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February 2017 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of AJ’s Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late January to mid-February over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On January 28, 2017, AJ started the following droppers:

1) Atham. 30C – (Physical – Abscesses/Eczema/Thrush on corners of mouth/Rashes/Allergies/Bump on head/Accident prone/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Sleep) – a drop a day

2) Dol. 200C – (Emotions – Overly emotional/Anxiety/Stress/Fears) – a drop a day

3) Gent. crucial. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Popularity/Peer socialization/Athleticism/Creativity/Academics/Self-confidence) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety – Merc. praecox. alb. 30C – as needed

We started Nature’s Bounty Flax Seed Oil, since we recently stopped Amaranth oil

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AJ had been doing well for a couple of days when he started his new droppers. Making lots of friends at school. Doing well academically. Enjoying his weekly hockey games and continuing to score a few goals every game. Also, he was being very creative. Drawing late into the evening when he was supposed to be sleeping. Painting plaster moulds. We hope that this “rest phase” would continue. His last day of 24/7 CoRe treatment was on Jan 30th. I did really feel that the CoRe treatment helped to stabilize him.

As of Feb 1, AJ was still doing well. Yay! Also, the abscess under his armpit resolved on its own (disappeared), but he still had one somewhere else. Because it was in an uncomfortable spot, we booked an appointment for it to be drained under general anaesthesia on Feb 10th.

But then on Feb 2nd, AJ was a dark cloud. Mad. Frustrated. Emotionally regressing at a dental appt. And he COULDN’T TAKE HIS ABSCESS ANYMORE. He wanted them to drain it right away, but the surgery was scheduled for 8 days away. I called his surgeon’s office and there was a cancellation for the following Monday, so it was moved up to Feb 6th. Thank goodness because if they hadn’t been able to reschedule it, I had planned to bring him to the ER on Feb 3rd to get it drained. ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh. I am so sick of this vicious terrible cycle of abscesses and surgical drainage that we are on. I checked with his Heilkunstler to see if his dark cloud was because he was ready for new droppers, but she reported that they were still working quite well. She said that it’s all the invasive poking and prodding AJ was going through (i.e., dental appt at children’s hospital, probably reminding him of his recent dental trauma a short couple of weeks ago) created his dark mood. He had a night terror later that night.

We restarted the 24/7 CoRe treatment on the evening of Feb 5th and continued for 4 days. The focus of the treatment was to help AJ stabilize emotionally and physically while he fasts on Feb 6th and to positively deal with the general anaesthesia and incision and healing of the abscess.

On the evening of Feb 5th, AJ had a bad dream, but not a night terror (so that’s progress).

Abscess drainage and 4th IVIG

On Feb 6th, AJ had two more abscesses drained (right armpit and another area). As he always does, he came out from the anaesthesia with “emergence delirium”. Screaming, kicking, angry and itchy. Because he had an IV already inserted from the surgery, his immunologist decided that it would be a good time for him to receive IVIG (since last time was such an ordeal), but AJ was so mad because he just wanted to go home and he was so sick of being in the hospital. Even though he already had the IV inserted, he was upset about the flushing, so they still had to give him Midazolam in order to calm him down enough for them to get the IVIG infusion started.  It took 4 nurses (3 to hold him down and 1 to squirt the 2 syringes of Midazolam into his mouth). He screamed things like, “I hate my life and everything in my life!” [Things that parents wish they never have to hear their children say in their lifetime]. They infused it over 4 hours from 4 pm to 8 pm, so it was a long day, since we got to the hospital at 9:45 am, and didn’t leave the hospital until 9 pm at night.

Later that evening, he had one dose of Septra to see if he would tolerate it okay. Septra is an antibiotic that is effective against MRSA and individuals with AJ’s diagnosis often take Septra prophylactically, but because he also has G6PD-deficiency, the physicians have been reluctant to try him on Septra because it’s contraindicated for individuals with G6PD-deficiency. But we are desperate for these abscesses to stop, so we are open to them trying it (even though a couple of weeks ago, I mourned the fact that he wouldn’t be antibiotic-free for long).

On Feb 8th, he started an acute dropper (Arg. n. 12C) for sorrow. This was his first day back to school. He walked to school and back home on this very cold day on his own because I started work very early that morning (typically I start work after I drop him off at school). Later that evening, he was his normal self, joking around, had a voracious appetite and played hockey at the rink with DH. It felt like we were getting back to our normal groove.

Feb 9th was his last day of his three day 24/7 CoRe treatment. He called me at work at 11:30 am, complaining of a headache and stomach ache, although when I got him home, he seems okay. Still had a good appetite. DH brought him to the children’s hospital so he could have follow up blood work after his one dose of Septra. Thankfully, he was a trooper for the blood work and it wasn’t a traumatic experience for him. He played hockey at the rink with DH again later that night.

We had a great weekend. One of AJ’s friends hung out with us on Saturday and we went for a 4 km hike in the mountains. On Sunday, we went to the Rogers Hometown Hockey event at Cochrane and he even got Ron MacLean’s signature.

It felt like life was getting back to normal, but then on Feb 13th, he developed another abscess on his left armpit, which means that he had 2 abscess in total. ugh. ugh. ugh. And then on Feb 15th, he had an abscess starting under his right eye. He started taking a prophylatic antibiotic (Septra) every 2nd days, starting on Feb 15th. He will have follow up blood work next week to make sure that it’s not causing hemolysis. We are all sad that AJ’s body continues to create these abscesses. We do hope that prophylactic Septra will help. We can’t continue like this.

We have our next Heilkunst appt today on Feb 17th.


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Late Nov 2016 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late November over a 10 day period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On November 13, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Turn. a. 30C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep/Effects of anesthesia) – a drop a day

2) Euon. atro. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day

3) Lep. bon. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and school and impeding second move, as well as anxiety about medical interventions – Gadus 30C

5) Cold: Pod. 12C

On the day that Moses started his new remedies (even before he started these droppers), he had cold symptoms (difficulty breathing, coughing, needing puffer) and had 4 abscesses under his left armpit and 2 abscesses under his right armpit.

He received a karmic healing on Nov 15th, and we moved to a new community on Nov 19th, so this week was a time of intense change for Moses. On November 22nd, he had a night terror during which one of his abscesses drained because he thrashed around so much. He woke up with a new painful abscess in a new place the next morning, and the abscess in his armpit was huge. He was scheduled to start his first IVIG infusion on this very day (read more about that experience here). I emailed his Heilkunstler because of the increase in symptoms and she told me that he was already proving these remedies and was ready for new droppers. Since moving to Calgary, Moses has been needing new droppers more frequently (when we were in NL, Moses was on the same dropper for 3 weeks – now he is needing new droppers every 10 days or so). Goodness!


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Clearing Leprosy to 50M (my Heilkunst journey)

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in September / October 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

In September, I cleared the Leprosy chronic miasm to 50M (12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M).

Leprosy is not one of the main 8 miasms that are typically cleared with Heilkunst, but depending on the practitioner, sometimes two additional miasms (Leprosy and Smallpox) are cleared, if an individual requires it.  In terms of seasonal influence, the time of Leprosy coincides with Psora or immediately precedes it (i.e., early fall), so I was treated for Leprosy at the perfect time of year.

I wasn’t surprised that I needed to clear this miasm because I had been treated with Leprosy homeopathic droppers in the past. Back in 2011, during my Heilkunst treatment, I developed a difficult to treat and very itchy mysterious rash. I saw a dermatologist for a diagnosis and he even suggested that it might have been leprosy (among some other suggestions). A biopsy showed that it was just eczema, but the fact that he even mentioned that it could have been leprosy felt that it was a cosmic nod that I needed the Leprosy homeopathic remedy.

The leprosy chronic miasm is thought to be a combination of traits of both tuberculosis and syphilis miasms (which both show up strongly in me).

Not surprising, its description is pretty intense.

“Feeling like a leper – rejected by society and by family. Without hope. With an intense need for change.” – Source.

Before clearing this miasm, I didn’t necessarily relate to the above description, but one of its descriptions include being suicidal and I was suicidal as a teenager, and I often feel like I’m an outsider. I looked forward to removing the root of this energetic imprint from my psyche.

Droppers:

1) Veratrum album 1M (Mentals – relationship support, life purpose) – a drop a day

2) Orchitinum 30C (Emotions – stress/anxiety) – a drop a day

3) Acute – Hives behind knees – Kali chloricum 9C – a drop a day, plus put a drop into a glass of water and sip throughout the day ad/or put a drop into a spray bottle of water and spray a fine mist on the area once or twice a day

4) Acute – Overall itchiness – Platanus 200C – a drop a day plus a drop in water to sip and/or a drop in a spray bottle with water to spray over itchy areas 1-2 X a day

My update

I started the new droppers on Sept 17. On the first day, I was intensely itchy. On the second day, I was itchy all over (forearms, shoulders, neck, back, thighs, back of knees, stomach). Scratching myself until a hot red rash appeared on most of the places that I was scratching. Going out of my mind with the itch. Getting a better idea of all that Moses has gone through over the years with intense itching and scratching. My Heilkunstler, during our last appointment, said that my new rashes could symbolize me “breaking through my old skin” into a new paradigm. I hoped that I would break through soon!

Five days after starting the new droppers, I was absolutely GOING OUT OF MY MIND with the itch!!!! I had developed a terrible rash on my back, neck, parts of my torso, backs of knees, thighs, groin. It was a red, mean and hot itchy rash.  Uncontrollable scratching at night. Drove me crazy. My Heilkunstler said to stop the acute droppers and start another one (Rosa dam. 30C – 2x per day).

Ironically, my rash in September was way worse than Moses’ rashes. I had such compassion for Moses…. The itch was so bad that I started taking Moses’ Benadryl AND his 24 hour Reactin tablets for good measure.  (I can’t remember the last time that I took any medicine – I basically never ever take medication, but the itch was so bad and I was desperate!!!)

On Sept 24th, I started the Leprosy wafers. Three days later, I was still itchy, but perhaps not quite as much as I was before. I hoped that the worst was behind me. I did an amazing job of purging paperwork from my office. I let go of two large recycling bags full of paper. It felt so good!

On the day after I took my last wafer, I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo itchy again. Out of my mind with the itch!  I scratched my legs and my back and my torso to bits. I took more Benadryl and Reactin. A couple of hours later, I was overwhelmed by fatigue and fell asleep directly after dinner and slept for 13 hours. I missed my dance class and the  Hawksley Workman concert. Ack!!!!  But I sure needed that sleep.

That seemed to be the peak of my healing reaction. The next day, the rashes almost disappeared overnight. I still had some itchiness, but it wasn’t as intense as it was. I was still tired, but not absolutely exhausted. And, I was feeling optimistic! Thank God!!!  The worst was over, but as of today (3.5 weeks after starting my new droppers), I’m still having bouts of intense itchiness. Since this last month has been so rough on me, I’ve booked my next session with my Heilkunstler at the 4 week mark, rather than my typical 7 weeks between treatments.

I have a feeling that this miasm may be one of the main roots of Moses’ diagnosis (which is related to terrible skin afflictions and intense scratching and itchiness). He’s probably a long way away from clearing this miasm since he’s currently taking a break from clearing any miasms (since they are destabilizing for his sensitive system). Since we are resonate with each other,  I hope that my work in clearing it will also help his healing journey.

Self care

I’ve been paying more attention to my own self care lately. I started seeing a physiotherapist for my TMJ tension and it’s really, really helping!!! I’ve been practicing yoga more regularly and have been meditating daily. I’ve been enjoying my weekly modern dance class. I’m currently on vacation and have been enjoying my mom’s company (she’s visiting for a week). We’ve been enjoying lots of family time, good food and nice walks in the woods. So nurturing!

I have been less concerned about whether I’m on track with my life purpose (and have been embracing where I am with my life). I am still concerned about my job since work continues to be slow (with periods of manic busy-ness), but my inner voice has been telling me not to worry. Just enjoy the slow pace of work. All will be well. Just trust.

So be it and it is so.

More reading

  • A case study that involved clearing the Leprosy miasm here (by a homeopath, not a Heilkunstler).
  • More about the 10 chronic miasm system here and a slightly different one discussed here.


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Fall 2015 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in September/October 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On September 17, 2015, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Magnesium phosphorica 12C (Physical – rashes/ear fissures/cracked lips/asthma/dry scalp/dry skin/abscesses/immune boost) – 1 per day

2) Mephitis mephitica 30C (Emotions – Anxiety/squeaking/Socialization) – 1 per day

3) Rhamnus californica 10M – (Mentals – Self-confidence/Agility/Focus/Motivation/Energy Level) – 1 per day

Moses wasn’t feeling well even before he started his droppers (potentially because the droppers actually start working as soon as they are prescribed by our Heilkunstler – it’s actually a form of energy medicine). I picked him up from school because he wasn’t feeling well a couple of hours before he received his first dose.

The morning after he started the droppers, he told me he had a bad dream (but it wasn’t a night terror = progress). That morning, he also told me that he was surrounded by angels. This was interesting because it’s been at least a couple of years since he mentioned seeing angels (this used to be a common occurrence when he was five years old or younger). A couple of hours later, I picked him up from school early because he had a headache, his eyes were twitching, he had a stomach pains and a stuffy nose. He felt better after a nice long, warm bath.

On day 2 (Saturday), he still had a runny nose = discharging.

On day 3 (Sunday), he still wasn’t himself: runny nose, wheezy, needed his puffer a lot, complaining of stomach pains and nauseous from a drive in the car. Loss of appetite. Still seeing angels. DH was starting to get worried / anxious.

He had a night terror that evening.

On day 4 (Monday), he stayed home from school. Complaining of a sore throat, intermittent stomach pains and had a nasty cough. His surgeon said that his lungs sounded clear, however. His energy levels were good and he was in good spirits. It felt like he was on the mend. He only had one abscess left (left groin). The abscess on his left armpit disappeared. Great news!

On day 5 (Tuesday), we sent him to school in the morning, but I picked him up early from school because he had a headache and a stomach ache. Still felt like he was on the mend though…

By day 6, he was feeling better and back to school. So, it wasn’t a terrible healing reaction and the great news is he didn’t develop any new abscesses during this time!  On Friday, he came home from school saying that he had the best day ever. He was back to swimming lessons after a month break and he reported that he learned to dive and swam to the bottom of the deep end of the pool. This was a boy who just learned how to swim a couple of months ago!

On day 11, Moses had an allergic reaction (itchy eyes, runny nose) to touching a plant at school. And, later that day, he had a “tingly throat” reaction to a GFCF spaghetti and meat sauce that we made (this is his second time having a reaction to this dinner), and we eat this pretty regularly. What’s up with this increase in food sensitivities in the last few months?

Three weeks after starting the droppers, Moses came home from school early, complaining of stomach pains and general malaise. Hmmm… This is out of character for him, unless he’s actively clearing something.

Good news – his last remaining abscess disappeared on its own.

3.5 weeks after starting the droppers, he developed small styes on his eyelids. hmmm…  I think he’s ready for his next set of droppers…

Blessings

This was a very minor month for healing reactions for Moses. Other than the minor ailments mentioned above, he had a great month. He’s active, happy and healthy. And, he started hockey. We’re so proud of him! Woot woot!


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Clearing Lyme to 1M (my Heilkunst journey)

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in August/September 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

In August, I cleared Lyme to 1M (i.e., 12C, 30C, 200C and 1M wafers). This is the first time that I cleared Lyme, and I was a bit nervous about it, given the following description.

Just when you thought that it couldn’t get any worse than the Syphilis miasm, along comes Lyme Disease. The classic microbial form of Lyme is transmitted by the deer tick, and has been increasing in incidence in recent years. It is a parasite which wreaks havoc with the immune system, and is behind many “mystery” illnesses which have been very difficult for the medical system to logically and consistently identify and diagnose... Emotionally, the Lyme patient will tend to be highly irritable, with an attitude or behaviour which pushes other people as far away from themselves as possible. – Arcanum Wholistic Clinic

Droppers

On July 31, 2015, I started the following droppers:

1) Pulmo v. 30C – (Emotions – Stress with work/Anxiety)

2) Trad. 9C – (Physical – Allergies/Neck and shoulder pain/jaw clicking/plantar warts/sore throat/digestive support) – a drop a day

3) Ciner. 1M (Mental – life purpose) – a drop a day

4)  Diosc. 30C (Relationship support) – a drop a day plus put a drop in a glass of water to sip

New Supplements

For my neck and shoulder pain, I started EASE magnesium spray.

My update

Physically and emotionally

Five days after I started the droppers, I felt very depressed. Super sad. Very tired. I had a terrible sleep – mind racing. Worried about work. The next day, I was exhausted. Fortunately, it was a holiday, and I had a deep nap for three hours in the middle of the afternoon. So tired!!!!

The following week, I continued to be so tired.

On August 9, it appeared as though the digestive support dropper was helping!

On August 10, I started the lyme wafers and on August 11, I started the magnesium spray (applied to my jaw and my neck and shoulders) and started applying the MAF cream on my two plantars warts. By the next day, my chronic neck and shoulder tension were dramatically reduced, but my jaw tension was still present, and it felt like something shifted internally (feeling more optimistic and energy increasing).

I didn’t experience any noticeable healing reaction to the lyme wafers, at least not immediately. But at the end of August, I developed red, itchy hives on the backs of my knees and an itchy rash on my forehead, esp. the sides of my head (pimples in my early 40s). I asked my Heilkunstler and she thought that it was likely due to the lyme clearing (as opposed to the MAF cream that I had started using). On Sept 5, I started a new dropper for the hives (Sfo 9C – twice a day and a drop in my water). The new dropper didn’t have a noticeable effect.  As of today (September 17), I am still really, really itchy (but not all of the time – it comes on sporadically in waves).  These new rashes have given me an appreciation for what Moses goes through with all of his rashes. I’m sure my experience of being itchy is only a small fraction of what Moses experiences and it’s been driving me crazy. So intense!

On Sept 3, one of my remaining two plantar warts resolved. Yay! I’ve been putting the MAF cream on my warts because I’d read that it helped others with their warts. The cream itself helps with immune function.  On Sept 11, the last plantar wart resolved. I have had that one come and go for ~ 3 years, so I am very pleased!

So, this was a significant month for relief from some of my long-held physical symptoms (neck and shoulder tension, plantar warts). I still have a lot of jaw tension and I have a session with a physiotherapist booked. My friend also suggested that neurogenic yoga might help too, and I may explore this form of yoga, which helps the body to release trauma stored in the muscles. I’m intrigued….

I’ve been practicing more yoga lately, and been meditating more regularly. I’ve been feeling less anxious. More at peace.

Overall, there’s been a lot more ease in our home given that Moses has been doing so well, and DH’s mental and emotional state has shifted as well. We’ve all shifted together.

My life purpose

I’ve been continuing to explore my “dharma” / my life purpose and the following message is one that currently speaks to me (shared by someone on FB in response to another individual’s question about creating a spiritual business):

“What if your purpose isn’t related to creating a business? What if all the time, effort, money and energy you put into planning and thinking and vision-boarding, isn’t actually where you are supposed to be? Part of the problem is the linking of ‘sacred purpose’ with the idea of creating a business. Sometimes, perhaps even oftentimes, to fulfill your sacred purpose, is to put aside these desires to create a life-saving, world-changing business, and just work in your ordinary job, bringing your inner love for yourself and the world out from there. It’s not sexy or dramatic, but it is living the final stage in our growth cycle, of moving through humility and stepping into our greatness.”

Other messages that have been coming through for me include:

  • You are enough.
  • You are already living your life purpose.
  • Be at peace with where you are.
  • It’s time to have fun and enjoy yourself!

So be it, and so it is.

My boy and me

My boy and me


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September 2015 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in September 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On August 27, 2015, Moses started the following droppers.

1) Arum triphyllum 9C (Physical – skin rashes/abscesses/itchiness/Immune boost/Thrush/Lungs/Asthma/Allergies) – a drop a day and can also spray on his skin when itchy

2) Eryngium maritimum 200C – (Emotional – pessimism/shyness) – a drop a day

3) Menyanthes 10M – (Mentals – Focus/Sleep/Energy and Stress Levels/Night Terrors) – a drop a day

New Supplements

  • Sublingual vitamin B – I’ve been putting a couple of drops in his smoothies. It’s not even close to a full dose, but it doesn’t taste very good and I figure that it’s better than nothing.
  • Ease magnesium spray – been giving him a couple of sprays at night, when I remember.
  • MAF cream – gave him a break this month since he had such a big reaction to it last month.

On the first night that he started his new droppers, he seemed extra emotional. The day after he started the droppers, he had a night terror (which was the night before the full moon). Two days after starting the droppers, he developed a large abscess under his left armpit. (This is in addition to the two abscesses he already had under his right armpit and right groin). Four days after starting the droppers, he was complaining of pain with the abscess on his right groin and stayed home from daycamp. On Sept 2th, he developed a 4th abscess on his left groin. And on Sept 3rd, he developed an abscess on his left eyelid. Oh boy.

On Sept 6, he had a night terror (on the same night that he had a karmic healing session, so it might have been related to a “discharge of energy” related to the session). He came out if it really quickly though – it wasn’t as deep as they have been in the past.

By September 16, two abscesses resolved themselves (disappeared). Yippee!  He still has one on his left armpit and one his left groin.

An easy-peasy sort of month from a healing reaction perspective.

Gifts

I was reflecting this morning how Moses is truly a vision of health. He is happy, healthy, grounded, confident, and has a great sense of humour. It is truly amazing to witness how far he has come in his healing journey.

I know that Moses has come a long way because my husband is now starting to see Moses as the strong and healthy boy that he is. For example, this past spring, Moses voiced the fact that he wanted to play hockey and DH was dead-set against it. Now, it’s 6 months later and we have officially registered Moses in hockey. Moses is absolutely delighted and DH is so proud of his son. We both are.

We bumped into one of Moses’ former doctors in the grocery store and she was delighted and also amazed by how well Moses has been doing.  More cosmic winks that we are on the right track and how well he is doing. Even his karmic healer mentioned how well Moses is doing from an energetic standpoint, and how far he has come. He’s been learning and practicing techniques to ground his energy and it’s been making a difference.

When I talked to our Heilkunstler today, she was also thrilled by all of the improvements that Moses has shown physically and emotionally since she started treating him in April.

  • Fewer abscesses and they are just about all resolving on their own;
  • Fewer rashes;
  • Decreased itching;
  • Ear fissures are healing / have healed;
  • Dryness / rash on scalp has improved;
  • Cracked corners of his lips are healing;
  • Asthma is under control; no coughing; lung capacity is good;
  • Fewer occurrences of itchy throat;
  • Night terrors aren’t as deep / don’t last as long;
  • Sleeping well;
  • Energy levels are good;
  • More independence;
  • More motivated and more focused (e.g., actually getting to school early); and
  • Increased optimism (i.e., decreased pessimism).
  • He can now skip every second bar on the monkey bars!
  • For the first time, he is enjoying school. I think it helps that he has several good friends in his class, and he is so much more sociable and confident.
  • He is now walking home from school on his own!
  • He’s been motivated to complete his homework independently.
  • He is happy.

Wow, wow, and wow!

We’re so proud of him!

I have a feeling he’s going to have a great school year!

First day of Grade 4

First day of Grade 4!


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August 2015 Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in August 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On July 31, 2015, Moses started the following droppers.

1) Kamala 12C (Physical – eczema/abscesses/itchiness/stomach aches/asthma/cradle cap/lungs/food allergies/rashes/thrush in mouth/immune boost) – a drop a day plus spray on body if itchy or where there is eczema, rashes, abscesses as required.

2) Cainca 200C – (Emotions – pessimism/stress/anxiety) – a drop a day

3) Piscidia 1M – (Mentals – Focus/energy level/Night terrors) – a drop a day

Recommended supplements:

On the day after he started the droppers, he had diarrhea for no particular reason (i.e., he didn’t eat anything new), so I think it was a healing reaction to the new droppers. It was just the one time and then things cleared up.

Four days after he started the droppers, the swollen lymph node on the right side of his neck was decreased in size by a half (25% of the original volume), but he had developed a new abscess on his left armpit (but it was already coming to a head and his surgeon thought that it was going to resolve on its own). Later that night, he had a night terror and threw up in the middle of the night.

The next day, he developed a new abscess on the right side of his lower jaw, which was sore to touch. Oh boy. Both of these new abscesses showed up a day after I spent time with a spiritual friend. The abscess on his jaw turned out to be a dental abscess and he had yet another (baby) teeth pulled. His fifth baby tooth to be pulled since April. Goodness.

On August 10, the abscess under his left armpit burst on its own. Yay.

On August 11, I started him on a tiniest little bit of VDBP-MAF cream.  The next day, he woke up with an increase in rashes (a bunch of tiny little rashes appeared on his back and torso – yikes), stomach pains and general malaise. He came home from day camp early because he wasn’t feeling well (but perked up quickly in the afternoon). A week later, he still had an increase in rashes (back, face), likely from the MAF cream dose on August 11. (I haven’t applied any more since then).

On August 21, Moses developed two abscesses: one on his right armpit and one on his right groin. Today, it’s August 24 (two weeks after the one dose of the MAF cream) and he is still experiencing an increase of rashes (back, chest,  stomach, arm creases, armpits, back of knees, groin, back of neck). Also, he’s been needing his Ventolin puffer a lot more in the last couple of weeks. Oh boy!  He’s experiencing what’s referred to as a “return of old symptoms”.  Hopefully the return of old symptoms is a sign of some deep healing. I’m sure it is.

Gifts:

  • Other than the abscesses and rashes, Moses is physically, emotionally and socially healthy and well.
  • Moses learned to swim this month! It was amazing to watch his progress. One week, he needed a life jacket to swim in the deep end of the pool. By the next week, he was in the deep end without a life jacket. Now, he can jump into the deep end, do “pencil dives”, tread water and swim across a half width of the pool and back! Wow!
  • I forgot to mention this from last month, but he is now able to swing backwards on the monkey bars!
  • He’s  coming out of his shell socially. We were at a bonfire on Sunday and Moses shared a couple of stories and jokes in a group of adults. It is so heart-warming to witness him coming into his own.


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Clearing Syphilinum to 10M (my journey)

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in June/July 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

This month, I cleared Syphilinum to 10M. Syphilinum is a pretty nasty miasm. You can read about syphilinum here.

“Destruction, decay, and processes of things breaking down or falling apart all describe the essential characteristics of this miasm at all levels (physical, mental, emotional). Physical conditions including any form of auto-immune disorder, as well as psychological conditions of depression, despair, even to the point of suicide fill out some of the details. The emotional acts of blaming and criticizing are further indicators of this energy. A feeling that life is meaningless, and that “there is no point” form part of the more extreme version of this mental and emotional state. The expression “Life’s a bitch, and then you die” portrays the sentiment of this feeling.” – Arcanum Wholistic Clinic

This was the first time that I cleared Syphilinum, and Moses has only cleared Syphilinum to 200C (it was a doozy for him and we took a 2 year break from Heilkunst after clearing this chronic miasm). Since our relationship is in resonance with each other, I felt that clearing Syphilinum may help us both. I know that Syphilinum is a big one in Moses (potentially one of the major roots of Moses’ dis-ease, from a Heilkunst perspective). I’m glad that our new practitioner is giving Moses a break on clearing with powders because we both feel that clearing powders can be destabilizing for his sensitive system. Heck – even clearing with droppers alone can be destabilizing for his sensitive system.

Droppers

For my info and in case you are curious, I started the following droppers on June 13, 2015.

Homeopathic Droppers:

1) Constitution – Sil. 200C/Sep. LM5/Drainage combo/Diosc. 30C – a drop a day (also addresses jaw clicking)

2) Neck and shoulder pain – Lapath. 30C/Piperaz. 9C – a drop 2X a day

3) Plantar’s Warts – Bad. 12C – a drop a day

4) Stress/Anxiety – Nat. lact. 30C – a drop a day

5) Life purpose – Seneg. 9C – a drop a day

6) Connectedness with Moses – Vib. p. 1M – a drop a day

7) To support digestion – Lin. cath. 12C – a drop a day

My month

Immediately after starting the droppers, my body felt so incredibly sore. More sore than normal – neck and shoulder pain, pain along my arms, pain along my spine. My hay fever has also been really bad – worst than it’s been in a long, long time.

It took awhile for my wafers to get to me through regular post, so I started the Syphilinum wafers on June 26 (~2 weeks after starting the droppers). No noticeable difference immediately, but a few days after I started taking the wafers, I noticed that I was more irritable than normal, angry, worried, mind racing, feeling unfocused and ungrounded. I was also extra busy at work and Moses was going through his own healing reaction, so hard to say what caused what. But perhaps my emotional response was a healing reaction to Syphilinum.  A weird discolouration appeared near my inner wrist (approx. 1 cm x 0.5 cm) – it looked like an old burn / scar. Weird.

On Canada Day, I had the best day (after a stressful morning) at the beach and felt very present and content.

On July 17, approximately 3 weeks after starting the Syphilinum clearing, I had a rash (small red very itchy spots – they looked like fly bites) develop on my torso, back and  arms. ~ 20 spots in all. So itchy!!!!  I’ve never had a rash like this develop before. Yikes! I checked in with my Heilkuntler and she thought that the rash was likely a response to clearing Syphilinum. Four days later, the rash was still present, but the itch subsided.

Today is July 29th and tomorrow night I have a session booked with my Heilkunstler. I still have scars from all of the rashes that developed during this month, but they are no longer itchy. It’s been ~7 weeks since my last session, which is a long length of time between sessions, but I’ve been trying to time my sessions to coincide with every two of Moses’ sessions and I’ve also been trying to extend the time between sessions to save some money.

Emotionally, it’s been a challenging couple of months overall. The summer months are typically my busiest months of the year work-wise and on top of my normal busyness, I was working on a scientific paper during my “spare time”. This meant that my life went completely out of balance – working until midnight some nights and working on the weekend. Thankfully, that paper is just about done. There has been some uncertainty at my place of employment (including layoffs), which has been causing some anxiety and also some soul-searching about what it is that I want to do with my life. I’ve been taking a homeopathic dropper to help with this theme (Seneg. 9C to help connect me with my life purpose).

The last couple of weeks have been challenging for other reasons and I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting and soul-searching. I’ve been starting to revisit Lissa Rankin’s Mind over Medicine questions, which have been giving me a lot of things to ponder. I just finished David Whyte’s Crossing the Unknown Sea: Work as a Pilgrimage of Identity, and also just started Stephen Cope’s The Great Work of your Life.

What is my dharma? What is my life’s purpose?

For  the last 9 years, my dharma has been to facilitate Moses’ (and my own) healing. And with the grace of God, I can see that we are on the right path given that our lives are less and less about struggle and suffering. Thank goodness! Amazing!!!  I’m so thankful to Heilkunst for that.  So, now I have some energy to think about: what’s next?

I’m a technical writer / biologist / environmental consultant during the day. That work fulfills me on many levels: intellectually; financially; and helps me to balance my home life because my work is ultra flexible and I work from home. I also spend most of my day writing, which I love to do. And, yet the work doesn’t fill my soul.  And it’s also very uncertain work at the moment.

I used to think that my dharma was to be a healer. Once upon a time, I was a yoga instructor, but I’m currently on an extended sabbatical. I used to hold space for energy healing, which I stopped after I noticed a pattern.

I love Heilkunst, but I don’t feel drawn to becoming a Heilkunstler.

So now what?

Well, it’s still a mystery and an unknown. In the meantime, I’m trying to feed myself with meditation, yoga (just got back on my mat today after an extended period away), writing / journaling and nature. Keeping things simple.

I trust that all is coming.

Bonavista

Cape Bonavista – a historic town where Giovanni Caboto (John Cabot) first discovered North America in 1497.


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June 2015 Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in June 2015. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

Moses started the following homeopathic remedies on June 13, 2015.

1) Constitution – Lyc. 12C – a drop a day;

2) Skin – Eczema/Dry, flaking scalp/Ear fissures – Ephedra 9C/Lipps. 30C – 2 X a day + spray;

3) Itchiness  – Apium g. 12C – a drop a day plus spray up to 3 X a day;

4) Abscesses – Barosma 30C – a drop a day;

5) Abscesses on eyelids – Cad. bro. 12C – Note: This is the same remedy as last month

6) Acute – Asthma – Calad. 12C – as needed

7) Food Allergies/Eye Ulcer/Prone to pneumonia/Thrush – Nat. carb. 30C/Rh. fr. 12C/Vib. t. 30C/Naph. 30C – a drop a day

8) Immune Support – Digitox 30C/Jatr. 30C – a drop a day

9) Stress – Chloral. 30C – a drop a day

10) Acute – Night Terrors – Aurant. 200C – as needed

Supplements

She recommended two new supplements:

  • Amaranth Oil made by Activation Products; and
  • Oceans Alive 2.0 from Activation Products (Moses hasn’t started Oceans Alive yet, but I love it).

Two days after starting the new droppers, Moses said that his abscesses were going down in size. Whew! Three days after starting the new droppers, the one on his left armpit started draining, but not completely. The one on his neck was starting to get a bit smaller, although it was still a good size. The ones on a sensitive area was still there. Plus, he has small bump on his right eyebrow and one on one of his ears.

Four days after starting the new droppers, Moses had nine abscesses in total:

  • Under both armpits;
  • On a sensitive area;
  • right eyebrow;
  • left eyelid (small);
  • left ear;
  • back of head (small, hard, sore to touch);
  • dental abscess on the right side, upper jaw; and
  • a swollen lymph node on on the side of his neck.

Coincidentally, on the same day that Moses started the new droppers, I also spent time with some healers (and Moses and I have a pattern that after I spend time with healers, Moses develops an increase in symptoms). So I’m not sure if the increase in abscesses was a healing reaction to the new remedies or related to our old pattern or a combination of both. In any case, it was a doozy of a reaction.

He also had a runny nose. He started a new dropper for the abscesses: Stram 30C.

Five days after starting the new droppers, Moses stayed home from school because his abscesses were generally sore. Also, he complained of stomach pains for most of the day. In the evening, he complained that his throat was tingly after eating a snack that he always has (apples with peanut butter) and needed Benadryl. He later tried to make himself throw up. And then he had a night terror (his first one in ~3 months), on the day after the new moon.

A couple of days later, on June 19th, he wasn’t feeling well during a field trip and I picked him up early. His surgeon drained his ear abscess.  In the evening, he couldn’t eat because his mouth was sore because of a new space maintainer. He was very emotional, teary and very tired.  He started an additional dropper to prevent diarrhea because he started Clindamycin to treat his dental abscess. We were worried about Moses dental abscess – it was so large that it pushed his nose out of place. It looked so sore. Later that night, he had a huuuuuuuge violent night terror.

By the next morning, Moses’ dental abscess wasn’t as swollen.  Thank God!  And his frame of mind was much better. He felt good enough to do a walk / hike through the woods with me and one of his friends.  It felt like the worst was behind us. Also, the dropper to prevent diarrhea did the trick because he no longer had diarrhea.  Yay, yay, yay!!!!!!!!!!

The very next day, there was no trace of the dental abscess at all! Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!  He felt so good and energized that we did the Signal Hill hike again and he did it with a lot of energy!!  He ran up the last set of stairs, and as I’ve mentioned before, it’s a 500 ft climb to the top! It felt like the “gift” of this set of powders. It was so amazing to see how strong his vitality and life force is.

By June 23rd, he was down to two abscesses (left armpit and a small bump on his right knee started to develop). All of the other abscesses disappeared. Was it the homeopathic remedies or the Clindamycin that we started for the dental abscess?????  Or both? Whatever it was, it was highly effective.

June 25, 2015

Today was a big day – it was his last day of Grade 3. He only spent an hour at school because he had to fast and then had 2 baby teeth pulled at the dentist. It was an emotional day for Moses because he missed out on some plans to spend with some friends after school. He also started Activation Amaranth oil (1 drop) with no problem.

June 26, 2015

Moses had an allergic reaction to food that he’s eaten many times before (swollen lips), which subsided after Benadryl and rinsing his mouth with water several times. This is his 5th allergic reaction that he’s had in the last two months.   His sensitivities / allergies seemed to have heightened in the last two months. I pray that this is a healing reaction that will ultimately result in the underlying healing of his allergies. Only time will tell.

Later that night, he was up until 1:30 am because of pain due to a new abscess on a sensitive location and a painful bump on his right knee. Oh boy!

He also had a huge abscess under his left armpit and the swollen lymph node on the right side of his neck is back.

It felt like another round of healing reactions – perhaps to the Stram 30C dropper???  Or maybe this was the fuller healing reaction that typically comes ~ 2 weeks after starting a set of remedies.

June 27, 2015

Today was the third day of amaranth oil and I was optimistic, so I gave Moses 3 drops. It might have been too much. He wasn’t feeling well shortly after taking it. He felt light-headed. Wanted to lie down. Tried to make himself throw up. He was supposed to go to the movies and instead, he stayed home. He also has an increase in wheeziness and coughing. Oh boy!  I planned to give him a few days break and then will go back to one drop per day.

Also, the abscess on his behind was killing him.

He had a huge night terror (his third one of the month) and the abscess under his left armpit drained immediately after the night terror.

I hoped that today was the “peak” of this healing reaction and tomorrow would be a better day.

July 1, 2015

On Canada Day, Moses required general anaesthesia to drain an abscess on his behind, and on his right knee. The abscess on his behind has been so sore that he had been sleeping on a bean bag for five days, and having terrible sleeps because he couldn’t sleep on his back (sore behind) or is front (sore knee). He was up until midnight / 1 am most nights. Thank God those abscesses are resolved! He still has a swollen lymph on the right side of his neck.

He was a real trooper and the rest of the day turned out beautiful. We spent the rest of the day at the beach with some friends, at a backyard party and enjoyed the fireworks. Loved it!

Unwinding at the beach on Canada Day

Unwinding at the beach on Canada Day

July 2, 2015

It’s the day after his surgery and Moses has three new abscesses: one under both armpits (the one under the right is sore to touch) and a small bump starting on his right eyelid. Oh boy.

July 3, 2015

He had another “itchy throat” incident involving peppermint tea and honey. He is still currently so sensitive. This is his 6th incident in the last couple of months. So many things make his throat / tongue / lips itchy. On the good side of things, the abscesses that were drained a couple of days ago are healing really well. Yay!

July 10, 2015

Well, good news – one of the abscesses under his armpit went away, but now, he has 2 under his right armpit, still has a small bump on his right eyelid and a small one on a sensitive area. He also has a huge swollen lymph node on the right side of his neck that his pediatrician wants to get an ultrasound on. Oh boy.

Later that evening, Moses had his 4th night terror of the month. Goodness. Let’s hope that next month will be an easier one. He started his next round of remedies this morning (July 11), so I’ll keep you posted as always.

I also have a session booked with his karmic healer, but she is so busy that the session is booked for early September.

Gifts

As you know, there are always gifts associated with the Heilkunst journey. Even with his increase in symptoms this month, overall, Moses is doing well. He’s doing great emotionally and socially. He is having a great time at summer camp and has made some new friends. He is at a playdate with one of his new friends right now! We’re so proud of him!

He had a great year at school.

His lungs are healing and clearing.

He is so resilient. It is amazing to witness his vitality. For example, within hours of coming out of general anaesthesia, he was running around at the beach, climbing rocks (really not recommended after general anaesthesia), but overall had such energy and such vitality. It’s truly amazing to witness.

When we went for a hike at Signal Hill with some friends earlier this month, Moses was jumping up and off rocks and literally ran up the steps at the last bit of the 500 ft climb up the hill. The hill leaves me winded, but not Moses.  It is truly amazing to witness his strength, vitality and overall health.


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Breathing easier

Some great news that we received this week is that Moses’ lungs are healing, clearing and he’s breathing easier.

In October 2014, Moses had a pulmonary function test (PFT) and his FEV1/FVC test result was 68%. His pediatrician said that a score in the high 70s would be considered ideal. Find out more about PFT results here.

This week, Moses tested at 74%. Yay!!! This is tangible evidence that Moses’ lung function is healing. 74% is in mild (abnormal) range; whereas 68% is in the moderate (abnormal) range. So thankful!

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The full story. Back in October, his pediatrician was concerned about his PFT results that she wanted to change his medication (ugh)!  But before changing his medication, she wanted us to maximize his current medication (he takes Alvesco, a preventative puffer). She wanted him to take 2 puffs of Alvesco twice a day, but truthfully, Moses is only taking 2 puffs once a day (our family tries to minimize medications).

For the most part, Moses’ breathing is manageable and he generally doesn’t need his emergency puffer (Ventolin) except when he’s at school.  (His symptoms increase when he’s anxious. I think he’s generally anxious at school and needs his puffer at school, but when he’s at home, he doesn’t need it). He’s been doing a phenomenal job of hiking, running and climbing, so I think overall, his lungs are fine.

But, there seems to be a Murphy’s Law thing happening because whenever Moses had a follow-up PFT scheduled, his asthma symptoms would increase, he would start wheezing and develop a cough. Every single time. This happened 5 times. So, we just kept postponing his PFT because we didn’t want him tested when he was having difficulty breathing.

Of course, Murphy’s Law was in place his month. Moses’ breathing was fine for weeks, and then sure enough, a week before his PFT was scheduled, he started developing a cough and a wheeze. Oh boy! Since it had been 9 months since his last PFT and since we had cancelled so many appointments, we decided not to cancel this time around.

I had trouble sleeping the night before the appointment because I thought that his pediatrician was surely going to suggest changing his medication to something stronger.

And, then the results of the PFT surprised us all. Even with a cough and an increase in symptoms, Moses’ baseline breathing is better than it was 9 months ago. Wow, wow, wow. This means that his baseline is probably better than 74!!!!

I’m so happy about this. It’s again more tangible evidence of the real and true healing that is occurring (and of course, I attribute that to Heilkunst).  Also of note, is the fact that it was in October that we re-started Heilkunst treatment after a two year break.

Updates

January 20, 2015 – Moses’ asthma has been up recently. He had a PFT test today, and was not able to make it through the day before his PFT test without medication (he needed Ventolin twice and Benadryl once). As a result, his score was a 78% (whereas, last time, it was 75%), but that was 30 minutes after having Ventolin. (After 2 puffs of Ventolin during the PFT, his lung function increased to 83%, so he continues to be very responsive to Ventolin).

For future reference, his FEV1 score was 101% last time and was 96% this time.

His FVC score was 108% this time.

Overall, his scores were good because of the recent use of the Ventolin, so it’s hard to say what his baseline is.

His pediatrician thought that perhaps Moses had a cold or something, which was affecting his breathing. She wasn’t overly concerned. She recommended that he take 2 puffs of Ventolin in the morning and night until his asthma was back under control.