This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from mid-March to April (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.
On March 12, 2016, I started the following droppers.
1) Polyg. 30C – (Physical – Rashes/Neck and shoulder pain/Digestion/TMJ/Plantar warts/Hay fever/Allergies to dogs and cats) – a drop a day
2) Nat. sulphurous. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety) – a drop a day
3) Kali pm. 1M – (Mentals – Life purpose/Self-confidence/Transitioning career) – a drop a day
A – Nat. ars. 30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – for Moses’ Job’s Syndrome diagnosis – 2010
B – Datur. a. 30C/200C/1M/10M50M – Giving up energy healing – December 2013
On March 18th, I started the Nat. ars. wafers to clear the trauma of Moses’ Job’s syndrome diagnosis when he was 4 years old in 2010. I didn’t experience a noticeable change to this clearing (no healing reaction), but Moses had a great March and his Heilkunstler attributed the fact that Moses has been doing exceptionally well lately to the fact that I cleared this event on my timeline.
On my 43rd birthday on April 3, one of DH’s cousins, a bright light, died unexpectedly in her sleep and I grieved her death. She was kind-hearted, generous of spirit, a joy to be around, outrageously funny, inspiring, wise, resilient, courageous and strong. I asked my Heilkunstler for some support and she prescribed an acute dropper for me (China 200C). I felt that it immediately eased my heartache.
On April 5th, I started the Datur. a. wafers to clear the heartache and grief associated with letting go of being an energy healer based on advice that I received from my karmic healer in December 2013. I grieved for at least 6 months – maybe more. It was a huge loss of identity for me at the time. More than two years later, I don’t feel the same loss or grief anymore, but I felt that this was an important event in my timeline to be cleared. About a week after starting these wafers, I developed an intensely itchy rash that spread over a lot of my body (my entire torso, especially my sides, my back) and I was itchy elsewhere (my calves, my thighs, the backs of my knees). The rash and itchiness wasn’t as bad as when I cleared Lepr, but it was pretty bad. It’s been 2.5 weeks since I started the wafers and I still have the rash. I suspected the rash symbolized a metamorphosis / shedding of an old identity / skin.
I was in a modern dance recital a couple of weeks ago. Although I have always loved to move and dance, I wasn’t very enthusiastic about being in the recital. I lamented that I wasn’t a very good dancer – I couldn’t really remember the steps, I have a difficult time with turns, and I can’t count out the music. I can’t remember which move is done at which count. I also didn’t feel comfortable wearing a form-fitted dress. I admitted this to a friend, and she reminded me that I have a gorgeous figure. Isn’t it so interesting how we are always our own harshest critic?
I’ve been reading a lot of books lately about being okay with being vulnerable and being brave and how just showing up is courageous. I reminded the hyper-critical perfectionist in me that I didn’t need to be the best dancer. I just needed to show up. It wasn’t about being perfect (something that I have always struggled with).
My recital has now come and gone and I absolutely loved the whole experience. I re-discovered the part of me that not only loves to dance, but also to perform. And, lo and behold, I looked beautiful in my dress. And, I danced alongside my fellow dancers and friends beautifully. Not perfectly, but beautifully, nonetheless.
It was a lovely experience. Really.
It reminded me of how I loved to perform in high school plays. I never had the largest parts, but I loved performing nonetheless. I’m an introvert who loves to be seen from time to time.
It was also a huge boost in my confidence. I made some new friends / connections. I reconnected to my own beauty and grace.
Interestingly, this ties back into my grief of letting go of being an energy healer. It is because I stopped offering healing sessions and stopped teaching yoga classes that I had time to sign up for a modern dance class. And look at the beauty that it has brought into my life.
My soul and my body are so happy that I am dancing again. Just for fun. Just for me.