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Late March – my Heilkunst update

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from mid-Feb to late March 2017 (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On February 18, 2017, I started the following droppers:

1) Paraf. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Allergies/Itchiness/Rashes/Neck and shoulder pain/TMJ) – a drop a day

2) Slag. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety/Fears/Loss/Regrets) – a drop a day

3) Verbena h. 1M – (Mentals – Socialization/Career/Worries about AJ and upcoming procedure) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety – Eupat. perf. 30C – as needed.

Timeline Wafers:

Carya 9C/12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – to help clear the physical effects of a recent procedure.

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It’s now 3 days after I started my new droppers and I’m feeling sad about my upcoming procedure. I was actually feeling strong  and empowered over the weekend, but now, I’m not. Allowing the emotions to flow and be what they are. I’m also worried about AJ because he has 3 abscesses, including one under his eye, which looks sore and we haven’t been able to firm a surgery appt yet. And, I’m busy at work, working in the evening tomorrow night and 13 hours on Thursday and then I have a minor procedure scheduled on Friday. Eep. I need to remember to breathe.

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I had a minor surgical procedure on Friday, Feb 24th. I took one timeline wafer the evening before the procedure (Arnica 30C).  It was an emotional day. I’m currently taking timeline wafers (Carya 9C/12C/30C/200C/1M/10M) to help clear the physical effects of the procedure and all of the drugs that I took during the procedure [Naproxen for pain; Azithomycin (antibiotic), fentanyl and midazolam for sedation, and xylocaine]. For someone who basically never takes pharmaceutical medications, this was a lot for my system. I was tired and nauseous and weepy after my procedure.

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March 1, 2017 was an intense day for me. I left the house at 5:30 am for an out of town meeting at 8:00 am. Returned back to the city and spent a couple of hours with AJ, who was at the Children’s hospital, recovering post-surgery from an incision and drainage of 2 abscesses and receiving an IVIG infusion (you can read more about that here). And then I left the city at 4:00 pm to make yet another out of town meeting at 6:00 pm and made it back home at 10:30 pm. Full on day. I took my last wafer clearing my own surgical procedure from the last week.

Nonetheless, my state of mind was good. I was feeling exhausted, but still fed by my work. And I was feeling happy because AJ tolerated the procedures well and he wasn’t traumatized by the whole experience. It felt like something major had shifted in the family. And, DH was renovating our living room, tearing up the carpets to put down laminate. At first, I was  upset that DH had started a renovation this week since it felt like the very last thing that our family needed during this time of upheaval and stress was to start a home renovation, but the new flooring looks amazing!!! It felt like the change in the living room matched the internal changes that were happening in our lives.
I had a karmic healing on March 6th, which I found to be healing, reassuring and confirming.
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March 11th was a Saturday and it felt like a rest day. Possibly our first real day of rest in 6 months since our move to Calgary in Sept 2016. It has been a crazy 6 months of transitions. Two moves. New jobs for DH and me, and a complete change of field for me. Two new schools for AJ. New physicians for AJ. New treatments. New medications. So, so, so many hospital visits. So much joy and change and also so much heartache and tears. Life certainly is brutiful (beautiful and brutal).

I had a good week at work. No out of town travel, only one early morning  and no evening sessions. I was able to start getting caught up on office work, which felt good. It felt like AJ’s health was stabilizing for the first time in 6 months. It felt like perhaps the worst was over. I was breathing in and breathing out. I had plans to see some nurturing friends.

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On March 15th, I started timeline wafers (Grat. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M) to help clear the emotions related to my surgical procedure on Feb 24th. In the days that followed, I felt tired, had a runny nose and wasn’t quite feeling myself emotionally (angry and short-tempered), which I think were related to a healing reaction to these wafers.
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As I mentioned above, life is starting to stabilize for us. Typically, AJ requires surgical drainage every 3-4 weeks. Today (March 29th) is 4 weeks from his last drainage and he is currently abscess-free. Yay! It feels like his current treatment is working (monthly IVIG, new antibiotic) and of course, Heilkunst is healing him on a deep level.

I have also had a rest period at work since we haven’t had any out-of-town, early morning or evening sessions scheduled in the last two weeks, so I’ve been able to breathe and get caught up. I’ve been having energy to move, practice yoga and go for walks in the evening. I have had time to start reading again. My sacral chakra has been awakening as well. It feels like I have had time to feed myself physically and emotionally and start enjoying life!

I am quite delighted by how things have been going. May this be just the beginning.


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March 2017 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of AJ’s Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late February to mid-March 2017 over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On February 18, 2017, AJ started the following droppers:

1) Jun. c. 12C – (Physical – Abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Cracked lips-Thrush/Food allergies/Asthma/Right ear wax/Brain fog/Spaciness/Bloody snot/Itching) – a drop a day

2) Eric. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Worries/Overly emotional at hospital/Fears) – a drop a day

3) Digitox. 1M – (Mentals – Time management/Academics/Frustration tolerance/Self-advocacy/Babyishness/Night terrors/Accident prone/Friendships) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety – Guarea 200C – as needed – can also put a drop into his water bottle to sip throughout the day.

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He already had 3 abscesses when he started these droppers (under his right eye, left armpit and another location), but he was doing well emotionally and was in a creative mood. On Saturday, we created a hand puppet out of socks and he had a lot of “hang out time” with friends. On Sunday, he attended a drop-in painting class with a couple of his friends and painted this amazing picture.

hummingbird

He has been drawing and colouring and painting and creating like crazy lately. He told me that it’s been a hard couple of months and that painting helps him. He also told me that painting gives him somewhere to put the pain of missing NL.

On Monday (Family Day), we went for a 3 km hike in the mountains. Heart Creek. The last time we hiked Heart Creek, AJ was only 4 months old.

On Friday, Feb 24th, AJ had an upset stomach and diarrhea, but he woke up on Saturday feeling good enough to play his last game of the season of Grassroots (outdoor) hockey. Later that same day, he wasn’t feeling himself in the afternoon, but he perked up later that evening. On Sunday, he had an allergic reaction (swollen throat) to  a Jugo Juice smoothie (we assume that it was likely cross-contaminated with milk), but the swelling went down with Benadryl.

On Feb 27, AJ started a prophylactic dose of Septra daily, which will hopefully help to decrease the frequency of abscesses.

Abscess drainage and 5th IVIG infusion

On the evening of  Feb 28th, AJ re-started the 24/7 CoRe treatment for a period of 3 days to help support his system since on March 1, he was scheduled to have general anaesthesia to drain an abscess under his left armpit and one in another place. Thankfully, the abscess under his right eye resolved on its own. Typically, AJ comes out of general anesthesia in an emergence delirium and screams and cries and kicks for at least an hour. This time, he woke up from the anaesthesia gently, like he was waking up from a nap. This is amazing progress! Perhaps due to the 24/7 CoRe treatment, in combination with the cumulative Heilkunst treatment that AJ and I are undergoing? He also had his 5th IVIG infusion that day  (since he already had an IV inserted while under general anaesthesia), and he didn’t need additional sedation in order to receive the infusion. (Last time, 3 nurses had to hold him down while another nurse gave him Madazolam orally to sedate him enough for them to give him the IVIG infusion, even though the IV had already been inserted while he was under general anesthesia). More amazing progress!  The infusion was given over a 3 hour period, and AJ didn’t have any negative reactions to the infusion.

He stayed home from school the next day (March 2nd) to rest, and it was a rough day for him emotionally. Sad. Angry. Missing NL like crazy. Felt like life is unfair and how he hates his life. Traumatized about the penrose drains that were left in his abscesses. One just fell out on its own, but the other one required a slight tug to remove and he completely lost it because he thought it would hurt (because he’s had bad experiences with wicks being difficult and painful to remove), and was very angry.

On March 2nd, I checked with his Heilkunstler and she said that AJ was ready for new droppers:

  1. Physical – Chi. mur. 30C
  2. Emotional – Hoang-nan 200C
  3. Mental – Lacerta 1M
  4. Anxiety – M. p. amb. 1M

By March 4th, AJ was back to himself and scored about 7 goals at his hockey game. He’s resilient, he is.

By March 8th, he had another abscess develop on his left armpit. Oh boy. This was depressing given that he had recently started taking a daily prophylactic dose of Septra, which was supposed to help decrease the frequency of abscesses. On the good side, the abscess was still small and perhaps it would eventually just resolve on its own. I hoped so.

A major improvement that I’ve noticed is that AJ hasn’t had a night terror since Feb 2nd. That’s five whole weeks. He’s still having nightmares, but not night terrors. This is a huge improvement given that all of the general anaesthesia tends to lead to more night terrors.

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All in all, there were some major improvements this month (despite the fact that AJ still needed abscesses surgically drained). I feel that this is a good sign and hope that the  improvements continue. It feels like things are turning a corner for the first time in 6 months since we moved to Calgary. I was feeling optimistic.


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February 2017 – my Heilkunst update

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from early January to mid-Feb (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On January 7, 2017, I started the following droppers:

1) Illic. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Skin/Sleep/TMJ/Foot calluses/Hay fever/Allergies/Peri-menopause/Neck and shoulder pain) – a drop a day

2) Hedysar. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress re: AJ and new job) – a drop a day

3) Form. 1M – Mentals – Life purpose/Self-confidence/Self-esteem/Socialization/Adjustment to life in Calgary) – a drop a day

4) Acute – Peri-menopausal symptoms – Chlorum 12C – as needed

5) Acute – anxiety over new job, transitions, and AJ’s condition – Azad. 30C

New Timeline Wafer:

Imper. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M –  Trauma AJ’s birth

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When I started my new droppers, I was still clearing my friend’s death in June 2006 (I had taken my last timeline wafer on the day before I started my new droppers). I was doing okay emotionally, but was still eating a lot of comfort food. We were just getting back into our new back to school and work routine and I was in the middle of “birthing” an educational program for physicians and nurses.

A couple of days later, on Jan 9th, I had cold symptoms (sore throat, achy, chilled, headache, low energy).  I very rarely get a cold, so I figured this was likely related to my timeline clearing. Oddly enough, DH also had a cold at the same time, but thankfully (and remarkably), AJ didn’t. Woot woot!!!

It was very hard for me to continue to work with my cold, but I felt like I had to because I was in the middle of birthing an educational program and there were a lot of pieces that were coming together. I was pleased with how things were unfolding, but it wasn’t easy given that I wasn’t feeling my best.

By Jan 14th, I was feeling better and was feeling happy about the success of the birth of our new educational program. I was busy, busy, busy with work, including working late hours, but I was fed to my core because I love, love, love what I’m doing and the educational program that we are creating. It feels like important, soulful and meaningful work. It felt like the worst of my healing reaction to my last wafers was behind me and I was feeling less stressed about things in general. Happy because AJ was doing so well with his transition to his new school and was healthy and well.

And then everything really all fell apart during a period between Jan 17th to 19th when AJ had to get to the ER (again) for more anaesthesia to drain a huge abscess on his face that was causing facial cellulitis, had a baby tooth removed, started IV antibiotics and then needed his monthly IVIG treatment (you can read all about that here). During same week, I was birthing my educational program and it was a very, very busy time at my work. I was burning the candle at both ends, working while at the hospital with AJ, and then working travelling across town during the evening to help deliver educational sessions. I had been scheduled to work three evenings that week, but gave up one of my shifts because it was too much and I needed some time.

DH confided in me that for the first time, he regretted moving across the country, away from his family. He worried (well, we both did) that perhaps both of us can’t hold full time jobs, especially because his job isn’t flexible and he can’t very well do inspections of homes and businesses remotely / from home. Fortunately, I can do some of my work remotely, but really, I’m more productive in my office because all of my papers are in the office, and part of my job also  involves travelling out of town (quite a lot of travel, actually) and right now, I’ve started working some early mornings and some evenings. The truth is that many parents of immuno-compromised children often have one parent who doesn’t work because it’s really a full time job in itself to make it to all of the appointments and to provide all of the physical and emotional support that the child needs. It was easier with my last job because I worked exclusively from home, 300 m from AJ’s school and 15 minutes from the hospital and I also worked part-time hours, AND they also knew that my son had health concerns and when AJ was sick, they knew that he was my priority and would allow me the time and space to deal with AJ’s illnesses when they occurred. Fortunately, I am highly productive, effective and valuable as an employee so they allowed me the flexibility when I needed it.

My current work is also flexible and understanding, but with the travel that is required, I am a bit worried. I just hope that AJ’s health will stabilize by the time I am travelling out of town (which will start in April). May it be so because I love my job. It fulfills me at a deep, deep level, so I feel intuitively that it will all work out.

Clearing AJ’s birth

It’s now Sunday, January 29th, and AJ’s emotional and physical health has been stable for four days and we’re all so thankful and happy. We are getting back to “normal”. DH is mountain biking this morning, AJ will go skating with a friend this afternoon, and I will be painting tonight with a friend. Yay, yay, yay!

On January 27th, I started a new timeline clearing (Imper. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M), clearing AJ’s birth (again). A couple of months ago, I cleared the events of the 6 first days of AJ’s life when he spent time in NICU. A few years ago, I cleared his birth with a different Heilkunstler. (And AJ has cleared his own birth – the physical effects and emotional effects). Since we moved back to AJ’s birth city in September, I’ve been sequentially clearing events associated with different hospitals as we have returned to these hospitals and it has been re-triggering traumatic events for me (e.g., Children’s hospital clearing last month).

Starting next week, I’ll be birthing an educational program at the very hospital where AJ was born, so it’s timely that I’m clearing his birth. Given that AJ and I are so interconnected, any clearing that I do helps us both, and it’s particularly important given that AJ’s system is currently too sensitive for him to handle any of his own timeline clearings. (He has done his own timeline clearings in the past with different Heilkunstlers and they were very destabilizing for him, and he’s also done his own timeline clearings with our current Heilkunstler, but only when his system was strong enough to handle it).

I have no doubt that the recent clearings that I’ve done with respect to clearing traumas at these various hospitals has helped. For example, I can feel a difference when I am at the Children’s hospital with AJ. I am currently no longer burdened by the dozens of times that we have spent at the hospital. It feels like when I am with AJ at the hospital, I am only dealing with the emotions of the visit at hand, rather than cumulative emotions of all of the times that we have been there in the past. It has made it easier for me to be at peace and present with AJ, and kinder when I am dealing with physicians and nurses. I have been making peace with the past and with the present. A couple of weeks ago, I spent 4 days at the hospital with AJ and I managed to maintain my peace for the first three days, but lost it by the 4th day. I think this is progress.

A month ago, I was actually on the birthing unit at the hospital where AJ was born, and I noticed that I wasn’t triggered emotionally. It didn’t hurt my heart to be there. I feel that this is deep progress, and I do feel that we will get to the point where AJ is stabilized again and we won’t need to be visiting the hospital as frequently as we have been. This my prayer and hope, but I feel at the core of me that this time is near. Perhaps this time is already being birthed.

I’ve been doing some deep deep clearing of my own in recent months. At the end of November, I cleared what is probably my own biggest childhood trauma and it rocked me to my core. We had recently moved into a new home and AJ then had a difficult December and January, and I’ve been getting used to a new job in a new field of work (birthing an important educational program), so it’s been a huge time of change and transition for us all. I feel that we are just now in the first few days of a new time of our lives. I can feel it. I think all of the difficult times have paved the way for this time of new health and emotional freedom. I can feel it. I honour myself, my courage and my process. And, thank you, dear reader and friend, for being a silent witness to our journey. Thank you.

People have asked me whether I regret moving across the country given how destabilizing it has been for AJ. I don’t have any regrets. Even given how difficult it has been for him and for our whole family, I feel in my heart of hearts that it was the best move for our family. It’s been rough for sure, but I have no doubt that we will get through it. I feel that this city is vibrationally in sync with who I am, in a way that our last city wasn’t. I am in a job that feeds my soul. I’m 43 years old and I have never felt that way about a job. It’s worth it for me. DH wasn’t happy in our last city. He needs to be in a city that is sunny and where it’s easier to be physically active outside. He loves to mountain bike and now we live in the foothills of the mountains. We can see the mountains from our house. DH has the mountains and the sun tattoo’d on his back. We were meant to live here. AJ loves his new school and has been making some good friends. He is starting to show signs that he is thriving here. He is creating in a way that he has never created before (e.g., drawing, painting, creating “magical potions”). I hope and pray that these good days will continue. May it be so.

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I took my last timeline wafer related to AJ’s birthday on Jan 31st. Coincidentally, I was at AJ’s birth hospital on that very day. I had planned to scope out the rooms where we were going to be running  educational sessions starting on Feb 2nd. And the day turned out to be a complete and utter gong show. I left my laptop on the staff shuttle bus at 9:15 am, which threw my morning off as I tried to track it down. And, then I couldn’t even get into the rooms where we were going to be running our sessions because they were booked by other users (and even if I did get in the rooms, I didn’t have my laptop with me anyway, so it was kind of a moot point). Thankfully, I got my laptop back later that day, but I was on pins and needles for most of the day since it wasn’t turned in until the late afternoon. Thank goodness for honest staff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part of me wondered if the clearing of AJ’s birth had something to do with the fact that my day went completely sideways, especially since I happened to be at the very same hospital where AJ was born. I had trouble sleeping later that night. I suspected my difficult sleep had to do with this clearing. My itchiness and the rashes on my torso were up as well.

I had a better sleep the evening of Feb 1st in that I slept soundly, however, I had dreams of abscess drainages, surgeries and the dream sequence included both AJ’s birth and all of our recent hospital visits meshed altogether. I felt like it was a significant dream that things were being worked on within my psyche. I was also reminded in my dream how I didn’t allow myself to fully emotionally bond with AJ when he was first born because I had an underlying fear that he might die. (And as I write these words, I’m reminded that an astrologer read both of our astrological charts in May 2016 and he told me that I came into this lifetime with a karmic imprint related to fear that I would have a child who would die, and AJ came in with a karmic imprint of fear that he would die early in life).

That very next morning, on Feb 2nd, it was like a flip had switched and everything that had been going right was suddenly going wrong.  AJ was a dark cloud emotionally. Mad. Frustrated. Emotionally regressing at a dental appt. And he COULDN’T TAKE HIS ABSCESS ANYMORE. He wanted them to drain it right away, but the surgery was scheduled for 8 days away. I called his surgeon and there was a cancellation for the following Monday, so it was moved up to Feb 6th. Thank goodness because if they hadn’t been able to reschedule it, I had planned to bring him to the ER on Feb 3rd to get it drained. ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh. I am so sick of this vicious terrible cycle of abscesses and surgical drainage that we are on. I felt other emotions rising to the surface too. Feelings of guilt – that overwhelming guilt – why can’t I keep my son healthy and well? The guilt is a huge emotional burden that I carry. Although it was painful for these emotions to come to the surface, I was also relieved that they were showing up because I also felt like I was reaching another layer of my own healing (which in turn will help AJ). During the last few months when we get into these cycles of hospital visits and emotional stress, I’ve been seeing a vision that the unhealed aspects of my psyche do make things worst. I can see how AJ’s emotional stress “plugs right into” my emotional stress and we so easily get derailed emotionally when things start going sideways. I feel that once I heal some of the significant unprocessed traumas, it will help unravel the whole situation for both AJ and I.  I can feel that is true. And that’s the beauty and the power of Heilkunst – we are systematically annihilating the energy related to unprocessed traumas, so that we can eventually be free. It’s not a quick or easy journey, but it’s the only modality that I know that effectively processes at this deep level.

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It is now Feb 17th and my next Heilkunst appt is today. This last week has been rough. I received some news on Feb 14th that caused me to grieve deeply. I am still processing those emotions and will continue to process them. I will need some remedies to help with this deep grief.

I am also sad because AJ’s body continues to create new abscesses. He has three at the moment and it’s only been 11 days since his last surgical intervention to drain 2 abscesses. It’s always darkest before the dawn. I’m hoping that dawn will come soon.


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Late January 2017 – Heilkunst update

Note, Moses (which is not his real name anyway), doesn’t want me using that name in my blog  anymore. He wants me to use AJ. So going forward, AJ, it is.

This is a summary of AJ’s Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in January over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On January 7, 2017, AJ started the following droppers:

1) Sol. t. 30C – (Physical – Asthma/Skin rashes/Abscesses/Coughing/Ear fissures/Dry skin/Accident prone/Teeth/Right ear wax/brain fog/Spaciness/Penmanship/Bloody snot/Itchiness/Nose blowing) – a drop a day

2) Picro. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety re: new school and re: illness/Fears/Anger over move) – a drop a day

3) Lob. d. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Hallucinations/Frustration with homework/Babyishness/Time management/Peer socialization) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety – Idf. 30C – as needed or daily

Our Heilkunstler suggested that AJ’s body could take a break from the Amaranth oil that he had been taking for over a year, and so we stopped giving it to him.

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The evening before he started his new droppers (but after his Heilkunstler had chosen his remedies), he did some weird sleep-walking and he was upset, but it wasn’t as deep or as violent as his normal night terrors. He was officially abscess-free (given the recent abscess drainages under general anesthesia), but had 2 small hard bumps under his left armpit.

AJ had a good week following the start of his new droppers.

His teacher sent home this note: “AJ has been a great addition to our class community. He has been very respectful and uses his class time well. I think he has made a good connection with several students in class.” So heart-warming to hear!!!!! He has been coming home happy. He is settling into his new school just fine.  And, they are playing ball hockey in gym (his favourite sport), and he has been shooting several goals every time they play, which is so great for his confidence. I’m so happy and proud of my boy.

He’s been walking 1 km to his dayhome after school on his own. So independent. And in the cold!!!!  It’s been way colder than -20° C with the windchill. What a trooper. And, right now, both DH and I have had a cold (sore throat, aches and chills, and DH has had a runny nose), but AJ hasn’t caught it. Woot woot!

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AJ had a karmic healing session on the evening of Jan 13th. He’s had a great week at school, has been in good spirits, continuing to play ball hockey at school and shooting several goals every day. He also played hockey in an outdoor hockey league and scored 2 goals, had 2 assists and 3 saves. He was doing so well and was healthy and happy! I felt that all of the time on the 24/7 Core last month helped. It’s so great that he likes his school and has already made friends there. I felt that this new year has birthed a fresh life and start for the whole family.

And then everything fell apart shortly thereafter….

Facial/dental infection

On Jan 15th, a small bump appeared in AJ’s nose. By the next morning, the bump had moved under his nose and was painful. Eep – the start of a dental abscess?  We sent him to school with Tylenol and I had a long, long day at work. (I worked from 8 am to 10:30 pm because I was “birthing” an educational program and it was a big week for the program).

That same day (on Jan 16th, 9 days after starting new remedies), his Heilkunstler said that AJ was already proving his remedies, and switched his droppers to:

  1. Physical: Cen. c. 30C
  2. Emotional: Mag. m. 200C
  3. Mentals: Lamium 1M
  4. Anxiety: Chelone 12C

The next morning (Tuesday, Jan 17th), the bump was so big that it moved his nose up and out of place and he couldn’t drink water without it spilling out of his mouth. It was painful and sore. Since the bump was near his mouth, we figured that it was a dental abscess. I tried making an appointment with his  dentist, but they didn’t even return my call. I called another dentist in our community and I was relieved to hear that they would fit him in at noon. That dentist prescribed amoxicillin (which AJ didn’t wind up taking for reasons that are explained below) and referred AJ to a pediatric dentist because they didn’t have nitrous oxide and AJ needs nitrous oxide to deal with the pain of these procedures.

Fortunately, the pediatric dentist was able to fit AJ in for an appointment at 1:30 pm. AJ had a panaromic x-ray and they even took photos of his face (it was that disfigured that they needed photos). His pediatric dentist said that AJ had facial cellulitis, and needed IV antibiotics before he could get in his mouth to remove the offending tooth and advised us to go to the ER.

So we went to the ER at around 4 pm. By this time, AJ was so upset that none of the dentists were taking any action. We told the ER physician that AJ needed to get the abscess drained and that we couldn’t wait a couple of days for them to deal with the swelling. The ER physician called the on-call pediatric dentist and they agreed that they would use conscious sedation (nitrous oxide plus ketamine) so that the dentist could remove the offending tooth. The problem was that the pediatric dentist didn’t have the panoramic x-rays that were done earlier that day and the tooth that was closest to the swelling was an adult tooth and she didn’t want to remove it without knowing for certain that it was the cause of the infection. She made two small incisions in his mouth while he was under conscious sedation to remove some of the pus in the abscess and cultured it. And, they gave him a dose of IV antibiotics (vancomycin) and an oral antibiotic (metronidazole) after consulting with the infectious disease specialist since AJ’s bacterial infections are resistant to a lot of antibiotics, so he can only receive certain antibiotics. AJ came out of the sedation better than normal (not screaming), but he had a terrible headache. We were finally able to leave the hospital at 8 pm, with the IV still in his hand.

Thankfully, AJ had a good sleep.

We returned to the hospital on Wed, Jan 18 at 8 am. First, we saw his pediatric dentist and he had even more x-rays. Then we saw his infectious diseases specialist for his second dose of IV antibiotics. For some reason, the infusion hurt him (I think it was because they rushed the infusion because his pediatric dentist wanted him to return back to her office right away since she was fitting AJ into her full schedule). So, we returned to his pediatric dentist and she pulled a baby molar under nitrous oxide and local anaesthesia. If that wasn’t already enough, we then went to get his IVIG started (of course, Murphy’s law would have his monthly IVIG infusion scheduled on this crazy day). By this time, AJ was an absolute mess emotionally (understandably so). It hurt when they flushed his IV, which meant that they needed to start another IV. AJ was so upset and in tears, so they let us postpone his IVIG for a couple of days and sent him home (still with an IV in his hand, in case it was salvagable).  I was with AJ all day, and later that evening, I drove an hour across the city to another hospital so that I could help deliver an educational program related to my work. I was burning a candle at both ends for sure. Later that evening, AJ threw up everything in his stomach, including blood that he had swallowed during the incision and drainage that had occurred the evening before. He also had a good long cry.. He was sad about everything that he had gone through, and was tired of it all. Later that evening, he had a night terror.

That evening, his Heilkunstler checked his remedies and after only 2 days, he already was ready for a whole new set of remedies. Goodness!

  1. Ictod. 30C (Physical)
  2. Merc. iod. 200C (Emotions)
  3. Ichthol. 1M – (Mentals)
  4. Anxiety – Cervus 30C
  5. Acute – Gut pain/Nausea – Aurant. 30C  – Take a drop 2 X a day

On Thursday, January 19th, AJ returned to the hospital to receive his third dose of IV antibiotics. Again, it hurt when they flushed the IV site, and he was in such an emotional state that his infectious diseases specialist allowed him to stop the IV antibiotics. He would be transitioned to oral antibiotics (metronidazole three times a day and levlofloxacin once a day). We were so happy to get him off of IV antibiotics.

With the exception of vomiting directly after starting his new droppers, AJ’s stomach settled considerably after starting the new homeopathic droppers and he stopped having diarrhea. Homeopathy is a God-send, really. And, I continued to use a digestive essential oil (ZenGest) when he had any nausea / stomach pains (he actually asks me to rub his belly with this blend to soothe his stomach).

On Jan 19th, he started the 24/7 CoRe treatment for a period of 10 days (it was originally planned for 7 days, but given that it took him so long to get stabilized, we extended it to 10 days), to help support him through this incredibly stressful time. He still had an IVIG infusion to get through.

Third IVIG infusion

On Friday, January 20th, AJ was scheduled for his third IVIG infusion. His nurse was  able to get the IV inserted on the first try and AJ was a real trooper during it (closing his eyes and breathing through it), with the support of a Child Life Specialist. But then he freaked out when he realized that the nurse was going to flush some saline solution through the IV because the flushing caused him pain when they tried to flush on the Wed and Thursday of this week. He completely lost it (screaming and kicking and thrashing about), and they lost the IV site. They called the expert IV specialists, but he was so anxious and in such a state that they couldn’t even try to insert the IV. One of the nurses remarked that he was so upset, it would take 3 grown men to hold AJ down for the IV insertion and they couldn’t do it. His immunologist was called in for a consultation and he explained to AJ why he thought the IVIG would help him (since he’s seen that it’s helped others with his diagnosis), but it might take 6 months for his body to get used to the infusions and for us to see a difference.

AJ agreed to the IV if they sedated him for it, so they planned to give him Madazalam (conscious sedation), but it took a long time for pharmacy to prepare the Madazalam, and we waited, waited and waited. We arrived at the hospital at 10 am to allow more time for the infusion (since last time, AJ’s infusion was scheduled at 1 pm and he had a bad reaction to the IVIG   [vomiting and intense headache] because of the fast 2 hour infusion). Unfortunately this time, because of AJ’s anxiety, they didn’t get the IV inserted until 2:30 pm, and then they did a 4 hour infusion (at my request, they allowed more time for the infusion than last time to minimize the chance of a negative reaction to the infusion). We were at the hospital until 7:30 pm (a total of 9.5 hours to do a 4 hour infusion).

We were all cracking up. AJ had had it. DH was cracking up since he has a stressful job and was getting stressful updates from me throughout his work day. And, I was sad since AJ had such a stressful week with so many medical interventions and I was powerless to protect him from it. And, now they were making plans to restart him on a different prophylactic antibiotic, after he finishes his 10 day course of oral antibiotics to treat his facial cellulitis. WTF?! I’m sad sad sad that he will continue to receive such medicalized treatment (monthly IVIG infusions, prophylactic antibiotics). And I’m sad because this week was a big week for me workwise (at a dream job that feeds my soul) and instead of being able to give that project my attention and energy, I was with AJ for four days that week, working during stolen hours in a hospital room (with no internet connection) and into the evening. And DH was saying things like he wished we hadn’t moved across the country  and that he thought one of us should quit our jobs because it is so very hard / almost impossible for us to maintain our sanity with both of us working fulltime jobs. I felt intuitively like things would eventually work out, but I felt beat up too. We all friggin’ needed a break. We really, really did.

His Heilkunstler checked and two days after starting his last set of remedies, AJ was already ready for new ones:

  1. Aescp. hip. 12C (Physical)
  2. Amor. sat. 200C (Emotions)
  3. Aviaire 1M (Mentals)
  4. Anxiety: Caulo. 30C

Later that evening, we discovered two new abscesses: one under his right armpit and one in another location. (Yes, that’s exactly what we needed. Just shoot me now).

Rest

On Sat, Jan 21st (on DH and my 11th anniversary), the swelling on AJ’s face was finally down, and he had a good day. He scored 5 goals (!!!) while playing hockey in the morning, went to a friend’s house in the afternoon, and went to another friend’s house in the evening. DH and I were so happy for life to get back to normal. He had a night terror later that night. (I think discharging all of the anaesthesia he has had this week).

On Sun, Jan 22nd, he went skating with DH at our community rink in the morning and then went skating at another community rink with one of his friends in the afternoon. We were so happy to have life back to normal and were gearing up for a  normal week.

Not feeling well

Well, the rest phase didn’t last very long. On Monday, Jan 23rd, AJ wasn’t feeling well when we woke him up to get ready for school. No appetite, nauseous, felt like throwing up and tired. DH stayed home with him because I had stayed home with him for four days the previous week. DH was super stressed out because he is still in the probation period of his new job and his employer isn’t as flexible as mine is. He wasn’t able to provide any notice to his employer that he was going to be missing work, and he works at a type of job where he has over 20 appointments booked throughout the day, so it’s a big deal when he misses work. OMG – we really can’t keep on going like this. Something has got to give. I hope and pray that AJ will be healthy and well again for an extended period of time soon because we really can’t continue like this and balance two full-time jobs. We will crack up for sure.

When I got home from work, AJ was still lying on the couch, where he had spent the whole day. Achy, headachy, nauseous, upset stomach and cough. Oh boy. Was this a healing reaction to the recent homeopathic droppers and a discharge of all of the medical interventions from last week?  Or side effects from the oral antibiotics (3 doses of metronidazole a day and one dose of levofloxacin a day) that he is on related to the facial cellulitis that he had last week. Or both?

I checked in with his Heikunstler and she reported that AJ was already in need of new remedies (only 3 days after his last set of remedies, and his 5th set of remedies within a 3 week period):

  1. Physical: Aran. scin. 30C
  2. Emotional: Calc. sil. 200C
  3. Mental: Conium 1M
  4. Anxiety: Rat 30C

He vomited everything in his stomach within 30 minutes of having his first remedies, and then vomited two more times after that. He vomited every time he tried to get something in his stomach (even liquids). I think it was his body’s way of getting rid of toxins (i.e., antibiotics). We were worried about him getting dehydrated because he doesn’t drink enough even when he is feeling well and he was drinking less than normal and was vomiting everything that he was taking in.

He stayed home on Jan 24th, but gained back his appetite and was more himself by the evening. He had a night terror later that night.

Thankfully, he was back to school on Jan 25th (after missing 6 days of school). But, he had a great day at school. When I got home from work, he told me that he was friends with everyone in his class (which is amazing considering that he just started at this school earlier this month) and that everyone missed him. He also received the results of a math test that he completed a couple of weeks ago, and he did phenomenal on the test. We’re so very proud of him and so relieved that life is back to normal.

His next Heilkunst appointment is tomorrow and the 24/7 CoRe treatment is still continuing for ~3 more days.

May our next three weeks be gentler on our family. I certainly hope it will be.

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January 2017 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in December over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

This was a rough month for Moses.

On December 17, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Citrus 12C – (Physical – Abscesses/Eczema/Ear fissures/Digestion/Thrush/Allergies/Dry skin/Asthma/Coughing/Sleep) – a drop a day

2) Aurant. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Fear/Anxiety/Stress) – a drop a day

3) Anhal. 1M – (Mentals – Night terrors/Behaving babyish around mother/Frustration with homework/Brain fog/Spaciness/Time management skills) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety – Pichi 30C – as needed or once a day

Even before Moses started these new droppers, he had a persistent cough, which he had had for weeks. He also had an abscess under his right armpit. Sigh…  He had been receiving 24/7 CoRe treatments for approximately 2 weeks to help his system to stabilize. He was not quite himself emotionally. He was stressed out about starting at a new day home in our new community. He was also in a dark mood because his secret Santa at school gave him a gift of chocolates, which he couldn’t eat because of his allergies to milk. ugh!

Dermatologist’s advice

Moses stopped his prophylactic antibiotic about a week and a half ago, and his back is broken out. I’m remembering now that in the past, when we stopped his prophylactic antibiotic, he experienced a break out in his rashes. Moses recently saw a new dermatologist and he suggested 14 days of a strong steroid cream, 14 days of mild bleach baths (yep, that’s exactly what it sounds like) and 14 days of slathering Moses with Glaxalbase. As much as I hate steroid creams, we are actually going to do it. I was scared that the steroid creams would move the “disease” to this internal organs (i.e., make his chest infection worse). It sounds wacky, but according to homeopathic theory, if you suppress the “disease” at the level of the skin, it has to express somewhere. Despite my fear, I didn’t have it in me to convince DH not to follow it, so I went with the flow of it and we followed the dermatologist’s protocol. Well, I would find out the hard way a few days later, that Moses’ body responded in exactly the way homeopathic theory would predict…

He had a night terror on Dec 19th. As of Dec 20th, Moses was still not happy about being at a new day home, and his skin was still broken out, despite having started the 14 day skin regime. In particular, he had a painful new bump on his back, which is a new place for him to develop bumps. He was still bumpy under his right armpit.

Second IVIG Infusion  = bad experience

On Dec 21st, Moses had his second IVIG infusion. He had a difficult IV start, but they were able to get the IV started at a second site. Because they started the IV later, they sped up his infusion (~3 hours; the first infusion was 6 hours), which was probably too fast because later that evening, he vomited twice and had a nasty headache. Poor boy. He slept in the next morning and I stayed home from work to be with him. He wasn’t feeling himself at all. He still hadn’t eaten by 11 am and he was sad because “I thought that IVIG would help me and now I’m feeling sicker than I ever have been”. And he was sad because Christmas was approaching and he was missing his friends and family in NL, esp. his cousins. “Why did we move here, when we don’t have family here and everyone will be celebrating Christmas with their families except for us.” Goodness. And, the abscess under his right armpit was huge and he had another bump on his back. He had another night terror that evening.

On Dec 23rd, we brought Moses to his family physician and discovered that he had a double ear infection (something he hasn’t had since he was 2 years old) and a viral chest infection. (I think these were the result of following the dermatologist’s advice and the use of the strong steroidal creams). His physician  prescribed a 10 day dose of Amoxicillin. Oh boy – more assault to his gut. DH thought it was important to follow the physician’s advice. I also applied melaleuca (tea tree essential oil) to the outside of his ear. Moses was so miserable, not sleeping well, coughing a lot and having difficulty breathing.  He was so sad to be sick over Christmas. But by the end of the day on the 23rd, he was perking up and being more himself. Not as sad and sick and emotional.

 

New remedies and more abscesses

On Dec 24th, his Heilkunstler said that he was ready for new droppers (only 7 days later – he was processing through his remedies so quickly; for context for new readers, he used to be able to be on the same remedy for 3 weeks):

  • Physical: Tus. far. 12c
  • Emotional: Semp. 200c
  • Mental: Nit. ox. 1m
  • Anxiety: Merc. bin. 200c

Later that afternoon, the abscess under his right armpit started to drain on its own (yay!), and we learned of another abscess in another location, but that looked like it might drain on its own soon. We had a good Christmas spent with friends, but then on Boxing Day, we discovered that Moses had yet another abscess developing. So that made four abscesses, three of which were probably ready to be drained.  WTF? His last drainage under general anaesthesia was only 24 days ago. We can’t continue this. Moses can’t get general anaesthesia once a month! We started the IVIG because we hoped that it would help decrease the frequency of abscesses, but truthfully, it doesn’t seem like it’s been helping at all. I booked a session with his karmic healer. (I try not to book with her very often because her services are astronomically expensive. She typically books a month in advance, so we scheduled an appt for Jan 13th).

My theory about the abscesses was that his body was trying to push out what some of the western medicines have tried to suppress. Since homeopathy generally draws things out of the body, the recent droppers likely gave Moses’ body the energy to push out, which is needed. (Say whereas strong steroidal creams suppress and drive the disease deeper into the body, into the lungs). Out is better than in, but it’s still hard because some of Moses’ abscesses inevitably need to be drained by a surgeon, which means more anaesthesia, which means more night terrors and we keep going around and around and around in this vicious cycle. Plus, DH and I are both working fulltime and my schedule will get busier in the new year. We can’t continue like this. We can’t.

By Dec 27th, he had 6 abscesses: both armpits (the one under his right armpit was huge), his back, and then three in other places). He was also having difficulty hearing – probably because of the ear infection. We hoped that his hearing would return to normal after the infection cleared up, but at least his ears were no longer hurting. His last day of the 24/7 Core treatment was on December 29th, and his Heilkunstler suggested that he take a few days break to see how he does without it. She said that sometimes gains are made in the breaks after the 24/7 treatment.

 

General anaesthesia and abscess drainage

On Dec 29th, we spent a very long day at the hospital – between 11 am and 3 am. His immunology nurse said that she would put in a request with surgery, which we thought might expedite the process, but it really didn’t because since Moses is MRSA-positive, they will always schedule his surgery to be the last one. Moses had three abscesses drained under general anesthesia. He was put on the emergency list and was the last surgery that day – his surgery was a midnight and we didn’t get home until 3 am. Oh boy. On the good side of things, at least these were drained before we all started back to school and work in the new year. Also, we really like our surgeon and the immunology team. The anesthetist was very friendly too. His surgeon listened to our request and didn’t put wicks into Moses abscesses and they also didn’t give him any morphine post-surgery (like they did last time). Moses was still yelling and upset when coming out of the anaesthetic, but it wasn’t as terrible as it was last time.

Moses was such a trooper. He slept for 6 hours and then was ready to go sledding with some friends the very next day after his surgery. I was exhausted, but Moses is fed by fun, so we went sledding.

Moses’ hematologist prescribed another 7 day course of antibiotics  for the MRSA infection (Levofloxacin – this is a new one for Moses. I did some reading on Levofloxacin – it doesn’t look like it’s effective against MRSA, so I have no idea why they prescribed it. Also, it’s generally not approved for children because it is associated with an elevated risk of musculoskeletal injury in this population. We decided not to give it to him).

New remedies

On Dec 30th (the day after the surgery), I checked with his Heilkunstler and she said that he was already ready for new droppers:

  • Pancr. 12C (Physical)
  • Sium 200C – (Emotions)
  • Sfo. 1M – (Mentals)
  • Anxiety – Iber. 30C

This was only 6 days after getting new droppers. For some reason, he’s needing new droppers so frequently (every 6-7 days). Not sure why.

In the evening of Dec 30th, before Moses received his first dose of the new homeopathic droppers, he was having trouble breathing. It’s scary when he takes his puffer a number of times and he still has trouble breathing. Goodness.  Our family needs a break from stress. We really do. During this bout of difficult breathing, I gave Moses his first drops of his new remedies and within 30 minutes, his breathing settled down and he went to his friend’s house to hang out. Thank goodness!

MRSA decolonization

Since we are desperate to stop all of these abscesses from occurring and because they are MRSA infections, we are going to try to decolonize the whole family from MRSA using this protocol. We tried following this protocol a few times. The first time was   5 years ago when DH and I both had MRSA infections. The protocol involves all three of us using a body wash for 5 days (triclosan 1% or chlorhexidine gluconate 4%; we are using the latter); and twice daily nasal ointment (mupirocin 2%).

A couple of days ago, I also started giving Moses MMS baths again (10 drop dosage – will gradually work up to 20 drops).

German New Medicine perspective on abscesses

From a German New Medicine perspective, this is what abscesses mean:

“Abscesses are a problem of the corium or under-skin and when we get them it is usually a sign of a strong feeling of being attacked. That part of our skin protects the inner body, it is the tough skin underneath the surface skin. When a person feels attacked literally by a substance or injury or figuratively, by events or threats from the environment or people, the skin will react with boils and abscesses.

I can imagine that once they started and he has had to be treated for them at the hospital – the treatments themselves are a form of attack, so inevitably after that more abscesses appear as a result of the intervention to treat them! It is a tricky situation that ideally resolves once the abscessed diminish and treatments of that invasive nature can stop.”

Read full text here re: GNM perspective.

In other words, Moses is caught in a vicious cycle. We need this to stop.

Fresh start, new school

Moses started at a new school on January 3rd because we moved to a new community in November. He was terribly stressed about starting at a new school for the last two months, and when we left him at the school, he was  pale, anxiety-stricken and looked shell-shocked. I was really worried about him, but much to my delight and surprise, Moses reported when he got home from school that he had the best day and he had met a lot of people, including kids who love the Vancouver Canucks (Moses’ favourite hockey team). He connected with a kindred spirit on his first day of school, and on their second day of school, they coordinated outfits and both wore their Vancouver Canucks jerseys to school. He had a night terror later that evening (a release from the anaesthesia from the week before?).

On Jan 4th, Moses was looking healthier and was back to his confident self. This was the last day of the “MRSA decolonization protocol” that I described above, and Jan 3rd was his last day of Amoxicillin antibiotics from the ear infection that he developed after Christmas. Our lives were simplifying again and Moses was down to only two medications at night (Alvesco puffer and Reactin for allergies). His cough was even improving and only present in the morning. His skin was looking good too (which might be because of the Amocillin and the decolonization protocol – Moses’ skin generally does better when he’s on an antibiotic). We’ll see what happens in a few weeks. I’d love to be pleasantly surprised to have his skin remain clear.

On the evening of his second day back to school, Moses was doing math homework at night and doing really well, showing us dance moves that he learned at school during gym class, and excitedly described a Vancouver Canucks sign that he was going to make in wood-working class. It was so wonderful, absolutely wonderful how well his adjustment to his new school was going. So, so relieved. Big sigh out!

Perhaps some of these gains were because we recently stopped the 30 days of 24/7 Core treatment (on Dec 27th). His practitioner mentioned that sometimes the gains are observed once the treatment stops. hmmmmm……  In any case, I’m just so relieved, and I hope that this period of rest continues for Moses and for the family. We so desperately need a period of rest. May it be so.

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Moses is the second from the left


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January 2017 – my Heilkunst update

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from late November to mid January (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

I started the following droppers on November 30, 2016:

1) Guaco 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Itchiness/Neck and shoulder pain/TMJ/Sleep/Peri-menopausal) – a drop a day

2) Cupr. 200C – (Emotions – Stress/Anxiety) – a drop a day

3) Aur. mur. kal. 1M – (Mentals – Self-confidence/Adjustment to new home and job) – a drop a day

4) Peri-menopausal symptoms – Mich. 30C – as needed

5) Sleep – Galega 12C – a drop at bedtime each night plus a drop in a glass of water on my nightstand to sip if I wake up.

6) Acute – Anxiety re: move to a new house and new job – Vespa 200C – as needed

New Timeline Wafers:

A – Phas. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – Start two weeks after finishing last set of wafers, taking over five consecutive nights, 1-5. (Children’s Hospital when Moses was an infant / toddler)

Then wait two weeks before starting “B”.

B – Sol. mam. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – Friend’s death – July 2006

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The same day that I started my new droppers was the day that I took my last wafer for my most recent timeline clearing, which was related to a childhood trauma that occurred when I was less than 5 years old. It was a major event in my life and was difficult for me to clear. I experienced intense head and neck pain, so much internal pressure in my head and neck. Life felt that much more difficult. And it didn’t help that I had a very busy work day (fun, but busy), and Moses had two abscesses drained under general anaesthesia the very next day. I described the whole ordeal in this blog post. The experience was awful for Moses and was awful for me. I think it was all the more difficult for me because I was clearing a terrible childhood trauma, and I wasn’t feeling my strongest emotionally. And, it was hard for me to deal with Moses screaming at me for an hour while he was in a morphine-induced hallucination, terrified that he wasn’t going to be able to come out of it. And the next morning, he cried and screamed for three hours, terrified at the thoughts of removing a wick from one of his abscesses. Goodness. I was at my wits’ end. I completely lost it. Really. Swearing and kicking walls. I completely lost it.

I was going to give myself more than the 2 weeks between clearings because this last clearing was such a big one for me, but because of all of the hospital visits and medical consultations we were having, it felt like it was time for me to clear the next timeline event.

Clearing time at Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant

On Dec 14, I started my next timeline wafers (Phas), to clear all of the time spent at the Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant. Now that we are living in the city where Moses was born after 8 years of being away, I’ve been finding that I’m being re-triggered when we visit the children’s hospital. I have so many awful memories of time spent visiting various medical professionals. Moses was 2.5 years old when we first moved away from his birth city. Moses wasn’t diagnosed with hyper IgE syndrome until he was 4.5 years old, so no one had any answers for why Moses was so sick during his first few years of life. He was covered with rashes from his head to his ankles. (I remember one  cranialsacral specialist who would kindly say, “Look at his beautiful feet,” because I think she was looking for something positive to say and it was the only part of his body not covered in rashes). As I mentioned in a recent post, Moses had a traumatic birth and spent his first 6 days in the hospital. And when we got him home, he was colicky (allergic to my breast milk because I didn’t know that I was eating so many foods that he was allergic to) and covered in rashes by the time he was 14 days old. He was less than a year when he started developing abscesses and he was already getting them drained under general anaesthesia and also local anaesthesia. He also had 3 anaphylactic reactions before the time he was 2.5 years old. There were so many trips to the ER that we were known by triage nurses as “the family with the child with so many allergies”.  In addition, he was admitted to the hospital on at least 3 different occasions (drainage of an abscess along his jaw, pneumonia and gastro-intestinal bleeding).

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I was surprised to find this old-school medical file on Moses’ bedside before his general anaesthesia / abscess drainage. It was from 8 years before and there was a stamp on the front of the file saying that this is only a portion of his file. Moses only lived in this city for 2 years to amass a medical file this thick.

We’ve now returned to Moses’ birth city after living in NL for 8 years and it’s a bit sobering that although Moses has made amazing progress in his health, we are still firmly entrenched in the medical system and are still making weekly visits to the Children’s hospital. We’ve been back for 3 months and he’s already had 2 ER visits, drainage of 5 abscesses under local and general anaesthesia, two 5-day courses of higher potency antibiotics and consultations with an immunologist; infectious disease specialist; dermatologist; ear, nose and throat specialist; and multiple surgeons. And he started monthly IVIG treatment. Goodness! WTF.

I knew that I needed to clear all of the time spent spent at the Children’s hospital when Moses was an infant because every time that I drive into the hospital parkade, I get flashbacks of carrying Moses in his infant car seat and pushing him in his stroller into his appointments, and it hurts my heart as 1) I remember all of those awful times of stress and not understanding why Moses was so sick and feeling a tremendous amount of guilt for not being a good enough mom to keep my son well, and 2) I experience more heartache that despite the fact that we have done so much to facilitate Moses’ healing and even though he is doing phenomenal given his diagnosis, he is still considered sick by the medical system and is still enduring medical traumas. When we left our home in NL, Moses had been doing so well. I had naively thought that maybe hospital visits were a time of the past. Little did I know that moving would be so traumatic for Moses and that his body would have such a hard time with the move, mentally, emotionally and physically.

Since Moses’ system isn’t strong enough to clear any timeline events at the moment, any clearing that I do will help both me and him since we are so interconnected. I am still optimistic that now that we are done all of our moving (we had 2 moves within 2.5 months) and once Moses adjusts to his new school in January, his system will once again come back to equilibrium. As I write these words, Moses is home sick with me with a cough. I pray that his system comes back to equilibrium. Of course, I know that it will, but there’s still a part of me that worries when he has a cough that it will spiral into pneumonia. That’s always the fear lurking in the background. Thankfully, he’s been pneumonia-free for a year and a half now, but still that fear is always there.

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Thankfully, Moses didn’t develop pneumonia and he was well enough for us to attend a Christmas party in the mountains, which was so much fun for all of us. We had an overnight trip to the mountains. Just what we needed. Some fun, good company, reconnections with old friends/colleagues and joy.

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We drove home from the mountains today, on Dec 17th. I took my fourth timeline wafer (Phas 1M) today. I have one more to take tomorrow. Not surprisingly, it feels like another doozy of a clearing. I’m feeling overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. Headachey. Empty. Hungry, but don’t feel like eating anything. I forgot to eat lunch today, which explains why I was so ravenous by supper time. I’m feeling sad. Normally, I feel optimistic about things and energized by life, but right now, I’m just feeling sad. I’m thankful that DH and Moses are out and I have some quiet time to process my emotions. We have been through a lot over the last year. It has been a helluva year. So great in so many ways. I’m thankful that we are rooting in his home that we love. I’m thankful that we’ve returned to a city that we love. I’m thankful for a job that feeds my soul. So very thankful. I’m thankful that overall, Moses is well, especially given his diagnosis.

And yet and yet and yet… Today, I feel beat up. Tired. I’m sad that Moses has yet another huge abscess under his right armpit, after having 5 drained by surgeons in the last 2 months. His last general anaesthesia was only 15 days ago. Goodness. Really?! We are tired of this. WTF. Seriously?! We need to get off of this rollercoaster ride. We need for life to be stable for us. What to do, what to do, what to do?

Moses has his second IVIG appt in a few days. We’re hoping that the IVIG will help. We’ve recently stopped Moses’ prophylactic antibiotic because it’s not effective against Moses’ infection. Did you know that between March 2014 to Dec 2016, Moses has had 142 abscesses? It’s ridiculous! I’m feeling powerless and hopeless today. I know that my current state of mind will pass, and I’m feeling like I am because of the timeline event that I’m clearing. Goodness, it feels like a doozy.

Praying that Moses’ body can somehow get off of this abscess train. May it be so. Hopefully the combination of karmic healing, homeopathy, CoRe treatments and IVIG can help. May it be so.

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It’s now 3 days later (Dec 20th) and I’m not feeling as sad. Now, I’m just feeling headachey and stiff, even though I’ve actually started practicing yoga again. Nonetheless, things are feeling extra hard and I’m not feeling at the top of my game. I’m still productive at work, but at home, I’m feeling sluggish. My energy levels probably make sense as we are approaching the solstice, which is a time of darkness, stillness and quiet. I am feeling quite internal.

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It’s now January 5th and my next Heilkunst appt is tomorrow. In the last 16 days, Moses had had his second IVIG infusion (a bad experience), vomited twice, had an intense headache, developed a double ear infection, a viral chest infection, developed 6 abscesses and had 3 abscesses drained under general anaesthesia at midnight and we were kept at the hospital until 3 am (incredibly, he fasted for 18 hours from 8:30 am until 2 am), and he also started at a new school. You can read all about those adventures here. So it was a hard couple of weeks. To be fair, we also had some good times, like Christmas dinner and New Year’s eve with some friends, but mostly it was difficult and I worried a lot. I also needed to help keep Moses’ spirits up because he, understandably, was going through a difficult time emotionally.

Thankfully, Moses’ first couple of days at school have gone really well and it feels like Moses’s physical and emotional health is on the up and up.

I took a week and a half off of work over the Christmas holidays and have been back at work for three days now. It feels like we are getting back into our regular school / work rhythm. Moses and DH are playing hockey at our neighbourhood hockey rink as I type these words. I’m still loving, loving, loving my new job. So happy to have a job that feeds my soul and makes use of my skills on a project that my heart is passionate about. I hope and pray that Moses’ health comes back to equilibrium because my new job will require more of my time and energy in the new year, including travelling to different sites within the city and outside of the city (but within the province), some early mornings and also some evenings. I’m praying that it will all work out. May it be so.

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Clearing a friend’s death

Oh, I almost forgot that on Jan 2nd, I started my next timeline clearing to clear the trauma and shock of a friend’s sudden death in July 2006, which occurred a couple of blocks away from my house, and the evening of a D&C surgery that I had 6 weeks after Moses was born. I remember coming home the next morning after my surgery and police had barricaded the street behind my house. I found out later that the barricade was related to my friend’s death. I went into a deep shock when I found out. I called her house to ask for our spare set of keys because she had recently house sat for us, and her sister told me that she was sorry but my friend had died. I remember that I was holding Moses at the time and I had to put him down in his crib so that I could scream and cry my eyes out.

I’m still in the middle of clearing this event and am still taking the wafers. I’m taking the last of my last of five wafers related to this clearing tomorrow morning, which is when I have my next Heilkunst session. I had a bad headache on the days that I took my first two wafers, and have been eating for comfort a lot lately.

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December 2016 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in December over a 3 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On November 23, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Chry. ac. 12C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/AsthmaAccident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep) – a drop a day

2) Guarea 200C– (Emotions – Anger/Grief over so many changes) – a drop a day

3) Kali bi. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and impeding change to new school in January, making new friends – Piper nig. 30C

5) Cold: Bals. 9c

He started these droppers the evening of his first day that he received his first IVIG infusion (read more about this experience here), and earlier that day, had developed a new abscess and had another large abscess under his left armpit. He had a night terror that evening, his second one in a row. And he had another night terror four nights later on Nov 27th.

24/7 CoRe Treatment

His session with his Heilkunstler was on Nov 29th, and based on all of the difficulties that Moses has been having since our move (abscesses, night terrors, hallucinations, emotional stress, anger and grief), we decided to start a 24/7  Inergetix CoRe treatment.

I had planned to do it for at least 10 days, but because it appeared that Moses was responding well to the treatment, I decided to continue the treatment for an entire month to try to help stabilize Moses’s system.

The CoRe treatment practitioner explained:

“For now, I am focusing on the part that remedies are not able to hold stable or change fast enough. I know he is being treated every 10 days or so. The 24 hr treatment is meant to reduce tension and symptoms, stabilize him and then he can probably resume his regular treatments once more.

During the 10 days of my treatment the symptoms or main problem can change to something else, so if you let me know about it, I can pick the next set of rates accordingly. This is the main benefit from this approach – the daily monitoring and opportunity to quickly adjust the treatment as things start changing. Let’s hope it works quickly for Moses.”

New remedies

On the day after he started the CoRE treatment (on Nov 30), Moses started new homeopathic droppers. He wasn’t yet proving the previous set of remedies, but his Heilkunstler decided to give him new droppers to give him a fresh start since we had just had a consultation:

1) Fel. t. 30C – (Physical – Abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Food allergies/Digestion/Brain fog/Itchiness/Asthma/Sleep) – a drop a day

2) Lin. cath. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief/Anxiety over upcoming change of school) – a drop a day

3) Merls. 1M – (Mentals – Academic work/Attention span/Frustration with homework/Night terrors & Involuntary shaking) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety re upcoming change of school – Asimina 30C – as needed

General anesthesia / more abscess drainage

The day after he started his new droppers (on December 1st), he had 2 abscesses drained under local anaesthesia (left armpit, and another location). Goodness – so much going on for my boy! I think the CoRe treatment really helped with keeping Moses’ system calm prior to the surgery. He was so calm. He didn’t complain of hunger, which was huge deal since he fasted between midnight until his procedure at 2 pm, and he typically eats when he’s stressed. He did so well.  But, he came out of the anaesthesia as he typically does, screaming, in a night terror-like state.  By the time they called me to his side, they had already given him morphine because they thought he was in pain. It was terrible; I never would have given them permission to give him morphine if they had asked. As a result of the morphine, it took him much longer than normal to come to. He screamed and kicked for an hour after I got to his side. He was terrified.  He screamed at me that he couldn’t stop kicking and screaming and he was terrified that he was never going to come to, that he was going to be stuck in that other hallucinogenic world forever. It was awful.

But thankfully, it did pass, and after he came out of it, he did really well, and he was his normal self by the evening. But, the ordeal wasn’t over because his surgeon had inserted a wick in both abscesses, and Moses has had several bad experiences with wicks getting stuck in the abscesses  / pain associated with the wick coming out. We removed one of the wicks within a few hours of his surgery because we find that his surgical incisions heal quickly and sometimes start to close around the wick, making it hard for the wick to come out, esp. if they pack it too tightly, so the quicker we get them out the better. He was freaked out and upset, but we finally convinced him to let us take it out.

The next morning (Dec 2), we had a terrible time getting the second wick out. He cried for 3 hours straight. He was so upset and scared and angry. And then later that evening, his immunologist prescribed a 5 day course of Linezolid (a strong antibiotic) because the abscesses are related to MRSA.

No more prophylactic antibiotic

On Dec 7, he had an appt with a new infectious diseases specialist (new since we recently moved to this city). She said that Moses’ cultured MRSA is resistant to the prophylactic antibiotic that Moses is on, so we can stop Doxycycline. Woot woot!!!!!!!!

I really felt that the 24/7 treatment was helping. Moses was emotionally stabilized. He hadn’t had any night terrors since we started the CoRe treatment. I was also relieved that he didn’t have any gastrointestinal issues to the 5 day course of Linezolid. He was emotionally stable. No new abscesses had developed. His only symptom was a persistent cough that was present for weeks.

New remedies

December 8 was Moses’ first day of being antibiotic-free. And, oddly enough, he woke up in a black cloud. He was so angry. He felt like he was hard done by. He felt like life was unfair. I asked his Heilkunstler if he was ready for new remedies since it was day 9 of his droppers, and he’d recently been on a 10 day cycle. She checked and said that he could have still continued on the same droppers for another 2 days, but given the recent symptoms, she gave him 3 new remedies.

  1. Physical – Carbo h. 30C
  2. Emotional – Crot. c. 200C
  3. Mental – Fluor. ac. 1M

That same day, he called me from school (this was before he received his new remedies) and he asked to be picked up from school because he had hurt his toe and thought it was broken or sprained. When I got to school, I could tell that it wasn’t that serious by the way he was moving, although it was swollen. When we got home, I put some frankincense, massage blend essential oil and peppermint essential oil and within an hour, there was no more pain. Thank goodness for the essential oils. I think the new homeopathic droppers helped as well. He had a night terror that evening and the following evening.

On Saturday, Dec 10th, Moses found out that his budgie bird in NL died. He was very sad and mad. He was mad all day long.

On Sunday, Dec 11th, his cough continued and seemed to be getting worst. It hurt for him to cough. The cough was so bad that I was worried that might develop into pneumonia. He had play dates on the Sat and Sunday, so he still had energy to play and have fun, but on Sunday evening, he was feeling he sick and mad and down in the dumps. His Heilkunstler gave him a new cold dropper (Pop. c. 9C), and Moses’ CoRe practitioner  noted that :

“It is interesting to note that from a German New Medicine perspective coughing is a sign of territorial fear conflicts and a result of a previous irritation of the air passages, when the person was in stress mode. Coughing is a release, but can become chronic when the stress repeats itself. In essence it is a healing process in the body that can be quite uncomfortable, but is meant to clean up and restore the respiratory system.

All healing symptoms worsen at night when our mind is more relaxed and when our body is at rest – with the coming of night we switch to the autonomic nervous system and the body begins a process of self-cleansing etc – and all fevers, coughs and such can feel worse then.”

It’s true – Moses’ symptoms always worsen at night. By the evening of the following day (Dec 12), Moses was feeling much better. He still had a cough, but it was better than it was. I think the  homeopathic dropper helped. I also massaged his back with melissa essential oil (which has anti-viral properties). And, he had a pocket full of essential oil cough drops, which he was popping in his mouth as needed during the day.

On the evening of Dec 13, Moses’ cough was worse again, and he was also very emotional because he didn’t do so well on a social studies test and DH was harder on him than he needed to be.

On the evening of Dec 14, his coughing worsened again, and he was up half of the night coughing. He also had the beginnings of a night terror, but came out of it easily. We kept him home from school on Dec 15th to rest. There’s a also huge bump starting under his right armpit.

Tomorrow is Moses’ next Heilkunst appt, and his last day of school before the holidays. Next week, Moses will be starting at a new day home in our new community, then I’ll spend a week home with him during the week between Christmas and New Year’s, and then he starts a new school in January. There are still a lot of new transitions that Moses is navigating. I am hoping that now that we are rooting in one home (which all three of us love) that things will start to settle down for Moses. I also hope that the continued homeopathic and CoRE treatments continue to help his system to stabilize.

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November 2016 – My Heilkunst update

This is a summary of my Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update from mid-October to late November (6 weeks). Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

I started the following droppers on October 18, 2016:

1) Vern. 30C – (Physical – Digestion/Neck and shoulder pain/Itchiness/TMJ/Plantar’s warts/Hay fever/Allergies) – a drop a day

2) Puls. 200C – (Emotions – Anxiety/Stress concerning Moses, new job and transition to new life in Calgary) – a drop a day

3) Pilo 1M – (Mentals – Socialization/Self-confidence/Self-esteem) – a drop a day

4) Peri-menopausal – Eryng. m. 30C – a drop a day or as needed

5) Anxiety re transition to new job and new home – Stan. 30C – a drop a day

New Timeline Wafers:

A – Gall. ac. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M – memory of Moses being in NICU at birth and working at the same hospital now.

B – Physo. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M – Abuse pre-age 5

After starting my droppers, I noticed that I was itchy and was scratching at night. Especially my stomach area. A week later, I was feeling annoyed, ungrounded and itchy. Likely a healing reaction to my timeline wafer clearing that I finished right before I started these new powders (i.e., clearing ending a significant relationship with a spiritual teacher).

Moses and I spent the day at the Children’s hospital, meeting his new immunologist and getting blood work on Oct 27th. It took me days to get over this day. I dropped into a dark funk, and I grieved another layer of emotions related to having a son with a combined primary immunodeficiency. Moses had been abscess-free for so long (since Feb), and now he had tons of  abscesses (~7 in three places). My poor boy. What was going on? I felt grief and guilt-stricken too because Moses has an undeniable pattern of developing abscesses after I spend time with spiritual people. This will sound woo-woo to most, but I’ve been the pattern too many times over too many years not to see the pattern. And, I was heart-broken because I think it means that I will need to take space from some friends who I love. I was also grief-stricken because his immunologist strongly recommended that Moses receive monthly IVIG infusions, which means spending a day at the hospital once a month to receive a blood product made up of immunoglobins donated from thousands of people. His immunologist in our last city had recommended it too, but didn’t strongly push it and our family wasn’t ready to go this route. To me, the feels like admitting defeat – that my son needs such an extraordinary intervention to be well. Also, it’s signing up for a monthly appointment at the hospital, when my son needs to be hooked up to an IV. And, it’s managing yet another appointment, while DH and I are both trying to manage fulltime jobs and responsibilities. It feels like a whole lot. And yet and yet and yet…. my gut has been telling me “say yes to the IVIG. It will help”. And so, we are saying yes. But that doesn’t mean that I can’t grieve.

We are also three weeks to moving again. We purchased a sweet home in a nearby community. I hate that we need to pack, un-root and transition again after so many transitions in the last couple of months. And also trying to keep life as stable as possible for Moses. I’m going through a hard time right now. I’m not sure if it’s worst because of what I’m clearing homeopathically. It’s hard for me to tease out what’s what.

Clearing trauma of Moses being in NICU at birth

On November 1st, I started my timeline wafers (Gall) to clear the trauma of Moses’s birth. Again. I’ve cleared the trauma associated with Moses’ birth in the past (and Moses has cleared his own birth – the physical effects and emotional effects), but I knew that it needed to be recleared for me because I’m now actually working at the very same hospital where Moses spent the first 6 days of his life at NICU. He was born at one hospital, had difficulty breathing when he was born and he was whisked away from my belly moments after his birth so that he could be intubated. Because the hospital that he was born in didn’t have a Level 3 NICU, he was transported in an ambulance to another hospital within hours of his birth. He was such a trooper that he ripped out the tubes that were inserted into his lungs during his ambulance ride. I was later transported in an ambulance to the same hospital that Moses was. I remember waking up with a night terror, the night of Moses’ birth. I woke up screaming and trying to get out of my hospital room, the nurse trying to calm me down. My first hours as a mother wasn’t supposed to be that way. I still hadn’t met or held my son. I didn’t see him or get to hold him until the next morning, 12 hours after he was born.

I knew that I needed to reclear this timeline event because on the day before my interview for my new job, when I looked at the map of the hospital where I was going to be interviewed, I burst into tears because it retriggered the memories of Moses’ difficult first days. And now, every morning when I drive to work, I am reminded about Moses’ birth. Every single morning.

It’s kind of ironic that my life’s journey has lead me to working at a hospital. I’m actually working for the university as a research coordinator, but my office is at the hospital. The project that I’m working on is about less medical interventions at birth, so it’s a project that I am passionate about. I feel that it’s quite amazing that I have this current role (divine intervention?) given that it’s a completely different line of work than what I have done in the past, since I’m a wildlife biologist by training. I’m actually loving my new job – I’m using my skills (i.e., project coordination, writing, research) on a project that I’m passionate about. I also love my colleagues. So, I feel that this clearing will be important and so very helpful in me being able to more present with my current job and will allow me to make peace with the past, which will help with my healing journey as well as Moses’.

My healing reaction was an increase in rashes on my belly. My belly was a mess of bloody scabs during this time. Symbolic? hmmmm…

It’s now a few weeks later and I am no longer reminded about Moses’ birth every time I drive to my work. Thank goodness!

Clearing childhood trauma

We moved to a new home on Nov 19th, Moses had his first IVIG infusion on Nov 23rd and I started my new timeline wafers (Physo. 12C/30C/200C/1M/10M/50M) on Nov 24th. I had delayed started the new wafers by four days, but perhaps I should have delayed even more because they hit me like a ton of bricks. These wafers were related to clearing a childhood trauma that occurred when I was less than 5 years old. I felt like I was travelling through dark energetic muck during this time and everything felt that much harder. I also had an intense headache and my neck and shoulder pains were much more intense than they normally are. I’m still in the middle of it right now as I just took the 10M wafer today. I’ll be taking my last wafer (50M) tomorrow, on the day of my next appt with my Heilkunstler. It’ll take at least a couple more weeks before this works through my system. Suffice it to say that it feels intense, and it’s been an intense time for the family with all of the changes that we’ve gone through in the last three months (moved across the country, started a new job in a new field, moved homes again, and of course, holding space for everything that Moses is going through physically and emotionally).

Overall, I’m actually coping extremely well and doing so well. I think everything that I’ve been doing to support myself has been helping (e.g., homeopathy, karmic healing, essential oils, daily walks in nature,  listening to meditations, trying to stay grounded, listening to my intuition, saying no to some things that don’t feel right, saying yes to things that feel right, not over-scheduling). I also really feel that the Thrive supplements that I’ve been taking have been helping to give me more energy and mental clarity. I feel that they’ve been a complete game-changer actually.

It also helps that I absolutely love, love, love my new job and the people that I’m working with. And, I love, love, love the city that we are living in and the nearby mountains and our new home. I love everything about our new lives. I’m so happy and relieved that we had the courage to take the leap of faith and everything has worked out. Big sigh out of relief. And, DH is also so happy living here. It just feels like sunshine in our lives and in our home.

My biggest concern at the moment is to get Moses off of the “abscess train” that we are on. I’m hoping that the IVIG infusions will help. May it be so. Nonetheless, I’m thankful that Moses is doing as well as he is doing. He is otherwise healthy and well. And for that, I am thankful.

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Mid-November 2016 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late October and early November over a 10 day period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On November 3, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Carya 12C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep/Effects of anesthesia) – a drop a day

2) Cypr 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day

3) Hecla 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and school and impeding second move, as well as anxiety about medical interventions – Cupr acet 12C

The day that he started his new droppers was the day after he had spent 8 hours in the ER, getting 3 abscesses drained under local anesthesia, as well as nitrous oxide and madazolam, so he slept in and stayed home from school. The next evening, he had a night terror (not surprising given the nitrous oxide and madazolam that his body had recently endured). Around this time, he was still hallucinating and seeing things that were scaring him. This especially happened at night before he went to bed, but it was happening at other times during the day. He was still hearing and seeing things as of Nov. 13th.

On Nov 3, the day he started his new droppers, I accidentally fed Moses something that contained pecans in it (one of his former allergens) and he didn’t have an allergic reaction. Woot woot – this is amazing and great news. I’m going to slowly start feeding him other tree nuts and see how he does. A couple of weeks ago, we discovered that he’s no longer allergic to sunflower seeds, so this is amazing that Moses is “outgrowing” some of his allergies!!!!

On Nov 9th, Moses had an abscess that was on the back of his head spontaneously drain.

He saw a new chiropractor on Nov. 12 and the one small abscess under both armpits turned into two larger abscesses under both armpits, so I think that will be the last time we see this chiropractor. Perhaps the increase in abscesses was because of the lymphatic drainage that she did, but in any case, I don’t want to chance that happening again. We want to get off this abscess train. By the next day, he had 4 abscesses under his left armpit,  2 under his right and another one starting in a different location. He was also having difficulty breathing and coughing a lot. Sheeesh. I checked with his Heilkunstler and she said that he was ready for new remedies already, so this round lasted only for 10 days (whereas, Moses used to tolerate the same remedies for 3 weeks). So thankful that our Heilkunstler is so responsive between sessions.

Gifts

  • Moses is not allergic to pecans! Woot woot!
  • He is still physically active (hockey camp, swimming, hiking and physical play).


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November 2016 – Heilkunst update

This is a summary of Moses’ Heilkunst (sequential homeopathy) update in late October and early November over a 2 week period. Read more about our Heilkunst journey here.

On Oct 18, 2016, Moses started the following droppers:

1) Carb. 30C – (Physical – abscesses/Rashes/Ear fissures/Thrush in mouth/Asthma/Ulcerated tongue/Bumps on head/Accident prone/Tooth decay/Brain fog/Bloody snot/Itching/Food allergies/Sleep) – a drop a day

2) Coff. t. 200C – (Emotions – Anger/Grief over move to Calgary and missing friends and relatives) – a drop a day

3) Hell. n. 1M – (Mentals – Academic motivation/Friendships/Peer socialization/Babyishness with mother/Overly emotional) – a drop a day

4) Anxiety re: transitions to new home and new school – Cast. 200C – a drop a day

The day after Moses started his new droppers, he developed three new abscesses (2 under his right armpit and 1 under his left armpit). One of the abscesses under his right armpit was already coming to a head. He also had a small bump on the top of his head, which developed 2 days before he started his new dropper. I was very upset/worried because these were his abscesses to develop under his armpit since starting Doxycycline in February. I was particularly upset because I had spent time with some spiritual friends 4 days before these appeared. It’s a long story, but Moses has a history of developing abscesses after I spend time with spiritual people.

On October 21, Moses fell down at school and hurt his pinkie. He was so upset that he threw up and had a panic attack. The next day, he had another panic attack in the shower. DH had to talk him down. Moses told me that he kept seeing things that weren’t there and that the pictures were speeding up. Goodness. A healing reaction to the droppers or was he still dealing with extraneous energies related to the time that I spent with spiritual friends?

On October 24th, we found out that Moses was struggling with math. And he was feeling emotional and overwhelmed by the fact that he was going to need to transfer schools in January because we were moving. And, he was missing his friends back in St. John’s. It was all too much for him to handle.

On October 26th, we discovered yet another abscess in a new place. My poor boy.

On October 27th, Moses had his first consultation with his immunologist in our new city. He highly recommended monthly IVIG infusions, which was suggested to us in the past, but DH and I weren’t fans of it because, well, it’s a blood product and the risks associated with that, we didn’t want Moses to need to receive IVIG infusions every month (i.e. time off of work; it’s traumatic for Moses to get IVs), and most of all, it’s like admitting that okay Moses really has an immune disorder that is otherwise not treatable except through extraordinary measures like monthly blood product infusions. Goodness. Read more about my thoughts about it here.

On November 2nd, Moses spent 8 hours in the ER because three of his abscesses were huge and needed to be drained. It was drained  under local anaesthetic, but he also received nitrous oxide and madazolam because he was so anxious. Thankfully, the anaesthetic helped and it wasn’t painful for him, but with all of the anaesthetic, I wouldn’t be surprised if he has more night terrors. What a vicious cycle. His immunological team wanted him to be admitted with IV antibiotics, but DH and I said that we weren’t going to do that because we know from experience that Moses generally gets sicker when he’s admitted to the hospital, so they let us go with oral antibiotics (Clindamycin).

On November 3rd, our Heilkunstler gave Moses new remedies because she said he was already proving the remedies that he was on. Goodness. He was only on them for 2 weeks. He seems to be on a quicker cycle at the moment. Moses’ next consultation with his Heilkunstler is booked for next Tuesday. I very much appreciate her providing Moses’ new remedies before our next session. I also booked a session with his karmic healer; the session is booked in a couple of weeks.

May Moses’ next cycle be gentler. May the drainage sites all heal well. He still has some “unripe” abscesses that couldn’t be drained last night. May they just resolve on their own. And may our next move that is scheduled to occur in 16 days be a gentle and easy transition for all of us.

Gifts

Moses went trick-or-treating on Halloween, and he went to his second NHL game ever last Friday. He was pretty excited. He’s still a vision of health and vitality. What a trooper.

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