Okay, dear friends. It feels like it’s time for a catch up on how we’re doing.
We’ve been doing really well! Moses has been healthy and happy.
We’ve all been trying to find and express our bliss. DH has been biking just about every day and getting out for either a longer bike ride or a hike every weekend. On Saturday, DH gave me a “me” day and I went to a yoga class in the morning and spent the rest of the day with a dear friend at the Farmer’s market, hanging out downtown and then by a waterfall at the ocean. Heaven. It as a day to decompress, rejuvenate and reconnect with the earth and my body.
I had a Wish Game with my friends last weekend and my wish was to enjoy my life and my body.
I really feel that it’s time for self care and me time.
One of the cards that I choose during the game was, “Miracles happen”, and I reflected that I really feel that we’ve experienced a miracle. I feel that something big has shifted for Moses. Not only is he healing, but he is healed. That’s how I feel. I feel the universe is telling me to open my eyes and rejoice and see how my prayers have been answered. You can see it in the pictures that I shared here, here and here.
Moses is more embodied. His body is stronger. A friend of mine has remarked how he’s gotten taller and his whole body has changed shape. He feels strong and healthy to me.
My dynamic with Moses has even changed. I’ve been energetically shifting so that I’m no longer trying to “save him” / “heal him”. I’m trying to empower him to “save himself” / feel safe as himself. We’ve both been feeling it.
For example, during the last few months, every time he fell (e.g., riding his bike), he would be angry at me, “Mom, you never save me”.
I was puzzled by this response and also saddened by it given that I feel that I’ve felt that I’ve spent his whole life trying to “save him”, and he has been reflecting back that I’m never there to save him.
I discussed it with my naturopath (who is very intuitive) and she said that Moses is likely responding to the fact that he can feel me energetically pulling away, giving him space to heal / save himself, and that this is a healthy transition for us to make. It’s time to empower Moses to save himself. And he is ready, and he can.
Moses and I have been fighting a lot more. I’ve been finding that I no longer have any patience. I’ve spent all of my patience, a lifetime of patience over the last 7 years. I have no more left. DH and I are switching roles, and DH has become the patient one. I really feel that we have been going through a big transition, but it’s a necessary one. I feel that I no longer need to find “that magic bullet” that will heal Moses. I feel that we are well on our path. Moses is healthy and well. He is.
I feel that everything that we’ve done up to this point has been part of this journey. Trusting myself. Developing a relationship with God. Forgiveness. I do feel that the 2.5 years that we spent healing through Heilkunst homeopathy was an important and integral part of Moses’ healing. And now I feel that the gentle, yet powerful essential oils can help with the rest.