses told me that he kept seeing things that weren’t there and that the pictures were speeding up. Goodness. A healing reaction to the droppers or was he still dealing with extraneous energies related to the time that I spent with spiritual friends?
On October 24th, we found out that Moses was struggling with math. And he was feeling emotional and overwhelmed by the fact that he was going to need to transfer schools in January because we were moving. And, he was missing his friends back in St. John’s. It was all too much for him to handle.
On October 26th, we discovered yet another abscess in a new place. My poor boy.
On October 27th, Moses had his first consultation with his immunologist in our new city. He highly recommended monthly IVIG infusions, which was suggested to us in the past, but DH and I weren’t fans of it because, well, it’s a blood product and the risks associated with that, we didn’t want Moses to need to receive IVIG infusions every month (i.e. time off of work; it’s traumatic for Moses to get IVs), and most of all, it’s like admitting that okay Moses really has an immune disorder that is otherwise not treatable except through extraordinary measures like monthly blood product infusions. Goodness. Read more about my thoughts about it here.
On November 2nd, Moses spent 8 hours in the ER because three of his abscesses were huge and needed to be drained. It was drained under local anaesthetic, but he also received nitrous oxide and madazolam because he was so anxious. Thankfully, the anaesthetic helped and it wasn’t painful for him, but with all of the anaesthetic, I wouldn’t be surprised if he has more night terrors. What a vicious cycle. His immunological team wanted him to be admitted with IV antibiotics, but DH and I said that we weren’t going to do that because we know from experience that Moses generally gets sicker when he’s admitted to the hospital, so they let us go with oral antibiotics (Clindamycin).
On November 3rd, our Heilkunstler gave Moses new remedies because she said he was already proving the remedies that he was on. Goodness. He was only on them for 2 weeks. He seems to be on a quicker cycle at the moment. Moses’ next consultation with his Heilkunstler is booked for next Tuesday. I very much appreciate her providing Moses’ new remedies before our next session. I also booked a session with his karmic healer; the session is booked in a couple of weeks.
May Moses’ next cycle be gentler. May the drainage sites all heal well. He still has some “unripe” abscesses that couldn’t be drained last night. May they just resolve on their own. And may our next move that is scheduled to occur in 16 days be a gentle and easy transition for all of us.
Moses went trick-or-treating on Halloween, and he went to his second NHL game ever last Friday. He was pretty excited. He’s still a vision of health and vitality. What a trooper.
So…. we met Moses’ new immunologist. New because, as many of you know, we recently moved across the country back to the city where Moses was born. We spent Thursday at the children’s hospital, meeting the team and getting blood work done. They collected 15 vials of blood from Moses. Goodness!
I’ve been having a hard time emotionally over the last couple of days. I’ve been grieving and sad. Nothing rocks my world like spending the day at the hospital and going through Moses’ complicated medical history. Again. The appointment was all the more difficult because Moses currently has 7 abscesses in three places, which means that the prophylactic antibiotic that Moses is on (Doxycycline) isn’t doing its job. Ugh.
His immunologist recommended a couple of changes to Moses’ treatment. He doesn’t want him going on and off his antifungal (Diflucan); he wants him to be on it all the time. It’s a long story, but 4 years ago, Moses’ immunologist was open to Moses stopping Diflucan to see how he does (since Diflucan can be hard on the liver). Since then, Moses is probably on Diflucan about half of the time – 2 months on it and 2 months off it. He goes back on it when he has a fungal flare up (typically thrush) or the corners of his lips are badly cracked. He’s back on it right now.
His immunologist also highly recommends that Moses receive monthly IVIG infusions, which means spending a day at the hospital once a month to receive a blood product made up of immunoglobulins from 1,000 to 10,000 people. His immunologist in our last city had recommended it too, but didn’t strongly push it and our family wasn’t ready to go this route. To me, accepting this treatment feels like admitting that, yes, my son has a difficult-to-treat immunodeficiency (which, of course, he does, but I try as hard as I can to ignore that fact) and he needs an extraordinary intervention to be well. It means a monthly appointment at the hospital, when my son needs to be hooked up to an IV. It means one day a month of missed school. It means fitting in yet another appointment, while DH and I are both trying to manage fulltime jobs and responsibilities. It feels like a whole lot. And of course, there’s risks involved in receiving blood products. And I even feel some guilt about Moses needing immunoglobulins from so many people to be well.
I’ve known for a long time that approximately 50% of individuals with hyper IgE receive monthly IVIG infusions or weekly subcutaneous IVIG therapy that can be administered at home. Prior to this, we weren’t interested in going this route for the above reasons, and we also didn’t think he was ill enough to warrant this treatment. Also, prior to this, no one seemed very confident that the IVIG would help reduce the occurrences of abscesses. We knew that it could help reduce the occurrence of lung infections (which, thank goodness, Moses hasn’t had for awhile), but would it help with abscesses?
In any case, something has changed and my gut is now telling me, “Say yes to the IVIG – it will help”. And so, we are saying yes. But that doesn’t mean that I can’t grieve. I’m writing this blog post now because it helps me to process and give voice to what I’m feeling. So these feelings can pass, and we can go back to living our very full lives.
I just took a break from writing and dropped Moses off at his friend’s house. He mentioned to his friend’s mom about how he will be needing monthly IVIG infusions. She commented, “But you are feeling well and your energy is good…” Well, yes, that’s true. He looks healthy, well and strong. His main symptoms right now are abscesses, and they are troublesome because a) they can be painful, b) they can burst at anytime if they get to be a certain stage (e.g., he missed swimming today because he was afraid that one of them would burst in the pool) , c) they sometimes need surgical intervention, and d) they sometimes interfere with activities (for example, he missed both of his wrestling practices this week because he wasn’t feeling well enough to participate).
In any case, her comment reminded me that overall, Moses is doing so well. He is. We just want these abscesses to stop. We hope that the IVIG will help his body to fight the infections that cause the abscesses. May it be so.
More reading about hyper IgE syndrome and IVIG
- Wakim et al. (1998) found that IVIG was of no clear clinical benefit in 9 patients, including one with hyper IgE syndrome , and did not significantly decrease IgE levels, IgE synthesis, or other measures of immunologic function.
- Krassilnikova et al. (2007) found that IVIG decreased the frequency of infections for an individual with hyper IgE syndrome.
- Bilora et al. (2000) found that “A moderate dose of IVIG resolved the clinical-radiological signs of the S. aureus bronchopneumonia and improved cytologic and biohumoral parameters,” and represented a useful treatment for pneumonia for individuals with hyper IgE syndrome.
- “Patients with the hyper-IgE syndrome usually have normal serum IgG, IgM, and IgA levels, but some have been reported to have various defects in antibody responses. These include poor anamnestic antibody responses to booster immunization with
FX174, diphtheria and tetanus toxoids, and pneumococcal and Haemophilusinfluenzae vaccines, as well as poor antibody and cell-mediated responses to neoantigens, such as keyhole limpet hemocyanin. There is significant phenotypic variation in the severity of pulmonary infections that is not necessarily predicted by deficits in antigen-specific antibody responses. Despite this, some patients with hyper-IgE syndromes with recurrent respiratory infections mightbenefit from IgG replacement therapy.”- Orange et al. 2006
- This scientific presentation, “What to do when nothing can be done?” mentions IVIG as the most frequently used therapy for individuals with hyper IgE syndrome (besides prophylactic antibiotics and antifungals).
General articles about IVIG
- Anderson et al. (2007) – Guidelines on the Use of Intravenous Immune Globulin for Hematologic Conditions – good general article about IVIG, including costs for our healthcare system in Canada and the types of conditions it should be used for (the articles doesn’t mention hyper IgE syndrome, since it’s a very rare immunological condition).
- Medscape’s article about IVIG.
This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from early September to mid-October (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
I started the following droppers on September 8th, 2016:
1) Alm. 30C – (Physical – Sleep/Digestion/Neck and back pain/TMJ/Plantar’s warts/Hay fever and Allergies/Peri-Menopausal/Weight gain) – a drop a day
2) Arg. cy. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety over the move) – a drop a day
3) Bar. iod. 1M – (Mentals – Adjustment to Calgary/Life Purpose/Career/New Life) – a drop a day
4) Acute – Stress over Move and job search/starting new job – Lep. bon. 200C – a drop as needed
5) Peri-Menopausal symptoms – Glon. 30C – a drop as needed
6) Sleep – Kre. 12C – a drop at bedtime each night
New Timeline Wafers:
Pallad. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – Start two weeks after finishing last set of wafers, taking over six consecutive nights, 1-6. (2013 – Vacation cancelled at last minute)
Jatr. u. 30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – Take over five consecutive nights, 1-5. (2010 – Ended relationship with a spiritual teacher)
One thing that I noticed after starting my new droppers (one of which was a sleep dropper) is that I started sleeping well (i.e., my jet lag was over and I stopped walking up in the middle of the night). Yay!
On September 13th, five days after starting the droppers and 8 days after finishing the Nat. mur wafers from the last timeline clear (i.e., the end of a significant relationship), I was experiencing grief. Nat. mur is related to old grief, so it was unsurprising that I was experiencing grief. Also, life was beginning to slow down after our whirlwind month of travelling, packing and moving, so the emotions related to saying goodbye to my life in St. John’s and also our loved ones were also starting to catch up with me.
On September 19th, I was scheduled to start my next set of wafers (i.e., 2 weeks after my last set of wafers), but I wasn’t feeling well, including a sore throat and runny nose, so I decided to delay my new wafers. I also felt like I was on edge and more sensitive than normal. I was also itchy in places (esp. belly, shoulders).
Clearing cancelled vacation
On September 24th, I started the Pallad wafers to clear an incident related to a postponed vacation in August 2012. Incidentally, this is the same timeline event that Moses was in the middle of clearing, and was having a difficult time clearing. The vacation had been postponed because Moses had a painful abscess and a doctor friend had advised us not to travel with him. It had been absolutely devastating since it was a last minute decision (made by DH), and Moses woke up the morning that we were supposed to leave on vacation to the news. It was awful for all of us. It was awful for me because the vacation was our first one planned to visit my family in three years. My best friend from high school had planned her vacation back to Winnipeg to coincide with my vacation, and I hadn’t seen her in several years. My mom’s sister had also planned a trip to Winnipeg at this time, and I’d never met my mom’s sister before because they had been estranged for over 50 years for reasons beyond their control. And, I was going to miss them both. I bawled my eyes out and grieved. Feelings of life not being under my control and not being able to enjoy the simplest joys. And also holding space for Moses’ devastation. I still remember how awful it was when Moses woke up, expecting to be in a plane ride and to the news that our vacation wasn’t going to happen because he wasn’t well enough. It still brings me to tears when I think about it. It was so awful. Truthfully, we had made so many plans that were cancelled due to illness that it was depressing for us both.
We wound up rescheduling the trip for the following month (and we had a great trip), but I found that when we went on vacation to Winnipeg in August this year, I was reminded about this incident and it felt like something that needed to be cleared for him and also for me as well. It was a major incident for us to clear (so big that Moses hasn’t yet been able to finish all of his wafers because he was having too big of a healing reaction). Feelings of: We don’t deserve to have good things happen to us. Life is not to be trusted. We might as well not make any plans because life sucks and is full of suffering. Really dark feelings and thoughts that need to be brought to the light and healed, especially in light of the fact that our family is at a different part of our healing journey and we are creating a much more light-filled life. A brand new start and a brand new life.
The morning after I started the first wafer, I developed a new rash on my inner left elbow. (The same place that I developed a rash two timeline clearings ago). And I noticed that I was angry. For no apparent reason given how well life in present time was going for us. I knew that the anger was related to the clearing. This anger lasted for days. And interestingly since Moses and I were clearing the same timeline event, it mirrored the same anger that Moses was releasing. I noticed that shortly after I started taking the timeline wafers, Moses was starting to have an easier time physically.
But then on October 2nd and 3rd, we spent a total of 12 hours in the ER, which I found to be very difficult. It was the first time that we had to deal with abscesses since we started using Doxycycline in Feb, so I was freaked out. And, I was even more freaked out because I was scheduled to start fulltime work for the university, and I was worried about whether I would be able to meet my new work commitments. I was feeling angry and hopeless about the situation, but when we got home, Moses’ friends 2 doors from us came over with a card and a small gift for Moses. It melted my heart and my anger.
Clearing end of significant relationship
On October 13th, I started my next wafers (Jatr. u.) to clear the end of a significant relationship with a spiritual teacher in 2010. Today is Oct 17th and I took the last of my five wafers this morning. It’s too soon to tell if I will have a healing reaction to this clearing.
These last 6 weeks were incredible for so many ways. As mentioned above, I have a new job at the university as a research coordinator. I started my new job last week and I love working there. I love my bosses and my colleagues, my work, my office and my daily walks along a ravine. I love, love, love my job! It feels so good to be using my gifts and skills for something that I feel passionate about.
We have now been living in Calgary for 6 weeks and I’m so happy to be living here. I love our current home that we are renting, and I love the home that we purchased, which we will be moving into next month. I love the sun. I’m so happy!! All three of us are happy, getting settled in our new lives, and reconnecting with our community here.
p.s. I started a new supplement a couple of weeks ago and I think it’s really helping my energy levels and mood.
This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in October over a 2.5 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On September 30, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:
1) Frag. v. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Stomach pains/Rashes/Ear Fissures/Cracked lips/Dry scalp/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Allergies/Bloody snot/Asthma-Breathing issues/Itching/Sleep) – a drop a day
2) Cycl. 200C – (Emotions – Social anxiety/Fears/Anger/Sadness/Mood swings/Loss and missing friends and family in Nfld.) – a drop a day
3) Bol. sat. 1M – (Mentals – Smooth transition to all the changes in his life – new city, new house(s), Mom going back to a regular job with travel, etc./Cleanliness/Focus on academics/Night terrors/Babyishness) – a drop a day
New Timeline Wafers:
Nit. spi. dulc. 30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – Take one every fifth night, 1-5. (Devastation over cancelled vacation three summers ago – 2013) – Had last two wafers to take.
On the day before Moses started his droppers, he had a new abscess develop. The first that had developed since he started Doxycycline in Feb. It had me a bit worried….
On the day that he started his droppers, he was angry and talking back a lot. Not getting along with his friends. Argumentative. Also still very sad about missing his friends and family in NL.
On the day after he started his droppers, he had an abscess develop between his nose and his eyes (or so we thought). It was painful. A dental abscess?
On Oct 2nd, he had 2 abscesses near his nose and it was affecting his breath. And 1-2 more abscesses on another part of his body. Eep! We were all upset about this, given that Moses has essentially been abscess-free since February (since he started Doxycycline). What was going on? I contacted our Heilkunstler and she thought that it was a healing reaction to the new droppers, in combination with the wafers that he had been clearing related to the last minute cancelled / postponed vacation in 2013. What a doozy of an event to clear. She prescribed an acute dropper to help him through it. (Ars. hydro 12C).
In the meantime, we brought Moses to a dentist (thankfully, a dentist saw him last minute even though it was a Sunday!). They did some x-rays and determined that it was not a dental abscess. That’s good news. DH suggested that we go to the Children’s hospital, which we did. I had suggested that we feed Moses first because I had fasted him for the dental appt, in case they needed to pull a tooth. But, DH thought that the visit would be a quick one (but, of course, ER visits are NEVER quick), so we went straight there, and unfortunately spent 6 hours at the ER until 9:30 pm. Goodness. It was awful because Moses was sooo hungry. He basically missed eating lunch AND dinner, with just a few small non-substantial snacks instead. We found out that the abscess was actually INSIDE his left nostril. No wonder it was painful. They tried to drain it (which was awful and painful for Moses), and there was only blood in it, not pus, which concerned them, so then they wanted to schedule a CT scan. We waited for a couple more hours, and then they decided to send us home (thankfully), so that the CT scan could be done the next day and Moses could sleep in his own bed.
On Oct 3rd, we went back to the hospital. Moses had to fast for another 4 hours, get an IV and a contrast CT. And then we waited in the ER for another 3 hours to find out that they weren’t really sure what was going on with his nose. They sent him home (thankfully) because it was starting to get smaller on its own (I suspect because of the acute remedy that our Heilkunstler made up for him the day before). I was in a cranky mood about the whole thing, but when we got home, Moses’ friends 2 doors from us came over with a card and a small gift for Moses. It melted my heart and my anger. And, Moses was in good spirits because we bought him a special LEGO set, and spent the evening putting it together. And he even had a small playdate with his friends. All was well in our world.
And, on Oct 4th, the abscess on another part of his body burst on its own. Hallelujah! Woot woot! He still had an abscess in his nose, but it seemed to be getting smaller. And, on October 5th, the abscess in his nose was essentially gone (just a tiny bit was left). We were sooo happy and relieved.
On Oct 7th, Moses had an intense night terror. One of the worst that I’ve been in awhile. And, when Moses woke up the next morning, he told me that it was the worst bad dream that he had ever had. He felt like he was hallucinating and couldn’t get out of it. He was shaking like crazy. It was like it was affecting his nervous system. And he was panicked. I wondered if he was discharging some of the medical interventions that he endured the previous week. And maybe also discharge related to his homeopathic remedies and also a karmic healing that I had recently had, which would also indirectly affect Moses. I visualized Moses’ energy being grounded and shortly after, he calmed down and went back to sleep.
On Oct 10th, we had big news! We discovered that Moses was no longer allergic to sunflower seeds! (Read more here).
On the evening of Oct 12th, Moses had a night terror. It was odd because he actually walked downstairs before he started screaming and jumping around. He developed a chalazion on his right eye lid on Oct 15th, but it mostly went away on its own by the next day. He had some dental work on Oct 16th (including laughing gas), and his dentist noticed tongue ulcerations and signs of thrush, as well as his ever-present cracked corners of his lips. He also had a huge emotional meltdown during homework. Later that evening, he told me that he was having hallucinations – he was seeing things that he sometimes sees during his night terrors, but while he was awake. And, later that night, he had a deep night terror – it took awhile for him to come out of it and he thrashed around violently and was difficult to control. He’s getting so strong, we are afraid that he will hurt himself (i.e., fling himself into the furniture or walls) or hurt us while we are trying to control him. We found him in the livingroom again. I think this night terror was related to the laughing gas he had received earlier that day. On Oct 17th, he developed a new bump on the top of his head (right side). Given the increase in symptoms, it felt like it was time for Moses to have his next Heilkunst appt, and I bumped up his next appt by two days. It was only 2.5 weeks since his last appt, but Moses’ body lets us know when he’s ready for his next remedies.
Although there was an increase of symptoms during these last 2.5 weeks, including time at the ER, overall, Moses is still doing really well. His been adjusting to school well and has made several friends. And, he has a best friend, who he sees everyday.
Of course, Moses no longer being allergic to sunflower seeds is a huge, huge, huge gift!
I started back to fulltime work this week, which was a big transition for the family as I have been unemployed since May, and prior to that, I have worked from a home office ever since Moses was one year of age. Moses hasn’t had any problems with my transition back to work. On Friday, we even left him home alone for a couple of hours before school because DH and I had to leave for work at 7 am and Moses has a late school day start on Fridays at 9:50 am. He fed himself breakfast, hung out at home and then locked the door and walked 2 doors down to his best friend’s house when he was ready. And then they walked to school together. On Sunday, he and his friend attended the Home Alone course that is offered by Child Safe Canada.
He is enjoying a hockey camp at the university and has made friends there. He’s a strong swimmer during his swimming lessons. He even joined the wrestling team at school; his first session is next week. We are so proud of our boy.
We’ve now been living in Calgary for 6 weeks and he’s done really well with the transition. More transitions are to come because we are moving to a new community next month, and are thinking of transferring to a new school in January. Goodness. May all of the upcoming transitions continue to go smoothly for our family. One day at a time.
Wow – this is a big one! Moses is no longer allergic to sunflower seeds, something that he had an anaphylactic reaction to in the past! We fed him something that contained sunflower seeds because he was open to trying it and my intuition said that it was safe.
This opens up our world so much because every additional allergy is that much more restriction, in terms of foods that we can prepare and places that we can eat.
I also want to eventually try to feed Moses some other foods that I suspect that he is no longer allergic to, if he is comfortable trying it. His current list of allergies are the following: tree nuts, dairy, eggs, gluten, mustard and fish. I’d love to get this list down, one by one. It feels like his world is opening up! So thankful!
Friends, I’m starting a new supplement that a dear friend recommended. She found that this new supplement (or group of supplements) helped her energy levels, mental clarity, her emotional well being and decreased her symptoms related to PMS (a huge thing for her).
Since I’m going to be starting a new fulltime job next week, which will involve a 50 minute commute on transit, and earlier mornings than I’m used to, I’ve been concerned about my energy levels.
I thought that I’d jot down some notes about my baseline, so that I can see if the new supplement (which is quite $$) has an effect:
- energy levels are okay, but I typically have a mid-day slump;
- I typically crave chocolate during the mid-day and at night (maybe my body looking to increase energy);
- I typically crave potato chips at night;
- It’s hard for me to wake up in the morning;
- dark circles under eyes;
- chronic neck and shoulder tension that has been there for years;
- I haven’t been making time to consistently exercise, despite the fact that I have time to do it. I’ve been very sporadically practicing yoga for 20 minutes a day, and go for occasional walks;
- rashes on my belly and left inner elbow due to detoxing with homeopathy;
- my frame of mind is generally positive, but I still have a low level of anxiety that runs in the background; and
- I think I could ideally lose approx. 5-10 lbs.
My plan is to use the supplement at a half dose because I’m frugal and I generally take most supplements at a half dose because I tend to be sensitive (my naturopath says that I’m a half dose kind of gal). My friend found a difference at a half dose, and I hope I will as well!
I hope to have more consistent and higher energy levels and to have more mental clarity. I want to be at the top of my game for my new job, and also still have energy for the family. And energy to exercise. I’m going to stop the current supplements that I have been using (but will continue with homeopathy), and see how I do. I’ll report back in a month’s time.